It's not all roses

Chapter 23

Misty POV

The past 6 months have flown by. I ended up staying in hospital for 5 days after my surgery. I am still feeling the pain in my heart of not being able to have any more children, but Ryan and Kaysha are absolutely amazing little people. Ryan loves his little sister and Kaysha is a cheeky little shit. She is already learning from Ryan.

"Aunt Lacy is in the house" we hear as I am trying to get the kids dressed. "Good come and help me dress these little devil spawns" I yell out to Lacy. She comes in the room and Ryan runs straight to her. "Mummy smack my bottom" he tells her. "You deserve it?" she asks him. He nods his head yes. "Well don't be complaining to me little man. If you weren't such a little shit, mummy wouldn't of had to smack you" she tells him.

I stand at the change table cackling like a witch. Lacy always has a way with words. Especially when it comes to talking to Ryan and Kaysha. Getting my little princess dressed for the day, I notice a piece of paper sitting underneath the change table mat. I pull it out and read it to myself.

Dear Misty,

There is only 2 more sleeps until you become my wife. To say I am excited would be an understatement. You are my whole world and I cannot wait to share every little thing of me with you. The last thing is my surname and you will be taking that in a couple of days.

I love you so much. Thankyou for being you and giving me the most incredible children. Without you this would never have been possible. Without you, I wouldn't be where I am today.

Misty you are the shining light in my life and I cannot wait to watch you walk down to aisle to me and make me the happiest man on the planet.

I love you more than words can express

Yours forever

Tyson

The tears are already falling from my eyes. He always knows when I need something to cheer me up. The closer we get to the wedding day the more my heart is breaking. Knowing my dad won't be giving me away, crushes me more and more. I know he will be there in spirit but it isn't the same. I want to be able to place my hand in his elbow, I want him to kiss my cheek as he gives me to Tyson. I want him to say I do when asked who gives me away.

So many things he is missing out on. Don't get me wrong about Jason. I love that guy so much, but he isn't dad. He hasn't tried to take over dad's memory. He is just Jason still to us. He doesn't get offended if we all talk about dad like he is there. Jason is amazing. He is amazing for mum. But on days like this, I just wish he was here.

Lacy and I take the kids out of the house into the backyard. Ryan needs to run off some of his energy. Way too much energy for the morning. Once mum and Jason get back from their appointment, we are leaving Ryan with Jason, and us girls are getting our hair and nails done. Kaysha is on the breast so she needs to come with us.

Yeah, I shocked mum by breastfeeding Kaysha, but I had decided I had to be a grown up. "Mis, are you ok?" Lacy asks me. "Not really. I just wish dad was here, Lace. I miss him so much and it is even harder right now" I tell her. Lacy wraps her arm around my shoulders. "I know. I miss him too. But at the end of the day, he is off somewhere playing golf with his dad and granddad" she says to me. This causes me to laugh. "Bloody hell Lacy. Really? The best thing you could come up with is golf?" I ask her. She smiles her megawatt smile and chuckles to herself.

The day before the wedding came quickly. All the appointments yesterday were successful with no issues. I am staying at mum's house tonight. Lacy was kind enough to share her room with me. It doesn't help my old room was turned into Brocks bedroom so I had no where else to sleep. Ryan is in my house with his dad. Tyson had asked his boss to be his best man and Jarrod jumped at the chance.