MBS1 : My Patient is a Mafia Boss

continuation

BRIAR'S

"Halik ko lang pala ang kailangan mo para pakawalan ako" I said amused while eyeing him. Hindi naman nakatakas sa paningin ko ang maliit nitong ngiti sa labi kaya ako na mismo ang nag iwas. I suddenly felt the urge of slapping myself for kissing him.

Goodness... I totally kiss him! As in kiss him on his lips! What the hell was i thinking!? That's my first kiss in that matter. Well, not that I'm worried about it. Asimple kiss can't swayed me, ang akin lang it's very inappropriate of me.

Aishh! Bahala na nga. More importantly is binitawan na nya ako. But really I thought I'm going to suffocate on his grip earlier and panic my ass out. Yun lang naman ang naisip kong paraan para bitawan nya ako sa hindi ko rin malamang dahilan. I mean in that very moment ay ang halikan ko lang talaga sya ang asa utak ko.

Para kaseng nasusunog yung part ng braso ko na hinahawakan nya kanina at ang sakit sa feeling nun so I just kiss him. But don't get me wrong, I'm a doctor so that simple kiss is pretty normal for me. Wala lang yun sa mga pinapanuod ko na mga video nung nag tretrainning pa ako. Kailangan kase naming mga doctors na maging open minded kaya nung nag tretrainning pa ako ay pinapanuod kami ng kung ano anong video, like about sex, mating, at yung mga live and bloody operation na hindi talaga blurred yung mga dugo.

Nung huling tanda ko nga yung isang trainee na tulad ko nag suka. And sad to say hindi sya pumasa dahil ito na mismo ang nag back out. Hindi daw nya kayang sikmurain. Buti nga nakaya ko kahit papaano. And now look, I'm using my name with a doctor on it. I'm more than proud. So yeah, a simple kiss is pretty nothing. Like hindi sya kawalan diba?

Maybe kung teenager pa ako or few years younger at least, ay talagang masasapak ko yung makakakuha ng first kiss ko. Ngayun kase parang napag lipasan na ako ng panahon para sa mga kilig kilig na ganyan. Minsan nga natatakot narin ako sa sarili ko kase baka hindi ako makapag asawa dahil hindi tumitibok itong puso ko.

But that can't be help. I grew my life with this maturity and independence where I actually don't have time for my very own love life. I always put other first before me too much kaya hindi ko narin natutuunan yung sarili ko pag dating sa mga pag ibig nayan. Ito Rin siguro ang dahilan kung bakit never ako nag ka boyfriend nung kabataan ko. Hindi naman sa pagiging pihikan but, I just couldn't really enter in such a relationship.

Hind ako bilang dun sa mga kababaihang umiiyak sa mga ex nila then gusto pang balikan. I mean sinaktan ka na nga eh, tas babalikan mo pa? And what's the reason? Na you still love him or her? I just don't get young people nowadays. They treat this kind of stuffs a game.

It's true na you can always give second chances, but those chances supposedly to be the last too. Giving so many chances to someone is so wrong dahil aabusuhin nila yun when they knew na you can't let them go kahit ilang pag kakamali pa ang nagawa nila sayo. And that is so messed up and will definitely leave you miserable.

Love itself can't stand strong to be your reason to accept him/her back. Hind ibig sabihin na mahal mo babalikan mo pa, tas iiyak ka na naman pag sinaktan ka ulit. Karamihan sa atin sa part nayun kaya tayo natatawag na tanga. Ginusto mo kase syang balikan eh, so kung masaktan ka muli ginusto mo yun. You need to accept the consequences, and stay strong until you already fullfil it

And diba, may kasabihan na, once a cheater will always be a cheater. Maliban na lang kung nag matured na sya or kayong dalawa and learn to accept your mistakes. At yang mga love love nayan sa mga murang edad wala rin yan sa huli kase poppy love lang yan. So talagang masasaktan kahit anong mangyari, hindi maiiwasan yun kase kasama yun sa buhay. Pag hindi ka nasaktan matakot ka na, dahil sure akong patay ka na.

Ang point ko lang is that na it's not wrong to love again the someone who hurt you but make sure to be wise and avoid doing the same mistake you did. Accept what are supposedly to be accepted and move on with your life. Loving someone again is not a bad thing as long as your not being stupid.