But.... I need you

🖤I love you:END💜

Friday:
"Hey i-" "sorry kokichi-kun i need to call kaede"

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Suicide

|| kokichi's POV ||
I hung up the phone.
Shuichi dosent care anymore! Why would he ever.... it was going to happen sooner or later but this.... this isn't what i need. Shuichi's calls where the only thing that kept me sane in this hell hole i call a home.
He made me smile but its ok.
He dosent need me so why stick around! He was that last threat that kept me hanging on but thats fine i dont matter anyway so why not leave?
Rope?
Yeah! Yeah maybe ill be free. When though? Hm.
Maybe later today? yeah! The quicker the better! Just fall of then done! Yup that sound good.

Oh its 12 pm? Didn't i sleep? No oh... on let's get up then.

I got up but 'oh i have no reason to leave' and so i lay back down on my bed and take out my phone.

|| Shuichi's POV ||

"Shuichi where are you? Its our anniversary! Did you get me a present?" "S-sorry kaede-chan! I um i was caught up with my uncles case and i didn't have time to buy anything maybe after i can-" "really Shuichi?! You dont love me do you? I can just break up with you like last time" i panicked "N-no! Ill buy you something please don't leave me!" "Ok thank you Shuichi! Ill see you soon" i sighed as she hung up the phone . I dont want kaede to leave me..... everyone does.... maybe? Maybe i should-

Bing!

From: 🏁Kokichi🏁

Kokichi:
Hey shumai!

I cant talk right now maybe ill text him later...

Kokichi:
Before you say " i don't have time right now" or something its fine! I just wanted to say have a great day with kaede! I probably wont see you at school on Monday or ever so please have fun and be happy, i wish you the best please dont miss me! bye shuichi <3

What?
No.... wait.. no! What?

Kokichi... he's not? Right? Nonononono

I hastily looked for his contact and called as i ran to his house but it was minutes away from the agency..

Ring.....

Please pick up please..

Ring.....

Ring....
Please....

"Shumai whats-" "kokichi what was that are you ok please hang on I'm on my way!" "Why? I'm ready to leave you have kaede" "kokichi please.... just hang on!" "Shumai its ok! You dont need me and without you no one cares so I'm ready" "kokichi! Please...... please dont go just hang on!" "Shuichi...why would you want me to stay?" I'm just kidding myself... kaede she obviously just wants attention and... i just made myself think it would work" "shumai.." i was there i was at his house. I knew his parents where not home so if he did anything they wouldn't notice. I burst through the unlocked front door.

My face was wet with tears and all i could think of was him... i neglected pur friendship for fake love. I ran up the stairs and into his room; the door didnt have a door lock so i quickly kicked it down and walked into my worst nightmare.
Kokichi was standing on a chair with a rope tied around his neck that hung from a ceiling fan.
Ready to kick the chair.
I ran to him and and hugged him untying the noose...
i held him tight and cried into his shoulder stroking his hair
"K-k-kokichi I'm sorry! Its all my fault this is all my fault! Dont leave please dont leave i need you"
I hugged him tighter. He never spoke he just sat there and hugged me back "shumai i was doomed from the start. You left me for kaede i get it just leave and please let me go? You'll be better of without me" i quickly pulled away from the hug and cupped his wet cheeks still sobbing "k-kokichi.. she dosent love me I was just kidding myself and pushed away the most amazing person i have ever met! I dont love her either, i just didnt want to be alone but you..." he stared at me shocked "kokichi i dont love kaede i love you" he looked at me for a while "no you dont" "w-what?" "No you dont" "i-i" "YOU CANT" he started sobbing "shuichi please? I'm just going to make you suffer! You dont love me YOU CANT PLEASE DONT LOVE ME PLEASE....." he gripped onto my shirt and sobbed loudly "kokichi i love you. I love you so much.... i pushed you away because i didnt want to admit it but i love you.... nothing you do is ever going to change that and i will stand by you i will help you and i will never let you go i promise" i stroked his hair and hugged him Gently as his sobbing slowed "r-really? You love a worthless peice of trash like me? You do? You wont leave?" He looked up at me while i held him close and wiped his tears away "i will never leave.. i love you kokichi" i grabbed his cheeks and gently kissed him, he kissed back in an instant and hugged me as we pulled away "i love you too shuichi"

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