beautiful boy . ⎯ benny r.

TRIANGLE

AMELIA
We were at the funeral. It was quiet, the only thing you can hear was the pastor talking. Charlie was here but I didn't dare to look at him or talk, he probably needs space. I saw Bombay walk to us in the corner of my eye, he brought Hans ducks jersey to put it on his casket. His death didn't affect me as much as it did to my team, so they have a reason to be sad about it.

After a few days...
The team went to play street hockey the day after the funeral but I didn't go, I didn't really went out with them as much, I liked to stay alone. But today we had a game that I decided not to go to, I told Connie to tell coach that I didn't feel good, which was a total lie because in reality I just needed a break honestly.(Author: I used to play softball and I did this once cause I didn't want to go lol)

Sense the game was at another school, I got ready to skate at the rink. I put my hair in a bun and wore the navy blue dress I bought, I think figure skating will be something I'll look forward to doing professionally, I used to feel that way about baseball, I'm still figuring myself out.
Opening the rink, it was quiet and lonely, I liked it that way. I put my skates on and began to skate, enjoying every step I take. I tried twirling, spinning, and jumping. I didn't think about Benny or Charlie, or anything that I was struggling with.

It's been an hour and I'm still skating. I was practicing a triple axel like Tonya Harding. I was falling repeatedly, but it's all part of the process. I was going to try again until the doors opened. I saw a male figure standing at the entrance but I couldn't really recognize who it was, I squinted my eyes to see better.
"Charlie?"
I was actually pretty excited to see him again after him completely ditching school.
"Charlie!" I skated closer to him as he opened the door to the rink and walked closer to me. I jumped on him giving him a hug, he hugged back squeezing me.
"I'm sorry I was a jerk," He said separating himself.
Chuckling I say, "You didn't do anything though,"
"I mean, getting in you and Benny's friendship, I just made it worse," He actually looked disappointed in himself.
"Oh it's fine, we're better now," I say not to worry him.
"Well, I'm back for good." He says looking around the rink.
"Don't ever do that to us again," I said jokingly.
He laughed in guilt.
"I realized I don't know a lot about you," He says.
"Oh no, I know where this is going, don't fall for him Amelia, only Benny, period." I say in my mind.
"True," I say unsurely.
He put his hand out, "Charlie Conway, I'm 15, almost 6ft and I like anything about music and hockey and dislike anything about the varsity team,"
I began to talk as I shook his hand, "Amelia Foxx, I'm also 15, I'm from Seattle, I also love music and umm, my mom's dead?" I chuckled. He looked shocked.
"Oh, I'm sorry to hear that"
We stopped shaking each other's hands.
"It's fine, I got used to it," I started to pack my things to leave.
"Oh, I'll walk you to your dorm if you'd like?" He noticed me packing my things. It's hard for me to say "no" because I don't like being rude.
"Umm, sure." I say walking to the exit.
He caught up to me and opened the door for me.
"Oh, thanks," I chuckled.
"Yeah no problem...So, I'm kinda interested in your past with Benny." He said all of a sudden.
We were already at the hallway, it was quiet and our echos were the only things heard. It was dark outside and it was raining.
"Oh, well, it was...the best."
I tried to tell my relationship with Benny with many emotion as I could so Charlie knows that I still like Benny.
"What did you guys do? Cause it seems that you guys have lots of ups and downs."
"Well, we did many things couples did, we were really close, until he thought it was a good idea to be friends." I was beginning to get emotional.
"Was he good to you?" He asked.
My heart was beating fast. Just talking about my relationship with Benny brought me back to the summer two years ago.
"He was really sweet and wholesome, I can't believe it's been two years already...." I felt my throat hurt.
"Wow, did it hurt? When he said he wanted to be your friend instead?" I felt his eyes on me.
I looked at him straight in the eye, "Love doesn't hurt, losing love hurts."
His eyes looked sad, "I never thought of it that way," He looked back at his feet as we walked.
"Neither did I, until me and Benny broke up,"
I took a deep breath.
"People don't know about real loss, that only happens when you loose something you love, more than you love yourself," He said looking up.
"Exactly," I mumbled. We both related to something other than hockey.
"Do you miss Benny? I mean if you still love him,"
I paused in shock when he asked me that. I took my time to answer.
Sighing I say, "Yeah,"
He nodded.
"Amelia..."
"Yeah?"
"I- I really like you, but I can tell that you still love Benny and I don't want to ruin that for you,"
Wow... Charlie likes me? I knew it.
"Oh," I said looking at the floor.
"I don't want to force you to tell me how you feel or forcing you to feel the same way, but whenever you're ready you can tell me." He didn't seem mad or sad at all, he was very understanding of how I felt.
Chuckling to lighten the mood I say, "I'll keep you up to date,"
He chuckled ending the sad energy.
"Well, here's my dorm," I turned to face my door.
"I'll see you tomorrow," He said.
"You won't ditch again?" I smirked jokingly.
He laughed embarrassed.
"No, not anymore, see ya," He waved and stared walking away.
"Bye," I say back.
Now I'm stuck and I don't know what to do. This whole love triangle is so confusing.

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-Alice🌃