Real Friends Or Ones of Convenience

72.

Nevaeh

Once we all had gotten to the hospital and started towards the door, Harry had the boys in the double stroller to contain them a bit. Louis had taken Briana as she was excited to see her parents. Which then of course then Char wanted to be with or near Briana, so Harry carried her. They were ahead of Bren and I going in.

I was wondering if Bren was ok. She seems to be a little....I don't know, not her usual cheerful self. She's trying to hide it well, but I see it. I ask "Bren, is something wrong? Are you and Lou ok?"

She just looks at me, then nods. "I'm not sure, I mean yes, we are good. It's just....having the kids out this morning got me thinking.....and"

"What is it? He loves you Bren. I know you said it wasn't a problem, and hope I can return the favor. I told you I think it'd be sooner than you think, did I say something wrong?"

"No, I just am wondering lately if he even wants kids, with me anymore, ya know? I know I want kids and I love him, but if we don't want the same things any longer, I just don't know" as tears start to fall down her cheeks.

I wrap my arms around her tightly. "Bren, I think maybe you just need to talk to him and ask him about this, it's a lot to just assume. I bet if you both did before everything, he still does"

"You're right, Vaeh, I'll talk to him. We best get inside before the kids get too much for them and he for sure changes his mind" she smiles.

We get inside the door and the guys are there in chairs waiting for us. Louis looks at Bren...."Bren...babe are you ok?"

"Yeah, just let me rinse my face and I'll be up, you all go ahead"

Brenda

I went into the bathroom to rinse off my face. I just stood there looking at my reflection for a couple minutes, when there was a knock at the door. "Just a minute" I say.

I step out to see no other than Louis standing there. "Wha...why are you still here?"

"Because Bren, I love you and I can see you're upset by something. Do you want to talk about it?"

"No, not here. Let's  go see Jo and Brian and the baby" I kissed him to let him know I'm good....for now "We'll talk after, ok?"

He agreed and we went to Jojo's room.

After the visit, which Louis and I didn't stay too long. We talked.

"Louis, I just am worried, I know you love me, that's not the thing. I am just I guess wondering.....do you still want kids? Do you want them with me?" I look down. "I know we are engaged,....

"Listen, Brenda, I love you more than I can say. Nothing has changed, I mean, yes we had obstacles to get 'us' back, but about having a family, that's all still the same for me. I'm not sure why you might think I wouldn't, but I want everything with you, and only you" he cupped my cheeks and kissed me with passion.

"I guess I was just having some weird ideas and thoughts. I just have all my friends so happy and having babies, I thought we would have been pregnant by now. Since the reunion so many things have changed, both good and bad, I just guess I needed reassurance is all"

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