by now, you'd think I'd have gotten used to this feeling of lingering loneliness even amidst this crowd,
that i'd have learnt to somehow live in this deafening silence of sorrows, anchoring me to my past
by now, you'd assume that i'd have learnt how to look in the mirror and not completely break down, ashamed of the monster staring back at me with eyes devoid of hope
every cell and fibre in me wailing at me to just give up
truth is, i'm still learning
and every time i taught myself to love a part of me, life always gave me a million reasons to hate
every time I found a single reason to let go and move forward
i'd somehow stumble upon a million excuses to run back
until you
even in the worst of my days, when everything was falling apart and i could barely stand myself
when nights turned into days but tears never stopped
your love was what kept me going
and slowly i started to realise that if you could love me despite everything
then maybe i could love myself too
not everyone is blessed with miracles
but i've been blessed with you
and this one reason is enough
i'd spent years drowning myself in the past and being afraid of what the future might hold
but for you, i'm ready to let go and let myself feel happiness for the first time in years
truth is, i love you
and i've finally started to love myself again, because of you.
~06/10/2018
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