It's not all roses

Chapter 9

Misty POV

You know that old saying 'Time flies when you're having fun'? Well it is absolutely true. Four months have passed and this weekend Tyson and I are moving into our own little house. Yeah, it may be behind mum's house, but it is still ours. Micky's brother made sure that we had our own power lines and water and gas. Bills will be sent to Tyson and I and not to mum or Jason.

Billy never went ahead with charges. As soon as he was told the police believed our story over his, he kept his mouth shut. You know, four months later and we are still wondering why he was at Gerard's funeral. No point dwelling in the past when we have an amazing future ahead of us.

Mum is 7 months along now. She is starting to look like a beached whale. I feel for her though. To be heavily pregnant over summer is no fun. Especially when the nights are hotter than the days (according to her that is, I keep telling her it's because Jason is a hot guy and she can't keep her hands off him)

Tyson and I managed to go out shopping for furniture. The house is ready to go but we wanted to make sure we had everything that we needed before we moved in completely. We have been taking small things over and getting rooms set up. Our room and Ryan's room will be the last rooms as we still need our beds.

"Babe, all those boxes you wanted over there are in the house. Didn't know where you wanted them though so I left them in the living room" Tyson yells out to me. I am in Ryan's room packing up some of his toys and clothes. My mind isn't exactly on moving right now. I have another surprise for Tyson.

Yep, that's right. One of Tyson's little swimmers has penetrated one of my eggs, even though I am on birth control. Not always effective ladies. I only found out 2 nights ago. I am roughly 4 weeks pregnant, so this is going to be fun. No one knows of my little secret except for me and the pregnancy test that was thrown into the garbage bin and taken straight out to the street bin.

I really need to tell someone though as the pains I am getting are worse than a normal period cramp. I don't remember getting these with Ryan, so to say I am scared shitless would be the absolute truth.

Off in my own little world, I am bought back to reality by hands on my hips and a warm breath blowing down the back of my neck. I turn around in the arms of my man and give him a light kiss on his lips. "You alright babe?" he asks me. I nod my head but start shaking it straight away. Tears are falling down my cheeks.

"Mis, baby. What has happened?" Tyson asks, grabbing my face in his hands. "I..I...I'm p.p.p.p.pregnant" I tell him. His eyes light up with excitement but I continue, "I am having really bad cramping pains though. I'm scared Tyson" I say to him. Tyson pulls me into him and holds me tightly, trying his best to console me.

He pulls me out of Ryan's room into ours. "Lay down baby. I'll go get the heat pack for you to put on your belly okay" he says to me and leaves the room. I do as he said and laid on the bed. I curl into a ball when another massive cramp hits. I cry out in pain. Mum comes rushing into the bedroom. A look of concern on her face.

"Misty, what's wrong?" She asks me, rubbing my head. "I think I'm losing my baby" I tell her, sobbing all the while. Mum's face drops at the mention of losing a baby. She sits on my bed and pulls my head into her lap. Rubbing my head softly, soothing me with her words. Tyson comes running back in with the heat pack and places it gently on my stomach. The pain is getting worse and not better. I curl myself tighter into the ball and scream with the pain. Mum is still rubbing my head, Tyson is looking lost and confused.

"Should we take her to the hospital?" he asks mum. She shakes her head no "If she is losing the baby, there is nothing that they can do right now. She will need to be seen by the doctor after it has passed through her" mum tells him. "What do you mean pass through her?" Tyson asks. His innocence shining through.

"Ty, sit down please" mum tells him. Tyson sits at the end of the bed. "If Misty is losing the baby, the baby and its sack will pass out of her body, naturally. She will then most like go into hospital and have what they call a D and C. That is when they will go in and dilate her uterus and clean out any remaining tissue from the miscarriage. Right now though, she needs to let her body do this"

Tyson has tears in his eyes. He isn't sure on what to say. I feel something pass into my undies and jump off the bed and straight to the bathroom. Pulling my pants down I see what looks to be a sack sitting on top and a fair amount of blood in my undies. I scream out and break down in tears. Mum comes into the bathroom and helps me get into the shower.

"I'll be back in a minute baby. I am going to make you an appointment with the doctor ok" mum says and leaves the bathroom. I am sitting on the shower floor, crying my little heart out for the little one who now lays in my ruined knickers. I may have only known it was growing in me for a couple of days, but the love I had for it already, is completely crushing my soul.

I don't know how long I have been in the shower for when Tyson comes in. He sees me and hurries to turn the shower off. "Oh, Misty baby. The water is freezing. Come on lets get you warmed up" he says, while helping me off the shower floor. I don't want to move anywhere, but I will my legs to help me stand. Tyson wraps a towel around me and takes me out of the bathroom back into our bedroom.

"I'll need a pad for my undies" I tell Tyson after he had gotten my clothes out. He runs out of the bedroom and then back into the room not even a minute later. He helps me get dressed and lays in the bed behind me. Just holding me while I cry. I roll over to face him, just to see him silently crying with me. I wrap my arm around his waist and smoosh my face against his chest.

We must have cried ourselves to sleep as I am woken by Ryan climbing onto the bed with us. I move back a bit to allow him to climb in between us. I smother his face with kisses, thanking every lucky star that this little guy is in our lives and is perfect in every single way.

Mum comes in and sits down next to me on the bed. Tyson and Ryan are play fighting. Well Ryan is bashing his dad up and Tyson is just taking it like a champ. "The doctor will see you in an hour baby" mum says to me quietly. I nod my head at her and then cuddle into her legs. Her large belly gets in the way which then makes me feel even worse. I cannot imagine how mum is feeling right now either.

I slowly get up off the bed and watch my 2 boys playing together. My heart constricts at the sight, just knowing that we could have had an extra little person with us. I start heading out of the room when Tyson grabs a hold of my hand. I turn around to face him and he places the most gentle kiss on my lips. "I love you baby girl. I promise we will get through this together" he says to me on a whisper.

Mum drives me to the doctors for the check-up. I am sitting on the chair in the doctor's office waiting for him to come in. When he finally arrives, I break down into tears again. One look at me and he knows it isn't good.

"Misty, what has happened dear?" he asks. I am too upset to answer so mum does instead. "She has just miscarried, Sam. I collected what came out of her incase you needed it to examine" she tells him. Upon hearing that she kept what came out of me, I cry even harder. Dr. Sam asks me to jump up on the examination table.

Once I am laying down, he starts feeling my stomach. I don't know what he was checking for, but only touches me for a minute and then asks me to jump down again. He makes a phone call straight away and gives me an apologetic look. "You will need to be at the hospital first thing in the morning. I am so sorry for your loss Misty" he tells me.

My tears are still falling from my face once we leave the doctor's office. Mum holds me until we get into the car, then once again holds my hand the entire trip home. "When we get inside, don't worry about Ryan. Lacy and I will look after him. You just go and lay down ok baby" mum says to me. I nod my head and start to climb out of the car.

Walking up to the front door, Tyson opens it and steps out to meet me. He pulls me into his arms straight away, just holding me while I cry. Mum tells him what she said to me and he takes me to the bedroom. We lay on the bed together and I cry myself to sleep.

The next morning, Tyson and I are up at the crack of dawn making our way to the hospital. Once we got there, everything moved super quick and before I knew it, I was back at home recovering. We were told to not have sex for 4-6 weeks and I am to not use tampons until after my next period. My body is tired and my heart is broken. But I need to keep going for my little man. He needs me more than ever right now.