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~ not me

Well, I witnessed another love story last night,
He claimed he was mesmerized by her at first sight,
Oh what a beautiful story they had to tell,
Of being in love, a word i couldn't even spell,
I've always fallen in love with someone but never been in love,
And having fallen in love with the wrong person; I've had enough,
And i'm honestly afraid to fall in love with you all over again,
Because i bled tears all night for someone who wasn't worth of them,
But there are nights where i crave for those broad shoulders you bear,
A place where i can lay peacefully, aloof of all the things I'm scared,
And there are times that pass by where i need someone to assure me,
That everything is gonna be alright, despite of being sad and lonely,
And even if the galaxies come to an end, I'll be there for you forever,
But I'm too scared to let you know that, afraid you'll leave me for Heather,
And to break it you, im not the typical girl boys fall in love with,
A smile is always plastered on my face even if I've been through shit,
And I understand why I'm the one, they say easily "leave her",
I don't love me yet, and that's how I know why they don't either,
And when someone tries to treat me the way I  deserve to be,
I have no clue how to respond because I'm  damaged that deep,
Now tell me should I expect a you and I, only if you persist,
Coz I don't want to wait forever for something that doesn't exist,
I'm not afraid of falling in love, I'm afraid of being the only one who is,
Ache for some long drives in sunset and a midnight fairytale kiss,
I'm afraid you'll get tired of me, that I won't be  enough for you,
I'll leave you then, but not everyone who leaves wants to,
"Eyes full of light and a heart filled with hope, I could give her my sweater,
But I'm not who she thinks I am, she deserves someone better"
he said to himself.

~hope you're safe, be happy and take care ❤️