Isnt life a bitch

Dinner at the Depp's

You know that feeling you get when your about to do something reeeeeeally stupid? I have that feeling right now because I'm standing on the doorstep of the Depp household about to press the doorbell... It's not to late to turn and run I could totally do it! But because I did honestly miss Destiny I pressed the shiny gold doorbell.... Crap this is really happening!

The pitter patter of little feet and the giggle of a little girl rushed toward the door but stopped when she saw me through the glass of the door I'd never really been a child-friendly person you could say? "Lahala! Stop running away from daddy! When he's trying to feed yo- Beth?" A smile spread across my face followed by a little wave. As Johnny opened the door the small child hid behind his leg peaking around at me "are you little Lahala? Iv heard so much about you?" Crouching down to her level I held out my hand to show her the little stuffed kitten I had gotten her "yesh" her little smile grew as she took her new toy from my hands "say thank you Lahala" johnnys attempt at teaching his daughter manners had failed as she ran off to play with her new toy "I'm sorry she hasn't grasped the please and thank you idea yet" standing up to I was back to chest height "I didn't expect her to, I'm more impressed she came near me to be honest... So uh I came to see Destiny" he's smile dropped for a split second "oh yeah she's in the living room come on I'll show you the way".

Johnny's new house was beautiful! I felt like I'd had stepped into Rome itself "this is a beautiful home your old one has nothing on it" looking around I was shocked "yeah, this one is more of a family home" his shoulders shrugged as he sketched the back of his head like he had no idea what he was talking about "oh yeah, I get that.... Kids love marble man it's like slippy concert but inside, you know the place kids love to run around" the level of sarcasm was more than I have ever used in my life "what the wife wants, the wife gets she's my princess I'd give her anything you wanted in lif- She! anything she wanted in life!" a freudian slip? Let's go with that it's the logic of the reasoning right?

Dinner came around and we all sat around a huge dining table that looked like it had never been used "so Crystal what have you been doing with yourself?" I can't believe this is destiny! Her hair pulled back into a tight bun and a pearl necklace with matching earrings? What kinda of twilight zone shit did I walk into? "Uh I write now" I didn't feel like a belonged in this house everyone was so formal and dressed nicely and here I am dressed in a pair of paint covered boots, ripped jeans and faded old HIM shirt... "Any boyfriend or little family on your own?" I know she wasn't doing this to humiliate me but I feel it "nope... Live by myself haven't dated and no intentions of having kids" for some reason that puzzled me Johnny looked.... Pained? "Oh..." There was nothing that could be said "and it's Bethanie now I changed my name again" she nodded slowly "still have the identity issues, not knowing who you really are or who you want to be. Goes hand in hand with no direction in life" are you kidding right now? "I don't have an issue with my identity, I believe in fresh starts" dinner had gotten catty and poor Johnny was stuck in the middle... I'm sorry Johnny!

I didn't intend on storming out on dinner but I couldn't stand the feeling of judgment in the air! I DID NOT HAVE A PROBLEM WITH MY IDENTITY!!! *beep beep* my phone buzzed across my desk the lit up screen read "1 new text message Johnny D dog" I had forgotten what I saved him as in my phone... After a facepalm, I read the text "hey Bethanie dinner went kind sour sorry didn't mean it to, I don't know where that side of Dess came from! She just hasn't been the same since well becoming a mom but I wanted to know if you wanted to catch up over a cup of coffee tonight? Say 11?" He's always so formal with his text would it kill him to put a lol in there somewhere?