The thruth. [ for you ]

fourteen

It feels like my friend, my best friend fades away. I haven't seen her since forveren and yes I miss her. But she goes to another school, and when I'm early home, she isn't. She's in another hockeyteam and ugh. I hate it.
I love her, and I care about her and I can't just let her go. I don't want to.
But sometimes I think she doesn't care about me anymore. That she doesn't love me anymore and it hurts
I know she does, I just need to see her a lot more. But I'm so busy and stressed 99% of the time and I just can't.

I think I'm losing my friends If I don't do anything soon.

But my problem is that I'm not that kind if person that is so spontaneous. (That word looks weirs lmao.)
I need the whole day to make my homework bc I have a concentration problem I think. And I dont sleep a lot at night (bc I can't) so I'm a lot tired.
But I really want to see her, I swear. She's is and will always be my best friend. She knows almost all my secrets. But I think, that when she has a problem, I won't be the first person she'll tell it to. Maybe she doesn't tell me at all and that hurts you know.

I love her, and I care about her, but sometimes that isn't enough.

When I sended her a 'goodmorning babe' snap, (on snapchat), she doesn't reply. It hurts god damn. We used to talk about everything, or facetime till 1 AM but that isn't anymore. What happend. Why did we stop talking. Dont you care about me anymore?

I makes me think about my friends from primary school. They used to be my best friends too, but they left anyway. Is this the same? Is she just going to leave me and all our memories?

I hope not so, because I dont want to give up on you. But I guess, if I love you, I should let you go..