Julie and the Phantoms imagines and prefrences

loss

I sat on the stool that had been put on the stage for me, my brother sitting next to me, his bass in hand.

Everyone else took their places around us at their instruments.

We had started the tour right after our parents passed. We were so exited and we went to visit them at their new house. We knew they didnt hear or see us but it would be nice to share this with them.

Julie sits at her piano and gives me a small smile. I look down at my lap, playing with the hem of my black dress.

I looked through the crowd, hoping to see them but I knew that they wouldnt be there, they were in a cemetery somewhere, probably close to where our bodies were buried.

Its weird to think that we're here and our bodies are somewhere else. Or at least reggies. Mom had mine cremated. I did my best not to think about it. I wonder who would get me next. My aunt perhaps?

I continue looking through the crowd. Seeing my boyfriend Nick near the first row, making me smile. I scan the crowd one last time and my eyes fall on Luke's parents. They found out about him when we started gaining traction. After julie told them they were happy. Happy to know he was happy.

I wonder if mom would have reacted the same way to me and Reg.

Stop thinking y/n! I scolded myself.

I nodded at julie and she starts playing the piano.

I started playing my guitar, my brother strumming quietly next to me, adding depth to the intro if the song.

"Um. My father wrote this song for Reggie when we were young. We hope you like it." I say quietly into the mic.

Come home early after class dont be hanging around the back of the schoolyard

I sing the opening lines of the song, trying not to cry.

Luke appears by me, he takes the guitar out of my hands and sits on the stage, his legs dangling over the edge. He starts strumming the song, doing his best to make sure that I dont have to do more than is required. He knows this is hard for me.

When mom and dad were fighting, or I saw dad hit mom it wasnt reggie I went to. He was in the thick of the situation, trying to shield me from it all. I didn't wanna make things harder than they were. I always went to luke, his mom would answer the door and she wouldnt even ask if I was okay, knowing I wasn't. She would just tell me that luke was in his room, or at the practice space.

He would hug me while I cried. He knew more about how I felt then reggie. He knew better than anyone. Better than my own father, the man whose place he took because my father couldn't pull him self together enough to be there for me.

Reggie starts singing the chorus, knowing I'm too lost in the pain, the grief.

It don't make sense, but nevertheless
You gotta believe us, it's all for the best
It don't make sense
The way things go
Son you should know

Sometimes moms and dads fall out of love
Sometimes two homes are better than one
Some things you can't tell your sister 'cause she's still too young
Yeah you'll understand
When you love someone

Dad and mom were gonna get a divorce but then soon found that they needed each other, even though they weren't good for each other.

I was eight and reggie was ten. Dad made sure he knew that some things I didnt need to hear.

Reggie was broken up about it, I wasnt quite old enough to be fully aware of what was happening.

I start singing the second verse, making my self stop thinking, distracting myself.

There ain't no one here to blame
Nothing's going to change with your old friends
Your room will stay the same
'Cause you'll only be away on the weekends

It don't make sense but nevertheless
You gotta believe us, it's all for the best
It don't make sense
It don't add up
We'll always love you no matter what

Reggie takes over the chorus, making sure to look at me and smile. Trying to cheer me up, it works just a little.

Sometimes moms and dads fall out of love
Sometimes two homes are better than one
Some things you can't tell your sister 'cause she's still too young
Yeah you'll understand
When you love someone
When you love someone

Come home early after class
Don't be hanging 'round the back of the schoolyard
And if we're crying on the couch
Don't let it freak you out
This has been so hard

We look at ea h other, tears in our eyes, julie and Alex harmonizing behind us, luke playing the guitar, looking at me every so often, just to check and make sure I'm okay.
[Okay when its underlined they're singing together]

Sometimes moms and dads fall out of love
Sometimes the best intentions just ain't enough
Some things you can't tell your sister 'cause she's still too young
Yeah you'll understand
When you love someone
When you love someone
When you love someone
When you love someone

The crowd roars, I look around, seeing the thousands of people who are here for us.

Backing us up.

I smile, tears in my eyes.

Nick comes up on stage, security knowing who he is. He walks over to me and wraps an arm around me.

I used to find it scary that we could touch but now I lean into him. Needing the comfort.

Luke comes over and wraps an arm around me, going through the arm nick has around me. Julie stands on the other side of nick and reggie and alex stand next to luke, we all look at the crowd for a moment before bowing and huddling up into a group hug.

"I love you guys." I say.

"We love you too." Reggie and nick say in unison.

They both laugh and I cant help but smile.

Reggie likes nick. I think its cause hes the opposite of dad. He knows that means hes not going to go out of his way to hurt me.

Luke's on the fence about him but tolerates him because he makes me happy.

Julie is my number one fan and loves our relationship. Her and Luke hang out with us sometimes it's nice. And alex has always been my best friend.

I so glad I have them. Because with out them this world would swallow me whole.