𝐈𝐓 𝐖𝐀𝐒 𝐀 𝐃𝐀𝐑𝐄 | 𝐦𝐨𝐧𝐨𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐧 | ✓

ℑ 𝔏𝔬𝔳𝔢 𝔜𝔬𝔲

a/n: you guys are going to hate me so much

 Monoma blinked awake, momentarily disoriented by his surroundings. His bedroom was dark apart from a blue-tinged glow emanating from his alarm clock.

I won the bet.

He glanced at Shinso sleeping next to him. The lilac-haired boy looked so peaceful in his slumber.

Why did you say that you love me? I'm only going to hurt you.

Monoma gazed at Shinso's bare skin. He'd left love bites all over Shinso's collarbone. Oops.

But what really caught the blonde's attention was the scars along Shinso's arms. Sure, he'd seen them before. But why Shinso would do this to himself, Monoma couldn't understand. Was life really that bad for him, that he needed to escape through this?

"Hey," Shinso mumbled sleepily.

Monoma hadn't realised that he was awake. "Hey," he murmured back.

In the dark, neither of them could see anything past the vague outline of each other's faces.

"What I said last night," Shinso started quietly.

Monoma cut him off, afraid of what he was going to say. "Don't."

"No, let me finish. It might've been too early for me to say it, but I mean it. Neito, I love you," he whispered.

"I..." the words lodged in Monoma's throat. "I- I love you, too," he breathed, barely audible.

Shinso gave him a soft, sleepy smile before his eyelids fluttered closed and he drifted back to sleep with a soft sigh.

Monoma rolled onto his back and stared up at his ceiling.

He'd said it.

Reaching his arm over the side of the mattress, Monoma found his phone lying on the floor. He brang it up to his face and swiped it open, the brightness causing him to blink several times.

4:38 am.

Monoma noted his hands were shaking, but he couldn't still them.

Neito, I love you... Shinso's words echoed inside the blond's head over and over again.

Monoma was terrified. What did this mean now? Commitment?

And because he was scared, and unsure, and foolish, he did the one thing he would soon come to regret.

He texted Tetsutetsu:

I win.