Somewhere Only We Know

Comfort

So here's what you missed on Somewhere Only We Know. Kurt and Blaine are kind of getting along better now and are even agreeing on a few things. Great progress, I know. Kurt sang I want to Hold Your Hand and told the whole club that he was in love with someone who could never love him back. It was very emotional and sad! Poor Kurt! Blaine was sad because he didn't realise Kurt was talking about him. Both of these boys need to sit down and have a chat. Maybe then all their problems would be solved. Blaine loved the performance and he told Kurt that and he also said he was going out late that night. That's totally going to end well. Kurt can't get to sleep because he's too busy thinking about how cute Blaine is. I mean, he is pretty adorable. And that's what you missed on Somewhere Only We Know.

It was the same night and Kurt couldn't stop thinking about Blaine. He was exhausted but he just couldn't get to sleep. Blaine just confused him way too much. One minute he was nice and friendly and the next he was shouting at Kurt and making Kurt terrified. It was a mess. A really big mess. He heard the door open downstairs and presumed it was Blaine coming in. He heard him walk up to his room. The next thing he heard was really confusing. It was sobbing. Was Blaine crying? Feeling worried, Kurt walked out of his room and to Blaine's. He knocked on the door but when there was no reply, he decided to just walk in. He was might with the sight of Blaine curled up, sobbing into a pillow. Kurt sat down on the bed, placing a hand on Blaine's back. 

"Blaine? Are you okay?" he asked, before mentally cursing himself. Of course he wasn't okay! "Just leave me alone." he sobbed. 

"No, I'm not going to do that." Kurt said, trying to get Blaine to sit up. But Blaine just shoved him away. "I told you to leave me alone!" 

"I'm just trying to help!" 

"Yeah, well, I don't want your help!" Blaine yelled, slapping Kurt's cheek. Pain grew in that area as his hand flew up to his now sore cheek. He couldn't believe he just slapped him! His head snapped back to Blaine with anger. He was expecting to meet Blaine's angry, rage-filled eyes but instead they just looked upset and broken. Kurt mentally hit himself. How could he be angry at Blaine right now? He obviously wasn't in control and was obviously upset. 

"I'm so sorry, Kurt. I didn't mean to...I'm so sorry." the smaller boy sobbed, shuffling away from Kurt and throwing himself into the corner of his bed. Blaine lowered his head in shame. He didn't know why this was happening so often. Moments where he was so angry and upset, he just didn't feel in control and even if he didn't want to do something, he couldn't stop himself from doing it. Kurt shuffled over too and wrapped an arm around the boy's waist. 

"No, stop. You're not safe near me. No one is." Blaine whispered miserably, still shaking. 

"I'm not scared of you, Blaine." Kurt said simply, rubbing his back soothingly. "You should be. I'm an awful person. I destroy everything I touch." he muttered. Kurt shook his head, almost laughing at the other boy. He grabbed Blaine's hand and spread it against his so they were touching. 

"See, our hands are touching and I'm okay." he said. Blaine let out a sound that was part sob, part laugh. It sounded as strange as it seems. Their fingers interlocked so that they were once again holding hands. Their intertwined hands collapsed onto the bed as Kurt carried on holding Blaine, who had lowered his head to let it rest on Kurt's shoulder. They stayed like this for a few minutes as Blaine began to calm down. Kurt took a deep breath. He was glad this was over. But as soon as he had thought that, he glanced down to see that he was crying again. 

"Oh Blaine. Please stop crying. Or just tell me what's wrong." he exclaimed, starting to panic again. The curly-haired boy crawled out of his embrace and started pulling at his hair. 

"Just look at me. I'm so pathetic and useless. I'm a mess. A disgusting, ugly, pathetic mess. I'm just stupid and a massive failure. I have stupid hair, stupid eyebrows and I'm so damn small. I'm like a freaking troll. People can't stand to look at me. I'm such a disappointment. I hate myself." he screamed.