Real Friends Or Ones of Convenience

88.

Nevaeh

Time is going by rather fast.

I can't believe it's now already June and just under two months before the big day. If you were to ask Harry though he'd say it seems like it's taken forever to get here.

Speaking of Harry, he hasn't been like his normal self since the call from Brenda came with the news of her and Louis expecting, which to me seems a bit odd for his behavior.

I certainly hope I'm overreacting and he's just having nerves and whatnot about the upcoming wedding. Although I can't be sure.

He did bring up the idea of Louis being his best man. I wasn't thrilled with the idea, however it's not just my wedding and Liam was more my friend than his. I mean yes, they get along and all but its not like he knows many interesting things about Harry. So I went along with it but I'm not changing my rearranged party. I'm still having some slight issues with Brenda's whole story. Then poof she's pregnant when supposedly she couldn't have any other children.

That kind of thing just doesn't add up to me. Was the full thing just a lie? I just don't know anything about her anymore. Furthermore I'm not sure when she's even due.

Anyway I'm going to get my dress fitted, as well as the other ladies of my party.

Harry and Louis could get their suits done as well soon.

I've gotten the girls dresses and the boys' little suits already taken care of.

The arch Harry and I talked about has also been taken care of.

So now I'm on my way out to meet JoJo, Dana and Tina to take care of the dresses.

As I went to kiss my fiance goodbye it seemed as though he was nervous about something. I stopped asking him "spill it Harry, what's going on with you lately?"

"What do you mean baby? I'm just excited to marry you. You mean everything to me. I just want everything to be perfect"

"Really, Harry because that's not exactly the vibe I've been getting from you. It's more like you're nervous about something. I mean your getting who you want to stand with you what's to be nervous about? You're not hiding anything from me, right?"

"No, no nothing like that. That'd be foolish of me"

"You got that right after all this time, you truly should know me by now. Ok well I'm heading out then to meet the girls"

"Nevaeh, baby just always remember that you are it for me and I love you and our kids with everything I am and everything in me"

"Harry, seriously is something wrong? Are you ill? Are you going somewhere? You're starting to scare me how you're talking"

"No none of those things, just never want you to forget is all. Have fun, I love you"

With that I really was very much in thought about hjs words and why this particular moment. I knew he loved me and the kids, yet somehow something seemed off.

We finally got the dresses completed. It took roughly six hours, which wasn't to bad for three of us I don't think.

We then ordered some food to carry back home. JoJo had Brian meet us at the house with the kids.

Tina called Liam to also meet at the house.

Dana called Tom and we had a nice big dinner and conversation.

Harry still didn't appear to be completely into nor interested in most of what was going on around him.

What was going on with him?

Is this wedding going to end up being my biggest mistake in my entire life?

I certainly hope that it wouldn't be. I just can't be sure of anything anymore. He came out of nowhere to start with, is he even to be trusted? Is he real?

Smart Nevaeh it's a little late for these thoughts now don't you think?

Soon everyone started to leave, yet Harry just barely smiled as they left, still not barely a spoken word the entire time.

When the house was cleared out he said " can I put the kids to bed?"

"Ok, why wouldn't you be able to Harry? Besides the entire time family and friends have been here you were a zombie state, now you can talk, I don't get you"

"Im fine"

"I'm not so sure of that but go ahead"

After putting the kids down he then simply said "I'm going to bed" and turned to head to the bedroom.

I headed up to the bedroom to say something about the fact that I feel like this wedding is possibly going to just be a big bill that's going to be a big mistake. Once I get up the stairs though he's acting like he's already asleep.

This is not normal behavior for him.

So I shake him. "Harry I won't be made a fool of, not now, not ever. I know something is going on and until you want to man up to me with whatever you're hiding, then I'll not be getting married to a coward. Good night, I'll be down stairs"

So proud of him on this as well as the 3 Grammy nominations.