Demons in love

Tell him that then

Flynn POV

Six fucking months. It's been this long since I've seen Nicky and I'm losing my shit. I've barely left my house, I stay in my room all the time. I'm numb. My best friend has come back from his travels so he's living with me again. He's been making me shower and do exercise, my rooms big enough but I give up after five minutes.

My chest hurts like if I had a heart it'd be in a thousand tiny pieces that can't be fixed, only my him. I stare at the ring I got him all the time, the only reason I part with it is it go shower. Other than that, I'm sat on my bed holding it while my eye stay trained on the silver ring.

I've been MIA at school, I called up a month ago to tell them I've dropped out so they don't have to worry about me. Hayley and Spencer are still very much pissed at me but come over once a week to see how I'm doing. Even if I ask about Nikolai, they tell me he's fine and move on, straight up changing the subject. I was lost in thought until I heard the doorbell ring.

Sam, my friend was out so I had to haul my lazy arse off my bed and to the front door. The ring slid on to my pinky finger where it stayed whenever I slept, ate and did exercise. Like I said, the only time I part with it is when I shower. When I got to the door, i opened it to see one person I didn't think I'd see again. Not after what I did.

"Darren? What are you doing here?" I looked at him with a lot of shock.

"Eli gave me your address." He replied. "I've come to talk to you about Nikolai."

I moved to the side opening the door wider so he could walk in. After shutting the door, we went into the living room where I asked him if he wanted anything which he politely declined.

"How is he?" I tried to keep my voice level so I wouldn't cry again. "Hayley and Spencer never tell me what he's like, only telling me he's fine."

"He's far from it mate." Darren scoffed. "He's a fucking wreck. He hasn't left his room in five months straight. The first month he still went to school, four days in that month then didn't leave his room. Nicky, he cries all the time he's so broken."

After Darren had spoke I stayed in silence. Tears rolled down my cheeks as I held both hands to my mouth to try and keep in the sobs. Nikolai is hurting because of me, he's not leaving his house because of me. I can't deal with that.

"Eli tried to get him to leave the house today." He sighed. "Nicky said he didn't want to and said for his dad to leave him alone. Never in my life have I ever seen that boy turn down a day out with his dad, even when Lyla was around. He's broken Flynn."

"What are you trying to say?!" I stood up, tears now streaming down my cheeks. "I hurt him yes, I lied to him yes but it was all Lyla. I didn't have a fiancé in Poland, it was some twat who's obsessed with me. The only time I lied to Nikolai was about meeting him. Lyla had asked me what college I was going to and she asked me to do that to him, because she lied to me."

"Then tell him that." Darren said like it was simple.

"That's easier said then done when he doesn't want to see me at all." I scoffed.

"Maybe." He stood up and shrugged. "Make him listen, tell him there was never a fiancé, the only one is him, tell him what Lyla told you and don't leave out a single detail. It may not be today or tomorrow, but at some point Nikolai will forgive you. You've just got to try."

With that, Darren let himself out while I stayed stood in place. Now it's just a waiting game of the right time and when to do it. That way I can have time to mentally prepare myself for the worst to come.

"Who's that, that just walked out?" My friend, Wesley came in.

"An old friend." I mumbled. "I'm going to go see him."

"So I get to meet the mystery guy that stole my best friends heart?" He wiggled his eyebrows.

"Not yet. I need him to trust me before he meets anyone from me. Give me a month and maybe you'll be able to meet him." I sighed and sat down again.

"When is this going to happen? It can't be tonight it's fucking late." Wesley stated.

"Well done Sherlock, you can tell time and see that it's dark outside." I said sarcastically with an eye roll.

"Sarcastic bastard." He glared at me.

"Whatever. I'm going back upstairs." I huffed out then left him in the living room. Just the thought of seeing Nikolai again gave me that little bit of energy to get in the shower and think about him. The amount of times we've been in this shower, the first boy to come into my house, to sleep in my bed with me, to shower in my bathroom with me. Nikolai is the only one who knows that other than me.

If I could go back and tell Lyla to fuck off, I would. It'll be me and Nikolai, no lying, no rings being returned, most of all, he'll be sharing a bed with me. I'll get a new house, some animals that he wants but isn't allowed. I'll be better, I'll love him unconditionally like before and we'll adopt a baby.

One day, I'll have Nikolai back in my arms. He'll be mine and I'll have him to myself.

Because Nikolai is the only thing I walk this earth for.