Sage Bradshaw has been a nomad for as long as she could remember. She's met creatures like her along the way but never found herself a home. She never found a place where she thought she belonged. She always traveled and loved to see what the world...
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«I wish I could hurt you back. Love, what would you do if you couldn't get me back»
Anger ensued as I crushed a rock beneath me.
I needed privacy and this is what I had to do. Hide in the mountains like some sort of feral creature with no home. With Edward around, there's no telling what he'd hear. The dawn peaked past the horizon as the new day approached. Yet another night away from home. Away from... them. I was more frustrated with myself than anything. I was never this decrepit, pitiful being that shied away from confrontation. Lately, I've been feeling more inferior. Never mind the fact I was Jasper's mate. It felt like I was now the third wheel in their relationship. And though nothing sexual seemed to happen, they were back to being as close as ever. That and the fact I became reclusive. No longer did I desire to be by him. Which was another reason why they were both chummy with each other.
No one would know just how needy Jasper could be at times. He liked the constant attention and he needed someone by him at all times. I smashed another rock angrily, the vibrations coursed through my body as I watched it shattered. I bitterly thought about our relationship which seemed eons ago. Had he always been this clingy and I hadn't noticed it? Surely getting over his blood lust was recent; which was a main reason he needed constant watch. But to this extent?
Jealously lingered as I watched the sun touch my skin, causing a bright sparkle beginning at my fingertips. I hated the power Alice had over Jasper and the house. I hated that I didn't do more to fight for him. I was exhausted. There was nothing left inside of me to fight for him. He made his bed and now he laid in it. My chest clenched at the memory of his laugh just the other day. It's been ages since I incited anything other than shame and rage with him.
The thought of an eternal love no longer existed within me. What were mates but a mere chemical reaction? Were bonds even real or was this just a lie vampires told to each other. The magnetized feeling from the first moment we laid eyes on each other felt unreal. I doubted that it even happened. Had it been a rouse? Was he the one to lay those fake feelings on me to make me believe we were meant to be?
"Argh!" I screamed out again, the sound echoed through the forest and startled several birds. In the distance I could feel the hooves of frightened deer. With one last exhaled, I raced towards the house to change.
My nostrils filled with the lingering scent of Jasper in the kitchen. His scent was entwined with Alice's and it seemed they left not too long ago with Edward. Today was Bella's birthday. And despite the crisis I was going through, I still managed to get her a gift. It wasn't like I knew her too well. Frankly the only thing I know outside of her is the fact she did ballet. The gift I had chosen was a music box that also dubbed as a jewelry box. When you opened it, a ballerina would pop out and dance with the music. It was corny but I could only hope she appreciated it. I noticed that Alice had already decorated for the night and marveled at the design. I hated her but the place did look nice. Bella would eventually be a part of this... family, if that's what you'd call it. She deserved this even as a mere human.
