Trisha's POV
Nagsimula na ang Christmas Season at busy na ulit sa hospital. Halos 24 hours na ang duty ko at 48 hours si Yandro, with breaks in between which was a relief. Buti naman at hindi na ako sa ICU naka-assign. Bilang licensed practitioner ako sa center ni Mama sa Laguna, 'di ako bibigyan ng straight hours na schedule. Kaya, ginawa akong assistant physician ni Doctor Angeles na head pediatrician dito. Pero kahit pa man ganoon, hectic pa 'rin dahil as much as possible, nag poprovide akong assistance sa junior interns at nagchecheck pa 'rin ako sa pediatric ward.
Naging madalang na 'rin ang pagkikita naming tatlo. May mga araw kasi na sa hospital na ako nakakatulog, pati si Yandro. Nonetheless, he made time to check up on me, bilang bilin na 'rin ni Leo na kadalasan ay finaflood din ako sa text para mangamusta.
'Di din naman nagpatalo si Noah doon na kung sa paramihan lang ng text at missed calls, panalo na 'yon. Noah was the other ex I mentioned the last time. It's been a month or two since I saw him at that ball and when he asked for my number. Isang linggo siyang 'di nagparamdam kaya akala ko sinascam niya na naman ako pero nabigla ako nang sumunod na check-up ni Olivia, dinalhan niya ako ng lunch at snacks. Kahit na 'di siya yung sumasama kay Olivia sa check up during weekends, kapag weekdays naman, may dumadalaw na iba ibang empleyado niya para lang baunan ako ng pagkain. Nakakahiya nga eh pero kahit na sabihan kong 'wag na, pinipilit niya pa 'rin akong dalahan ng pagkain.
Panay din ang text kung kailan daw ako available na makipagkita. I was honest to respond to him that I had no time. He was patient, in spite of that.
Nakakaguilty nga eh dahil 'di talaga ako tinitigilan. Truth be told, I would really want to talk to him, too. Noah was my ex in college. He was the longest I'd been with... Bad shit lang dahil iniwan ako sa ere bigla. I believe I already mentioned this before.
Sinong 'di kukulamin siya na ang paalam niya saakin noong nakipaghiwalay siya was
"I love you, but you're not the one for me. Goodbye." -- bullshit.
First-year med student ako nun... Stressed na stressed na ako tapos gaganunin ako?
Kupal 'di ba?
Kaya simula noon, kinalimutan ko ng naging kami. Kinalimutan kong may ex ako ng college. I was furious at him for what he did. I felt like every little good thing we had was all put to waste because of what he did to me. He was the reason I chose to trust again after Leo, but he still ended up shattering my heart.
I almost believed he'd be the man I'd spend my life with. It all went north when he proposed to me and I rejected him... I rejected him not because I didn't want to be with him but because I wasn't ready then. We were only 20-year-old's trying to figure out ourselves. At that time, I was struggling with med school. Kakasimula ko lang and my mind were set from there alone, so having a family was not in my plans.
He left me after graduation. It broke my heart big time. So, when I saw him standing in front of me, I couldn't help but wonder 'what if he never left me?' 'what if he never gave up on us? would we be happily married by now?'
My mind started to wander and thoughts like that were like gunshots, so I lashed out to give myself some time to cool down.
"I can't just let go of you without a fight, Ela."
That took me by surprise. I spent three years with Noah and I know he is that type of man who's eager to do whatever just to get what he wants... legally. May paninindigan siya. One of the things I liked about him.
