beautiful boy . ⎯ benny r.

CALIFORNIA

2 weeks later...
AMELIA
After the incident with Axel, we stayed inside to avoid conflict. The past weeks here we played baseball in the little field I found in the forest everyday, it almost felt as if we were at the sandlot. We also did many things like watch the sunset every day in the roof, me and Wednesday will always wake up at 7am to watch the sunrise, we camped out in the forest, visited my moms grave every once in a while and cleaned it, Benny and me will pull all-nighters sometimes and just talked about anything, we didn't go out the house much, just hangout mostly in the forest. This trip really wasn't something I expected, I thought it was going to be more fun, but I still really enjoyed it. Benny seemed pretty bored though which made me feel a bit down, he was really quiet also and didn't talk much.

BENNY
Not trying to sound rude but, the trip to Seattle was kinda a waste of my time. This whole time I could've been at the sandlot. At least I get a week left of summer back in California. I still had a bit fun, it was a different experience. I enjoyed being with Amelia and everything but sometimes relationships are a bit too much for me.

AMELIA
I sat in my bedroom packing my stuff. It was Thursday morning and early tomorrow I'll be leaving. Wednesday and Benny were also in the room, Wednesday helped me pack and Benny was doing his own things.
"Will you come for Christmas?" Wednesday asked folding a few of my clothes.
"I'll try." I say trying not to think about past Christmas's when my mom was still here.
Chuckling she says, "You better."
She kinda seemed serious and it looked like she was hiding something. She stood up taking my hand all of a sudden. Benny had noticed and I gave him a confused look while Wednesday walked me out of my room. She brought me inside her room shutting the door.
"What happened?" I say studying her disappointed face.
"I've noticed that Benny is pretty silent, is there something going on?" She said mumbling quietly as she sat down on her bed. I sat next to her, my heart dropped when she said that.
"Umm, I've noticed too." I sighed knowing what she meant.
"How long have y'all been together?"-Wednesday
"A month or two." I looked at the ground avoiding eye contact with Wednesday.
"Oh, it happens, it's just a silly middle school relationship." She stood up shrugging walking to the entrance of her door.
"You don't get it, I love that kid, he's done so much for me and I can't lose him." I began to think more on the negative side. It happens as much as I try to be more positive.

What she meant was that she thinks that me and Benny are beginning to be more distant from each other, leading us closer to a break up.

She frowned and sighed. Without a word she left my room. I went back to the room holding in my cry. I also felt being more distant from him. But, like Wednesday said, it's a silly middle school relationship. I try and try to think more positive.
Knock
Knock
We all looked at each other.
"I'll get it." I say standing up and heading to the front door.
I opened it revealing Axel. I started to heat up.
"Umm, Amelia.... I- Can we talk?" He sounded guilty and disappointed.
"What is it?" I say closing the door behind me.
"I'm sorry, I acted out and- and I got jealous and I-" He was waving his hands in the air as he was trying to talk.
"Woah, calm down." I say sitting on the steps of the porch. He sighed sitting next to me.
"I feel guilty, I'm so sorry, I like you a lot and I'm not good at dealing with rejection." He mumbled.
"I never rejected you, Axel. I have no idea what you're saying." I was so confused on what he was trying to say.
During a few seconds of silence he says, "W-we we'd be good together."
"No." I say chuckling thinking he wasn't serious.
"Why not?"
"Is he kidding?"
"Are you dumb? I have a boyfriend, and by the way, I'll break your heart." I wanted to sound scary so he can leave me alone.
He giggled, "What if I break yours?"
"Exactly why I never dated your toxic ass, it's something you'll do." I say in my thoughts.
"Nobody breaks my heart." It was a lie, I just wanted him to leave me alone.
"Psh, that Benny kid-"
"Axel, I don't think you have noticed this about yourself, but you are really toxic, and that's why I've been trying to ignore you." I say standing up and opening the door.
"That's why I need you, to help me." He said the same thing to me a few years ago. We always have similar conversations like this one. One day we'll get along well, then the next he'll be a complete asshole.
"Bye, Axel." I say closing the door.
He then stopped the door and got closer to me. I felt his lips on mine, I immediately separated myself from him.
"Get out!" I say slamming the door. Before leaving he kicks the door.
"FUCK YOU." He yelled walking away from my house.
I ran to the guest bathroom to reflect on what just happened. Today was not a good day at all.