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By a Thread (a Narrative of Broken Chaos) - Part 1: Frayed

~By a Thread~

I've spoken of this time and time again,
but I'll say it once more, and then,
maybe they'll realize the fear in me also sleeps with them,
raging uncontrollably. 

Every time they speak, my heart fills with thorns,
impaling the blood-red rose that only the Musician's groundskeeper mourns.
Slashing through, they leave a scarlet rag behind,
fragments of black petals burrow into the depths of my mind.

Do they understand what I'm getting at?
Or is dullness so inevitable it didn't cross their minds to think like that?
I'm trying my best, I want to succeed,
but it's taking everything to keep my mind from breaking me.

Thoughts,
they drift away downstream.
Dark waters of our river of fate rise
where no measly canoe can survive.
Why can't they understand how this is shaking me?
Why can't they see the cracks that I see?
The tremor never fades, the ground quaking beneath
feet that I berate, all while they lie through their teeth.

I can't take it anymore, the game's over, let me out.
I'm scared, I'll admit it,
I'm blind-sided by ambition.
But I don't know when to quit,
how to abolish this one person circus;
where the acrobats aren't fed and the animals cry for mercy.

Leave me alone, get out of hands reach,
some can't take the restraints of a leash;
chains carved from footsteps, all signed by you. 
My feet mold into the prints perfectly,
while my foot resides in the wrong shoe.

I'm  fraying. 

~end of part one~

(Dear Wattpad, thank you for giving me two heart attacks, one for when it looked like you deleted everything I wrote, and the other for when it reloaded on the website, but it turns out half was deleted. Thank you. Wattpad. I hat- love you. >:'})

Hello hello everyone, and I hope you are having a good day so far! I know quite a few people have to wake up pretty early for school, and I feel you. Make sure to get lots of sleep so you can still get up, and if not, there is always miracle juice (coffee and caffeinated tea lol). This poem was written in a whirlwind of emotions, which is when I write best (sometimes). Anyhow, I really hope you liked it, and stay safe out there. :3

Thanks for readin'!

Love, Stardusttoad
💜

Alsooooo happy birthday to Jin and Soobin :3

(Picture time yeeeehaw)