𝓱𝓪𝓻𝓻𝔂 𝓹𝓸𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝓲𝓶𝓪𝓰𝓲𝓷𝓮𝓼

12: worry - remus lupin

The kitchen of Nr 12 Grimmauld place was filled with voices as the order had another meeting. You were seated between your husband, Remus, and Molly Weasley, who were fiercely discussing how to strengthen the defence and the protection of her children. You were always calm during these meetings, even calmer then your husband. You always spoke in a calm voice and told the others to cool down. Only once or twice had you risen your voice, so it was a rare sound.

"He is just a boy Sirius, he's to young to know!" Molly said, slamming her hand down on the table, sitting back down.

"In his second year he defeated a bloody basilisk Molly, I think he's mature enough, plus, when are we going to tell him? When Voldemort has tried already? Or perhaps when he's dead!" Sirius said, staring the others know.

"Okey, lets just calm down-" you started but Sirius quickly interrupted you.

"Calm down? People are dying Y/n. This is not the time to be calm. Do you ever worry about someone, rather than being calm." He said, looking you dead in the eyes. Something within you snapped when he uttered those words. Of course you were worried, you were terrified, if you hadn't been you would've been out of your mind.

"Of course i am worried, everyday I'm worried, scared. I'm bloody terrified!" You said, standing up, slamming your hands against the table, your voice loud. "Everyday i am worried that a family member is dead, that an order member is dead, that a friend is dead. Every. Single. Day. So don't you dare say that i am not worried because I am-" Small tears started running down your cheeks and Remus immediately stood up and grabbed your face, hushing you gently. When you looked into his soft green eyes you relaxed in a second, leaning your head against his chest as he calmed you down.

"I think that will be it for now." Arthur softly spoke and you herd the others standing up.

"Yes.. dinner will be ready soon, Severus, will you be staying?" Molly asked.

"No.. I have other things to do, good evening." He said before apperating.

"Oh well alright then, I'll get the kids."

"Are you alright love?" Remus asked you as you looked up at him again, you nodded softly. "You can't keep bottling these feelings up, talk to me, alright." He said and you nodded again, mumbling a quiet apology. "It's alright darling, you want some chocolate?" You chuckled slightly at his words.

"After dinner perhaps." You smiled before pecking his lips, you herd someone clearing their throat behind you. Turning around you saw Sirius Black standing there, wearing a guilty face expression.

"I just wanted to apologise, i know that you're worried i just-" He said, but you interrupted him.

"Oh come here Sirius." You pulled him into a hug. "Of course i forgive you." You smiled at him before sitting back down next to Remus, leaning your head against his shoulder as the table filled with people.