Dangerous Woman | Jeon Jungkook

Part 32

A few days after our fight and after my emotions have calmed down a bit, I'm just getting back from work. The last days were exhausting, but I know I can't take that many days off anymore, because the year is not quite over yet and my days off are almost used up. Besides, life goes on, I can't sit in front of the TV all day and eat a whole box of ice cream myself.

Unlocking the front door, I throw my keys into the small glass plate at the entrance and take off my shoes. Luckily, I didn't have much to do at work today and managed to leave two hours before I was supposed to finish and before anyone could stuff me with more work. After I hung up my jacket I hear my stomach growling and my belly contracting painfully. I haven't eaten all day today. Lately, I simply have no appetite anymore and my work colleagues simply go to lunch without me.

I decide to go with something light and not complicated and take a pack of instant noodles out of the kitchen cabinet before pouring a decent amount of water into a pot and turning on the stove. There's this thick lump that has been sitting in my throat for weeks now forbidding me to eat ordinary meals, which has caused me to lose a lot of weight lately without really wanting to. If you look at it from the good side, at least I'm able to fit into my favorite jeans again, which had become a bit too tight for me recently.

As usual, I try to think of everything from the good side. When I have a headache, I think I can at least go to sleep earlier, when I cut my finger because of my clumsiness, I think I feel at least something other than the pain in my chest.

Last week, after Jungkook uttered those painful words, I was not feeling well at all. I don't know how I managed to get home, but I collapsed behind the door after I closed it. I didn't know words could hurt you so much. My ex hurt me with his actions, but Jungkook does it in a much worse way. And he doesn't even realize it.

Not noticing that the water in the pot is already boiling, I just look out the window into the empty. It is a sunny and warm day, from outside I can hear my neighbor listening to groovy music and someone else mowing his lawn. I can't remember the last time I went out, just having fun, but to be honest I'm not in the mood anyway. I get out of bed with a lot of difficulties every day to go to work at all. Every day feels like torture.

A slight click sounds in my quiet apartment, which comes from the front door and a surprised and somehow frightened feeling rises in me. I look over the corner from the kitchen to the door and wonder if it's the annoying neighbor from the second floor again, who by mistake always presses the elevator to the wrong floor and thinks my apartment is his, trying to get in for hours and whining why his door doesn't open.

But as the doorknob slowly turns and the door opens, my heart starts racing, not knowing if it is possible that someone is trying to break into my apartment in the middle of the day. The door opens slowly and a person appears who I never thought I would encounter here. And it's kind of funny that I didn't even think about this person because I never thought he would show up, even though he has spent so much time here.

Jungkook.

I forgot that I had given him my spare keys so he could get into my apartment at any time. I wanted him to feel at home, but apparently this was never an option for him because he never considered what we had as home. Just thinking about it hurts me to such an extent that I just want to be swallowed up by the ground so I don't have to face him because I know I will break down. He doesn't notice that I'm standing at the doorway to the kitchen as he takes off his shoes and when he turns around again his eyes widen after he has seen me.

"Hey." I greet him carefully although I don't even feel like talking to him at all. He is hurt but he has hurt me even more.

"I just wanted to get some clothes," he mumbles, scratching the back of his neck with his hand and avoiding eye contact. "I didn't know you were at home otherwise I'd have come some other time."