Demons in love

3 years later

Nikolai POV

"Nikolai, baby wake up." A deep voice filled my ears. A smile came on to my lips hearing the man that gave me some kind of hope at a decent relationship.

"No, let me sleep with you." I whined and snuggled into his chest more. My boyfriend of a year and six months held me close to him.

"I'd love to, but I have work. Maybe you can wait until tonight?" My boyfriend started kissing my neck making me giggle when he found my tickle spot.

"Can't you call in sick?" I opened my eyes and pouted.

"No babe." Travis pulled back and looked at me. "I have a really important meeting with my boss. So I'm either getting promoted or fired. Let's just hope it isn't the second option."

"Ok. You better go then. Love you." I told him.

"Love you to." He pecked my lips before showering and changing into his suit.

"I'll see you later. Don't miss me to much." Travis leaned down and pecked my lips a couple times.

"I won't." I giggled a little. "See you later." He gave me a long passionate kiss before pecking my lips and leaving the room. After he was gone, I got up letting the covers drop to my waist where I was naked from not putting pyjamas on.

It's not that me and Travis did the nasty or anything, I don't trust him enough. It sounds bad but he understands because of my past. He asked one time, we were play fighting and I flinched hard because of what Lyla did to me. So I told him how Lyla hit me a lot and that I have trust issues because both Lyla and Flynn lied to me.

He's been really good, taking his time with me and being patient. I can tell he's getting sexually frustrated, I mean who wouldn't. We've been together for a year and a half and known for two years, so I can see where he's coming from. It was only two months ago I got the courage to give him a blow job which I got in return. So all the sexual stuff is only oral because I'm not ready yet.

I got up and went into my bathroom and got into the shower. Only five minutes later did Hayley and Spencer walk in with their little girl. Yes, Spencer and Hayley have a one year old girl. She's the sweetest. Now being twenty we're all out of college and in university.

Last year we went to a party and got a little bit too drunk. I had to call Travis to come get us where he took us all back to my house, yeah I still live with my dad and everyone. Back to the story, so Hayley had forgot to take her contraception pill but they did the deed and got pregnant. Hayley couldn't bring herself to have an abortion or adoption so they got their own little flat and are raising little Ophelia amazingly.

"Really?" I covered my junk with my hands. Hayley sat on the toilet with Ophelia and Spencer on the counter next to my towel.

"Hello to you to." Hayley rolled her eyes.

"Hey guys. I'd appreciate it if you didn't come into my bathroom while I'm showering. Not to mention you have your daughter as well who will be scarred for life." I growled.

"Oh hush, we've seen it before." Spencer chuckled.

"Fuck me. You two have no damn filter. Your daughter is going to fucking die of fright, get the poor girl out."

"Alright, alright. Hurry up though." Hayley stood up taking Ophelia out of the bathroom and most likely letting her play on my bed.

Spencer shut the door to then looked back at me. His eyes held concern which he sighed before he started talking.

"Me and Hayley are worried about you." He stated.

"Why?" I laughed a little. "I'm happy, I'm doing fine and I'm moving on." I told him.

"We know mate." Spencer sighed again. "It's just that you haven't really been yourself. You say you're happy but you're really not. Travis doesn't make you happy, and from what I've seen you've had someone that makes you smile with one small thing."

"And who's that?" I looked at him while washing my hair.

"Flynn."

"I can't go back." I mumbled and put my head down where the water washed off the shampoo. "He, I can't put myself through thinking about him because it'll only pull me back and I can't do that. I'm happy where I am with Travis, I think we're getting really serious."

"Then why haven't you had sex?" He smirked a little. "You and Flynn only waited, what? Two months before you both were at it like rabbits? I'm not saying you're not happy, because I can see you are. But not what you were like before Lyla and while you were with Flynn."

"I loved Flynn more than what I can express. But it's all in the past and I'm sure it will never happen again. Last I heard Flynn was in Tokyo and travelling. It's best if I don't think about him at all." I sighed.

"Say that to your phone full of your old pictures." Spencer said then left me alone in the bathroom.

I can't go back. I just can't.