Demons in love

I don't feel too good

Nikolai POV

The sound of someone coming down the hallway filled my ears. I pushed Flynn away from kissing my neck and buried my face into his chest. His arms immediately wrapped around mine understanding why I pushed him away. I started crying just to add to the affect if it was Travis or Julian.

The scent of Travis and Julian came to me making me fake cry even harder. Their laughter stopped and Travis pulled me from Flynn's grasp.

"Are you ok? Did he do anything to you?" Travis held my face in his hands. Tears ran down my cheeks from the fake crying but also the tears that I had shed before I kissed Flynn.

OH MY FUCKING HELL! I kissed Flynn. I did the one thing that I never want done to me to Travis. I'm such a fucking bad boyfriend. But then the thoughts of him cheating on me came back making me feel less guilty. It's definitely wrong for me to do that, but I can't help it. Flynn is my first real love, he understands me being a demon and all that, he knows everything about me. He knows how to keep me safe, he knows when I lie to him about my mood without even having to read my mind then makes me happy.

"I'm fine. Just talking about childhood stuff and all that while cleaning. Got a bit emotional." I told him. I'm going to hell. Ha! I'm already partly dead.

Fuck, I'm such a hypocrite. I literally told Flynn I couldn't be with him because he lied to me, yet here I am lying to Travis. But each time I feel really guilty, them thoughts of him cheating on me first comes to mind. I think after two months it's time to confront him about it.

"Ok. Nothing too serious. It hurts to see you so upset." Travis pouted and pecked my lips. Before he could deepen the kiss I pulled away not wanting to kiss him like that after I kissed Flynn.

But that was a mistake, because when I looked behind me, Flynn and Julian Kissing heatedly without tongues though. My heart sank once again. It was a mistake kissing Flynn. It was a mistake even letting him talk to me. After a second, he pulled away from Julian and looked at me. His eyes held hatred but it wasn't toward me, but himself.

"I don't feel too good so I'm just going to go to bed early." I said to Travis and walked out of the kitchen and up to my room. Silently I cried in bed, curled up like I did three years ago. 

After a while, I heard Flynn, Wesley and Julian leave which broke me even more. My bedroom door opened so I quickly closed my eyes pretending to be asleep. I felt lips on my forehead then a piece of paper being laid on my bedside table. With a sigh, Travis left my room closing the door behind him. I guess he's going home tonight.

Trying to fall asleep now, I sniffled and snuggled more into my covers and pillow. That was until I heard my window open and the scent of Flynn fill my nose. Once again I pretended to be asleep and let my breathing go level.

"I know you're awake." Flynn's deep voice filled the room. I stayed silent and my eyes closed so he would think I'm actually sleeping and leave. That went down hill when all of a sudden I felt his lips on mine. And him being my weakness, I gave in and kissed him back.

Flynn moved me so I was laid on my back and he was hovering on top of me. He held himself up with his hands by my head, while my hands made themselves at home in his hair. Fuck how I've miss his soft hair that I can pull at.

That's one thing Travis doesn't like me doing whenever we kiss, pulling his hair. Whenever we kiss I have to put my hands on his cheeks because his head is so sensitive. I think it's because he sleeps with someone so much at work his head gets sore. But here I am being the biggest hypocrite and kissing someone else.

"Fuck." Flynn groaned and grinded his hardness to mine once again causing me to moan and grow hard.
"Only you know how to turn me on with my hair." He pulled away and looked at me.

Then it all hit me. We were both cheating. I pushed Flynn away from me and sat up pulling me knees to my chest.

"This was a mistake." I whispered and put both of my hands through my hair and gripping it slightly.

"What? Kissing me now and and earlier? Not to me it wasn't." Flynn growled.

"We're both in a relationship Flynn. How can you say that." I looked at him.

"Because Julian is a cheat he just doesn't know I know. And Travis has been going off behind you back for months now. Said his needs aren't being taken care of so he sleeps with someone else." He scoffed.

"How are you so sure?" I started crying.

"Because I can read minds, Nicky. Me, Carl and your dad spoke about it quietly earlier before I took wes and Julian back to my house. I'm pretty sure Travis followed us, waited for me to leave or something and snuck in." He sighed. "Why are you crying?"

"Because I actually liked Travis in the beginning. Then hearing that now makes it all seem like he used me like Lyla."

"Like me?" Flynn looked at me with regret. Hesitantly, I nodded and looked down. Flynn put his fingers under my chin and made me look at him.

"I know I fucked up, and I hate myself for it so much. I know I should have told you about Lyla because I know you would have stayed with me and all this could have been prevented. But there was that chance you'd still leave me and I got scared. I love you Nikolai Eli Hale, who's favourite colour is pink, who loves it when I wrap him up in my arms and wings then give him all my body heat so he can get a decent nights sleep, who can turn me on by playing with my hair or simply look at me with lust filled eyes. And most of all, you actually tug my hair like it's your life support. I love it, but no where as much as I love you."

"I love you to." My voice cracked as I cried and looked at him. Even Travis didn't know that much about me and we've been together longer than me and Flynn were. And it's true, I never stopped loving Flynn with all my heart and more, to the moon and back. The words we once said to each other that I still think about to this day.

"Good." Flynn smirked a little before claiming my lips.