It Was Good...

Chapter Eleven

Chapter Eleven:

I shivered as I looked around the field not mowing what to say to him as we sat in silence.

"Are you cold Jordan?" He asked quickly catching my attention.

I shook my head as I shivered again looking at the stars some more. I saw out of the corner of my eye as he shrugged out of the jacket he was wearing.

"Kayln I'm not that cold." I said leaning back not wanting to be this close to him.

"Jordan you're shivering. I'm giving you my jacket wether you like it or not. I have a blanket in the truck if you want that too." He said standing in front of me and putting his jacket jacket around me shoulders. He stood their staring at me as I stated at the stars refusing to look down. "Jordan?"

"Yes?" I said still not looking at him.

"Jordan look at me." He said still holding the jacket.

As I look into his eyes I realize how close he really is to me, our legs were touching while our faces were only a few inches apart. I saw him moving closer and my eyes closed instinctively. As his lips touched mine softly my mind went blank, I felt the numbing sensation I had once felt when he kissed me before.

It was incredible.

As I felt his arms come around my waist pulling me closer to him as my hands looped around his neck to get him closer to me the shivers were incredible, it was amazing, it was exotic, it was...wrong. It was so wrong.

What am I doing? I just broke up with my boyfriend, I can't be doing this. My lips stopped moving as my body froze, he instantly noticed the difference in my moments as my entire body just stopped.

"Jordan? What is with you?" He said pulling away from me looking into my eyes. "Please, just try and let me in."

I put my forehead against his and shut my eyes thinking, how do I let someone get so close to me? The only person who is close to me on a personal level is Callie and she doesn't even know about my vomiting tendencies. How can I let him in? He's been gone for so long and so much has happened in the years he has been gone it's just been so different. I couldn't take this alone anymore, I took a deep breath and slowly the words flowed like a river.

"When you left, I met new people. Callie and I still were inseparable but I needed more than just one friend. I decided to join cheerleading and Callie followed like she always did. I didn't like being the leader so Callie stepped ahead of me and became Captain making me her second in command so that I would still have authority " I paused as I sat back in the truck bed looking up at the stars.

"We slowly but surely made our way to popularity and as the time went on I met Ethan. He was sweet at first, taking me to dinners and movie dates. Not that I ate the popcorn or anything expensive at the dinners. My family approved, proud of his achievements at school and his football playing so they were ok with him and I dating. He was kind to me, he never treated me wrongly or acted like I was a bad person. He acted like you used to act so I quickly let him into me and everything that was me."

"Wait, what? You two had sex?" Kayln yelled jumping into the bed of the truck.

"God no, I was never ready for that." I said keeping my voice where it was never looking away from the stars. "He just saw me as more than some preppy cheerleader when it was just him and I, you know?"

"Oh, yeah I get it." He said quickly calming down and sitting beside me staring at the sky also.

"So we would just hang out, be with each other and try to be ourselves which we couldn't do at school. I played normal music while he played PlayStation instead of X-box. We just clicked somehow, while the people at school made us out to be the long-standing power couple we were. We just saw ourselves as two normal teenagers who were dating like normal teenagers should be dating.