But.... I need you

🖤Issues💜

|| kokichi's POV ||

Its been about a month since shuichi started talking to me and I'm honestly doing a lot better. Of course i still feel numb in some occasions but you cannt just undo years of trauma with a click. Nevertheless i smile more. Mostly or just with shuichi though.

Anyway . I was sitting at my desk drawing happily, I was listening to Songs shuichi recommended and my parents were gone. No lowering my self esteem for a week!
It was all going great until i heard a knock at my door.

I ran down the stairs and opened the door to a painful sight. Shuichi was standing infront of me with puffy red eyes and tears streaming down his face, he had his hat off and was looking down "h-hey O-Ouma-kun......haha..... um kaede ......broke up ......with me" he said between sobs. I quickly hugged him and took him up to my room. Despite my parents not giving two shits if I'm alive the house is kept regularly clean and we arent poor so my house was standard.

We sat at my bed and i just hugged shuichi. I held him tight as if he was going to disappear if i let go "t-t-t-thanks......o-Ouma-kun" he shakily whispered while rubbing his eyes "cmon saihara-chan! We spend like every day together call me kokichi~" i extended my arm to make the ofer seem grand and he giggled "A-Alright but y-you call me shuichi then"he laughed still sobbing "alrighty shu shu!" I placed my hands on my hips and laughed. "Um now that your calmer....what happened?" I asked softly when his sobs stoped and his eyes where just glossy "u-uh so kaede and i were talking over the phone...."

{Flashback}

"Shuichi! Are you even paying attention?" I wasnt. "S-sorry!" I quickly apologised "Ugh! Are you with that liar?" She asked aggressively "O-Ouma? N-no?" I replied confused "your always with him! What is he your best friend?" I thought for a second. Ouma... i talk to him everyday before school and sometimes at lunch. We call and message for hours on end everyday and he makes me feel calm... at ease. Maybe he is my best friend? Yeah! He is "s-so? What wrong with that?" I ask slightly deffencively "you spend more time with him than with your own girlfriend! Thats it! Shuichi I'm tired of this. Me or him. Now." She gave me an ultimatum?! Seriously! What the hell? No matter what angle i look at it. No thats not healthy. She dosent have the right to make me choose! I'm tired of being stepped on and I'm tired of being too scared to stand up. "Kaede. You cant make me choose between my best friend and you." I said sternly "UGH! Fine shuichi! We are over goodbye!" And with that she hung up the phone.

I fell back onto my bed sheets and stared at the ceiling with a blank stare until.

Tears

A sea of tears. I couldn't hold it back. No matter how much our relationship deteriorated toward the end... i still really liked kaede.
I ran to the only place i would be calm and safe in.
Ouma's arms.

{End of flashback}

|| Shuichi's POV ||

"So yeah... i um came over here because I'm sure i would've done something......dumb if i was alone" i said reluctantly. He looked at me for a second and sighed "gees shuichi you really are open huh?" He giggled "hm? No actually. I keep everything to myself" i replied without thinking "what but you-"  "i dunno i trust you". I really did. Kokichi gave a sence of security and happiness i don't usually feel.

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