Nepenthe

17| twenty years

twenty years and waiting still
for you to break your iron will
of love and pride that's only grown
for someone's daughter, not your own

twenty years and counting since
you were supposed to be my prince
to love and guide and make me stronger 
but you were all that for someone else's daughter

been twenty years and I don't want to lie
haven't spent a day that hasn't gone by
wondering why I was never enough
was choosing me was all that tough

twenty years but I will count no more
she can be the one that you'll always adore
been twenty years but I won't wait any longer
you will always only love someone else's daughter

and I will be everything you were not
one day, when I will have my own daughter.

~10.11.2020