I Am Secretly Married To My Heartless Husband

Chapter 24

Xander's POV

DAYS passed already since Beatrix peft me dumb founded at the fvcking car. I don't know why she had been like that. Damn it!

Kakakuha ko pa lang sa kaniya pero umalis na naman, ganun na ba siya kahirap para di magawang manatili sakin?  Ganun na ba siya nasasaktan sakin para magdesisyon ng biglaan para iwan ako. It's fvcking hard to accept that she's now totally gone. I've  been searching her everywhere but there is no traces of Beatrix. Nagpunta na din ako kay Ghie pero sermon lang ang naabot ko.  Wala sa kanila si Beatrix, I'm sure of it. Fvck!  I'm fvcking fvcktard for letting her go out at the fvcking car! Sana hinabol ko na lang siya.  Sana di ko siya hinayaan. Fvck I'm  a fvcking useless! I let go the woman i love!  I fvcking let go my wife!  Damn it!

Napahilamos ako sa mukha ko at paklang napatawa ng maramdamang basa ang mga palad ko.  I'm crying! Its sounds gay but i don't mind it! It might be useless! My tears can't  do anything to bring my wife back to me!  She's gone!  And now i don't know when she would come back!  I love her--i do love her, but it's hard for me to tell that fvcking word to her because I'm  afraid that something might---shit! fvcking fvck!

Wala sa sariling napaangat ang aking ulo at sumalubong sakin ang isang picture which is the picture of our wedding.  Happiness yet sadness is visible in those eyes.  I still can't belive that we're married.  And a big thanks to mom, because of her i marry a girl I am dreaming of.

*FLASHBACKS*

SILENCE is filling every corner of this room. It's been a lot of days passes and my mom is still recovering. I feel pity yet guilty at the same time. Because I can't to anything to get her healed in that sickness, my moelney us useless,  my companies are useless,  our wealth is useless!  And its fvck to think that I am the reason why she is in that hospital bed-- lying amd bravely fighting with her sickness. She has a heart disease, and we triggered it. I am blaming my self for that!

I still staring at her, when her eyes slowly open and divert it to me. I abruptly stand up from the sofa and go near at her,  just incase she need something.

"X-Xander? " paos ang boses nitong sambit sa pangalan ko. I cleared any emotion in my face and talk back.

"what is it? " i asked without meeting her gaze.

"would you mind if you sit beside me?" she asked.  I creased my eyebrows -- confussion is visible at my eyes. "please" aniya ng mapansin ang kalituhan  at pag aalinlangan sa mukha ko. She seems like she is begging for me to do it. I just heaved a deep sigh and silently sat beside her.  My heart flattered when i felt her hand into mine.

"I'm glad you still here,  s-son." nanghihinang aniya.

"no.  Aalis din ako. May kinuha lang ang ampon mo sa labas,  pinapabantayan ka lang niya sakin saglit. " di makatinging usal ko dito.

I admit,  i insisted to stay at my mom's side,  when Beatrix need to go outside to buy some medicines of mom. Si daddy nga sana ang kakausapin nitong bantayan muma si mommy pero ako na lang ang nagprisinta dahil wala naman akong masyadong gagawin sa office at ewan ko din kung bat ayaw kong umalis dito gayung nakikita ko ang babaeng naging kaagaw ko sa kalinga ni mama.  She's  a beauty, maganda siya at ewan ko kung bakit gustong gusto kong makita ang mukha niya. Napakasimple niya subalit makikita padi dito ang gandang taglay niya.  Masisiguro ko ding mabait ito at maalaga wchich my ideal type of girl.  I want a wife's material girl.  And i saw her those things to her.  I still remember her smile.  Those smile are still flashing through my minds. A kind of smile that made my heart palpitate in an abnormal way.

Naputol ang pag-iisip ko ng biglang bumukas ang pinto at iniluwa nun ang magandang babae na siya lamang laman ng aking isipan. Ngumiti ito tsaka lumapit sa amin.