Real Friends Or Ones of Convenience

66.

New Years

Nevaeh

I can't believe the twins are a year old already. Even though it's their birthday we've thought it over and even talked about it with JoJo since Briana has her birthday in just a month as is Harry's. Not that he's in the same boat as the kids, but still it's a birthday.

Anyway, we were talking and since the kids play together on a pretty regular schedule and all, we thought why not let them have their party together as well?  So in order to do that, we are moving it to the middle of the dates. I know, I know...not quite fair for Marcus and Char to have to wait, but for now they're still so young. They'll still just be excited we all think.

So we'll have the party on the fifteenth for all three kids and I guess the big one too, LOL. Although that's a different story. A different kind of party.

Speaking of JoJo though she's been doing pretty good with this pregnancy. It's almost as if she's a new person, more mature than the first time around. It's not that she didn't take it serious before, but she's doing it moreso now, with having Briana and another on the way. It's actually very good to see. I was a bit concerned at first, her doing it on her own, but she's doing an amazing job. She's said she thinks this one might be a boy, but she's doesn't know just yet, and not sure she wants to find out. On the other hand wants to be prepared.

As for Harry, he has seemed to be a bit ...distracted it appears all afternoon, I'm not sure what that might be about.

"Harry"

Nothing

"Harry" I say again

He looks up like he's lost in thought. "Oh, uh..did you say something babe? I'm sorry"

"What has you so distracted? I'm glad now we aren't having the p-a-r-t-y today, because your clearly not here"

"I'm sorry"

"Yeah, you've said that, but why? Where are you? You're not here with us? I wanted to talk to you today about us. I'm guessing that that's not a good idea either. Maybe I should rethink that too" I stood up and left the room shaking my head.

Harry

Great, now I've upset Nevaeh. What is even wrong with you Harry? You've got the woman you followed for months. She had your child, she has agreed to marry you. You've got three amazing children, two of which are a year old today, yet you sit here thinking of what reaction her best friend is going to have. Get it together man.

What did she just tell me? She wanted to talk to me about us, oh God, what's that even mean? Does she not want to marry me now? I thought we were doing so good. No, no that can't be it. She did say maybe she should rethink whatever it was though, dammit Harry.

"Nevaeh, baby" I went to look in the kitchen, but she wasn't there. Actually, the house is way to quiet for three toddlers to be in it.....unless they're not.....oh shit did she leave?

I picked up my phone in a panic to call, when I heard laughter coming from the distance. I followed it and I found them all...safe thank god having a tickle fest. I just wish I was in the middle of it at that point, but for some reason, I couldn't move my feet. I just stood in awe of my little family. I lifted my phone to take a small video and a few pics to keep for the day.

After a few moments of watching them, I cleared my throat "hi" I said "having fun?"

"Daddy"
"Daddy"
"Daddy"
"Oh,, Harry I didn't hear you. Do you want time with them, uh, I  can leave you to it?"

The kids sounded so happy, music to my ears, while Nevaeh sounded like she just...I don't know...it broke my heart to think I didn't want to be with them all together. Including her, what have I done? I love her and our kids more than my life.

I said "no baby, you don't need to go anywhere. We are a family. I'd love to stay and be a part of this" I waved my arm around " but not if it means you're going to leave, I love all of you with everything in me, you know that right?"

She nodded her head "I do Harry, I'm just having a tough day I guess"

"Ok, well if you need a day with the kids, I can give you that, I just need to know baby, I'm good at many things, but I definitely cannot read minds"

"Thank you Harry, that would be nice, just for a little while"

I nodded and went back into the other room alone giving my beautiful fiancé what she needed at the time.

I took out my phone and sent Lou a message to try to get that off my mind as well, not knowing why I was thinking so much about it personally. I guess because maybe I wanted them both to be happy.

To Lou: I hope all goes well tonight. Best of luck.

I got one back withing seconds.

From Lou: thanks man, it means a lot. I'm nervous as hell.

To Lou: lighten up! I know you love her, and she loves you. It'll all work out, I'm sure of it.

Not thinking anymore if it, I put my phone away and just rested my head back. I just started thinking about how Nevaeh would look on the day we would get married. I don't quite see her wanting to be one to do the traditional thing, nor her wear white for some reason. What would she like? Who would be there? We don't have really any family, nor many true friends. Sadly I can't really give her a big wedding most women dream of, but then again, she' not like most
women, she's far better in my eyes.

She's my star in the darkest of nights. She my sun on a cloudy day. She is my rock, my world.

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