It's not all roses

Chapter 10

Tyson POV

The past couple of weeks have been hard on all of us here. Misty and I still moved into our house but she has been disconnected from everyone. I know she is still grieving over the loss of our baby. There is no time limit on this and I am trying to do the right thing by her and giving her space, but I also need her to comfort me while I am going through all of this too.

Laura has been an absolute godsend the past couple of days. I go to her when I need motherly advice or even just a shoulder to cry on. She has left us well alone and only interferes when she thinks she needs to. Misty is running on auto pilot. She does everything she needs to for Ryan but then goes back into her shell.

Laura knocks on the door and lets herself in. She nods her head to me, which gives me the cue to leave the house. I grab everything I need for Ryan and take him over to the main house. Jason and I are going to watch the footy game on the tv and have a boys night with Ryan.

Entering the house, I can hear Lacy yelling at Jason. I have no idea what she is crapping on about but I can hear the humour in her voice. I can tell she is stirring the pot and Jason is falling for it. Such a gullible shit he is. Once he catches on I can hear him tell Lacy to fuck off. She is cackling like a witch as she leaves the lounge.

I take her spot in the lounge and place Ryan on the floor with his toys that I bought over from the house. "You good mate?" Jason asks me. I sit there and shrug my shoulders. I don't know how I am right now. I miss my Misty like crazy. I know she needs to process everything in her own time but she is also shutting me out.

Jason hands me a beer and I shake my head. I hold up my water bottle and then point to Ryan. "On my best behaviour tonight man. Gotta look after my little man" I tell him. He nods his head and puts the beer back down on the table next to him.

The game starts, but my mind isn't on it. I am too worried about Misty and I really just want to be there for her but again I know she needs to process this. I just hope Laura can help her out. Give her what she needs and will hopefully bring my Misty back to me.

Ryan fell asleep on me not even half way through the game. I didn't want to leave the house and go back to mine incase Misty and Laura didn't want me there so I sat on the couch cuddling a sleeping little Ryan. Jason tried to make conversation with me and I feel so bad but my mind wasn't in the room with us.

"Tyson, mate. I know this is hard and you are worried about Misty but mate. She will be ok. She has you and Laura and Lacy. She has me but I don't know what to say to her. She will be ok, I know it and can feel it in my old man bones" he says with a chuckle. I can't help but laugh along with him. "If only Lacy heard you say that" I said to him.

"Oh I heard it alright. You older fucker" Lacy says with the biggest grin on her face to Jason. He gets up to chase her, but she is faster. "She's got you man. Must be those young bones in her body" I say to Jason with a smile. He smacks the back of my head and walks out. "If I were you boy, I would sleep with one eye open tonight" Jason yells out. I laugh at him and then go back to staring at the amazing little guy in my arms. Hoping his momma will be ok.

**

Laura comes back to the house a couple of hours later. She sees me half asleep on the couch and takes Ryan from my arms. "He is having a sleep-over with his Aunt Lacy. Go home to Misty. She needs you right now" she says to me. I nod my head and get up from the couch. I stretch my muscles and give Laura a kiss on the cheek. "Thank you" I say to her. Give her a small wave and exit the house.

Upon entering my house, Misty is sitting on the couch waiting for me. I walk in and lock the door. She stands up and faces me. All I want to do and rush to her and pull her mouth to mine but I know that isn't what she needs. She moves her arms out to the sides of her body, inviting me in for a hug. I don't waist a second and scoop her up into my own arms. She wraps hers around my neck and cries into my shoulder.

"I'm so sorry babe" she softly whispers into my neck. I step back a little and hold her face in my hands. "Mis, I am here with you and for you. I have no idea what you are feeling but please know my heart is broken like yours. I am scared that you are going to give up on us. Please don't push me away" I tell her honestly. I can feel my own tears start rolling down my cheeks. Misty wipes them away with her thumbs.

"I love you so much Tyson. I am so sorry for pushing you away. I just thought you didn't want to be with me" she says. I can see her pain in her eyes. I pull her back into me and hold her tighter. "Never ever think that. I wouldn't want to be anywhere else but here with you. Misty, I love you so fucking much. You have all of me and I want to give you everything you have ever desired" I pull back a little so I can give her a kiss.

I take Misty's hand in mine and lead her to the bedroom, turning off the lights as we go. I just want to lay in bed with her and hold her close to me. I don't need to touch her in anyway sexual. She is hurting in more than one place and I just want to hold her to let her know that I am here and will always be here with and for her.

We both get ready for bed and I pull back the blanket. In the bed with us tonight is Ryan's toy dinosaur and a rubber snake. Misty screamed when she saw the snake and then started laughing. It wasn't a normal laugh but something that would come from a horror movie. I look at her and she stops laughing straight away. "Fucking Ryan" she says with a shrug of her shoulders.

I remove the toys and jump into bed. Misty follows. I turn the lamp off and roll over to face Misty. I move my arms out and she curls up into me. Her warm breath is fanning my chest. I wrap my arms around her holding her tightly to my chest. "I love you Misty" I say to her. "I love you too Tyson" she replies and leans her head up to give me a kiss. We both said goodnight to each other and fell asleep straight away.

**

I am woken what feels like only an hour later by someone knocking at the front door. But this knocking isn't like a normal knock. It sounds like they are trying to kick the door down. I slowly pull myself out of bed, hoping to not disturb Mis. "DADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD et me in" I hear a voice yell out. I rush down to the door and unlock it. Ryan comes flying at me from Lacy's arms.

"He wanted his mum and dad. Sorry about the earliness" she says with a shit eating grin. I flip her the bird and shut the door in her face. "Fuck you too, arsehole" Lacy screams out with a laugh. I pull back the curtain at the little side window and give her my million dollar smile. I give her a small wave and she flips me off in return.

"Mummmmmmmmm. Where is mummmmmmmmmmmm?" Ryan asks. "Mum is still asleep little guy. We are going to let her sleep right?" I ask him. He looks at me and squirms his way out of my arms. Thinking he was going to go to his room to play, I turn to head into the kitchen to put the kettle on.

"MUMMMMMMMMMMM AKE UP. I HERE" I can hear Ryan scream out. I take off out of the kitchen to my room. Ryan is sitting on the floor next to Misty's side of the bed. She is laying there looking at him with an angry look in her eyes. "I am so sorry babe" I whisper to her. She shakes her head and goes back to staring at Ryan.

"How many times have I told you not to yell in the house Ryan?" she scolds him. He sits on the carpet pulling at it. "Ryan Alexander Granger. Do not ignore me" she says with a bit more anger in her voice. Ryan starts crying straight away. "I sowwy mummy" he says to her. She puts her arms out to him and he stands up and walks to the bed. I help him on and he crawls up next to Misty where he cuddles into her side.

"Ryan, mummy just needs a little more sleep. Do you think you can be quiet so mummy can close her eyes for a little bit longer?" she whispers to him. He nods his head and curls up tighter into her side. He closes his eyes and not even 2 minutes later he is asleep. Misty looks at me and pats the bed behind her. I go back out to make sure the door is locked and then climb back into bed with the most important people in my life.

I squish up in behind Misty and place my armover the top of both her and Ryan. It doesn't take long for Misty to fall back to sleep. I lay there just staring at the back of Misty's head, wondering how did I get so bloody lucky. Sleep takes over my body not long after.