🥀 broken | taekook fanfic 🌊

🍢-Part 16

...should i already forgive him?
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3rd person POV:
it's been a few weeks since taehyung started taking jeongguk on dates and showing his love and care, now it was time to take another step, which was winning jeongguk's trust again. and just like jennie told taehyung to ask about his mental health, he was gonna do it today.

it was now 6pm, and both guys were watching tv. when the show they were watching ended, tae turned off the tv and turned towards jeongguk's direction, who was sitting next to him.
jeongguk looked at him confused, not knowing what that action was for. until taehyung started talking,
"ggukie, how are you?" he purely asked, meanwhile the younger was collecting his thoughts again, "m-me? i'm fine- why are you asking?"
"no, i mean, is there something bothering you?"

Jeongguk's POV:
how did he know.?! i didn't tell him anything.. i swear i didn't..
ahh, what do i tell him now..? he's waiting for an answer- i'll just act like i don't know what he means, yeah, that.
"something like what..?" i tilted my head,
"is there something that's been on your mind in the past days.?" shit- ah fvck it, i don't know how to lie anyway, "u-uhm.. maybe..?"
"and.. what is it..? if you don't mind telling me."
"i don't know.."
"should i like, give you examples and you say yes or no.?"
"okay."
"is it about yourself.?" i nodded, "is it something negative?" i slowly nodded again, "is it about your self acceptance?" i nodded, looking down this time.
but how did he know? i don't have a diary for him to accidentally read it. ah, i don't know.

"gguk look at me" he ordered, and i obeyed. "listen, i understand if you can't talk about it or don't want to, but is it okay if you write everything on your mind on a sheet of paper?" once again, i nodded. it was true, i couldn't talk about it face to face.

he went and got me a paper and a pen, as i slowly began to write down everything. "i'll go make us both cappuccino okay? you can take your time writing" he smiled and went to the kitchen.
i continued writing. i didn't even hesitate, maybe because i trust him..?

later on, he came back with two drinks and i was done with the writing task. he handed me a cup, "thanks" i thanked him as i took a sip from my drink then placed it on the table.
once he sat down next to me he gave grabbed the paper, "am i allowed to read it?" he at first asked, and i of course nodded, and he began to read..

Taehyung's POV:
i began to read what jeongguk had written, and this is what he wrote:
"lately, i've been having thoughts about myself. i feel like i'm not good enough to anyone. i'm ugly, fat, disappointing and a burden to everyone. i don't know what makes me feel that way. i'm not accepting myself somehow.. it wasn't like that.. i used to love who i am, and now look at me, hating every single thing about me. i'm just afraid of people judging me and afraid that taehyung won't love me anymore. what if he doesn't see me like he used to before? was he right when he chose jennie over me? of course he was, why would he to that if i wasn't an annoying brat, no wonder why he didn't love me anymore. but now he says he does. and i'm just lost, what if he's lying? but i trust and believe him.. well- i love him after all. and that's why i'm afraid. of one-sided love. the most painful love ever, which i also suffered from a while ago and probably will do in the future as well. i'm afraid of everything."

my eyes teared up just by reading this. i slowly put the paper on the table and looked at him. he had that innocent look that made him a hundred times cuter than he already is. i couldn't help but a smile a little. i leaned closer and hugged him tightly and he suddenly started crying. "let it all out, it's okay."  he cried on my shoulder for a while. his sobs literally broke my heart.

few moments later, we broke the hug as i stared at him while he was looking down,
"jeonggukie.. i love you. you're my everything. you're literally everything i'm asking for. i want you and nobody else. you're more than enough to me ggukie, you're literally the most perfect person i've ever met. you can even ask jennie and she will tell you the same thing. it's understandable if you don't completely believe what i'm telling you and that's totally okay. i'm honestly telling you what i feel. i'm letting you know that you're the only one in my life. i was so stupid for replacing you with jennie. she's a really nice person and you know that. but she's nothing more than a friend to me, i'm nothing but a friend to her as well. she helped me find you, she helped me by giving me tips how to win your heart again. that means she adores you a lot and she cares about you as well as i do."

he looked at me with numb eyes, "i see" he said showing absolutely no emotions; right after, he went to the bedroom. i could clearly tell he wasn't in the mood of seeing or talking to anyone right now, so i left him alone for some time. using my chance to call jennie and ask for help, again.
"hello?" she greeted, "hey jennie please i need your help jeongguk's not okay at all i don't know what to do." i said leaving no space between my words. "woah woah, calm down and tell me what happened and slow your pace."
i basically told her everything that happened, "and my job is-?"
"i need to find another way to make him trust me.. he kinda doesn't believe me when i say i love him."
"hmm.. okay, lemme think of something, i'll give you an answer tomorrow, is that okay?"
"of course, thanks again jen, i don't know what to do without you"
"okay so first, you're welcome; second, don't steal blackpink's lyrics you idiot" i heard her chuckle, and i did too.
"yeahhhh, anyways, good nighttt!"
"night~"

a while after the call, i decided to go check on gguk. i was worried sick.
i knocked on the door since it was closed., waiting for an answer, until i heard a very quiet "come in", i entered the room and saw him lying on the bed, hugging the pillow with the blanket over him. it was obvious that he was crying seconds ago.
i quietly closed the door behind me as i walked up to him and lied down next to him, going under the blanket as well. i back hugged him gently and whispered an "i love you" to him, then drifted to sleep, him joining seconds after.

~next morning~

we surprisingly woke up at the same time. "good morning~" i went on first, "morning" he answered, once again with no emotions. i sighed and went to the kitchen to make breakfast. when i was about to start, i heard my phone ring. i grabbed it and looked at the caller ID, 'JenJen😼✨' i immediately answered, "morning jen"
"good morning tae, listen i have an idea.. it might risk everything or it might work.. i don't know if you're ready.."
"what is it?"
"i can't tell you now, but you can be sure that it'll most likely work by this evening. and don't do anything stupid kim taehyung."
"hmm, okay, i trust you"
"thanks for that- oh and by the way.. can i come over? like either tomorrow or the day after, i just have to see what's better."
"of course!"
"okayy thennnn, see you later!"
"see ya" with that i hung up

i really hope jennie's idea will work, but i'm really curious tho.. what is she gonna do..? i want to help jeongguk so bad, it really hurts seeing him like that to be honest.
i want to get him out of this state.
and i'm scared of what will happen..

Jeongguk's POV:
when i woke up, i didn't get up immediately. instead, i was on my phone for a bit, a few minutes later i got a call from jennie, and i couldn't ignore her,
"hello?" i answered
"good morning gguk!! did you sleep well?"
"oh uhm, yea, you?"
"oh yea me too actually.. but uhm- i have to tell you something."
"sure, what is it?"
"listen, i know you're having a hard time trying to trust taehyung again. i know what he did was horrible. but believe me, i've never seen him in that miserable state after you left, and i'm here to help you make sure he did regret what he's done to you.."
"and how..?"
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to be continued..
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