Real Friends Or Ones of Convenience

62.

Nevaeh

At best I had restless sleep. Having a nightmare that Harry teamed up with Mel and Liam taking all my children from me, that causing me more pain in my chest than I ever thought possible. I had no idea that someone that on a regular was telling me they loved me and would never hurt me, had done just that in the worst way to me at this vulnerable time now, with my heart full of love for my kids and HIM. How could he?
I woke up shaking, crying and screaming. Harry tried to calm me, but all I could see is him taking my babies from me with that smirk, and handing them to HER.
I couldn't stop myself from hitting him and just kept repeating "why?" and "I thought you loved me?" as well as "I thought you actually wanted a family with me"

He just looked at me "Baby, it was just a bad dream. Do you want to talk about it?"

"Not really, how dare you"

"What is it you think I've done or would do? I do love you, only you and I do want a family with you. We do have our family baby. What's going on?"

I just look at him and say "you, I don't get you" still shaking, "you just want to let her take my babies, but I won't allow it. I won't let any of you have them, you hear me?"

"Nevaeh, baby, who are you talking about?"

"You asshole, you know very well who I'm talking about. You let her right up at my daughter's face and said nothing. You know how I feel, yet I had to come in the room to see not only everyone else laughing, but you as well with her in my" I point to my chest "daughters face, saying who knows what. Do you have any idea what that did to me Harry? NO you don't because I thought I could trust you with the kids, yet now I'm second guessing everything I thought I knew right now"

He tried to reach out to me, I pushed him away. "No Harry"

"What do you mean right now, Nevaeh? I'd never, I repeat NEVER let anything happen to OUR kids. How could you ever think that? I hope you're not saying what I think you are, that you're second guessing loving me and our engagement all together. Please don't say that baby. I love you more than my life, you and our family together"

"You know what Harry?"

"Wha..what?"

"I am, and you know what else? It's probably a good thing that I have the birth control in place, because you'd probably forget that as well. If we get that far anytime soon. For the next days though, I think we need to be apart"

"You can't be serious right now. You want me to leave?"

"I'm very serious Harry. I don't think I should leave with three kids. It'd be easier for you to find a place to go for a few nights don't you think?"

"Nevaeh, please, I don't want to be away from any of you, but I can stay in the loft or something out of the way, just so I'm near my kids too, please. I really haven't done anything for you to throw me out. I love you so much. I'll stay out of your way, I promise"

"I guess that could work"

"Thank you baby, do you want me to go now? I wouldn't want you getting more upset with me for simply laying with you?"

"You are fine Harry, just by this evening ok?"

"Yes ma'am"

Later that day

Harry

I tried not to stare, but to get as many glimpses in of my beautiful fiancè as I could. I'm not really sure what sparked the whole thing this morning but I am going to give her the space she is asking for. She can't really believe I'd let anything or anyone, much less Mel do anything to our children. Can she? Much less second guess my love for her or that I want to marry her. That's ludicrous to me. That had to be a hell of a nightmare. I've never seen her wake like that from anything.