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♥ one-shot eight // march (sad/break-up; ending 1/3) ♥

Inspired By: The game 'March'. It was a lovely game and I recommend you play or watch it. (I originally watched Markiplier's playthrough, just in case).

One-Shot Title Credit: The actual game 'March'.

Warnings: I guess its kinda sad??

Genre/Content: Break-up (kinda)/sad

This is ending one. I will be writing two more ends bc there is two choices and a "good end". Sadly, I only saw one, but I should be able to watch the other ends soon enough. ^-^

~♥~

✖ Phil's POV ✖

We talked every day. We saw each other every day. We laughed together every day. We were just.. together every day. I liked the way it was. It was comfortable knowing I could be with Dan every day.

Being constantly together made me happy. I enjoyed his company and he enjoyed mine. Everybody could tell, just by looking at us, we were made for each other.

We were best friends. Always had been, always would be. We stuck with each other through thick and thin. We knew each other like the back of our hands. We always knew what each other felt, thought, we just knew.

He was my light. The light of my life, you could say. He made life enjoyable. Without him, who knows where I'd be. He kept me in check. He kept me stable. He kept me going.

I wanted to hold him. If I didn't.. he'd leave. I wanted to hold him. I needed to hold him. I would never let go... I could never let go. He was everything to me. But was I everything to him?

I love him. I loved him. I wanted to tell him, but I could never bring myself to do it. Did he feel the same? Would he run away when I told him? I had questions, but no answers, leading me to keep my mouth shut and never tell him the truth.

He decided to leave one day. I didn't want him to, but he was so stuck on the idea of leaving.. He even had a date planned and I had until then to decide. Decide if I wanted to make my best friend miserable and myself happy, or my best friend happy and myself miserable. I chose the latter..

And he moved on. He found new goals and ambitions and wanted to do more with his life. I agreed with him; I wanted him to be happy. I let him do his thing and find himself.

But I could never let go.

He was having a great time, I could tell. All the pictures he sent me. All the phone calls I received. He was having a great time. Living his life. Without me. And even though I wanted him back so desperately, I never called for him. I just smiled and agreed. But I was happy for him. Even if I, myself, wasn't in overall happiness, I was still happy for him.

I would never let go.

One day, he came back. And I put on my smile, greeting him like I always did. We sat that day, in our old apartment where I still lived, afraid of losing the memories, and I listened to him talk. He talked about all the fun he had had, all the people he met. I forced all the laughs and smiles, trying not to show how I truly felt. I couldn't hurt him like that.

Finally, that day came to a close and we stood at the door, I almost in tears, while he was already taking a step out. But I wanted him to wait, just one more minute. He turned, waiting for me to say something. I was ready to pour my heart out, tell him how i always felt, and that I still love him.

But all I said was, "see you later, then." And he left without a second thought. I watched him go, regretting my decision, but never calling out to him again.

I never saw him after that.

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Agh, that game was amazing and I want it to have more recognition, yes. ^-^

And this is my first one-shot since that event and I'm getting back into the swing of things, so it's short and whatever, but eh.

Anyway, I also wanted to say thank you to everyone who left a comment bc that means a lot, so much more than you'll know. And I'm sorry I don't respond to them, I just feel like I bother everyone so yea, you'll most likely never get a response from me, but I still greatly appreciate your comments and if you're still reading. I love you so very much, have a lovely day, and smile. ♥♥♥

Also: I deleted one-shots I wasn't particularly happy with and kept the ones I was okay with, so that's why this is numbered eight instead of twelve. Just in case there was any confusion. ^-^