Y/N has always known Emily, growing up together and bonding over shared trauma. Even going as far as going undercover for Interpol. After the 9 grueling years, she had given up on love, it would always lead to heartbreak even if it's a good guy. That was up until Spencer Reid came into her life. I promise the story is better than the description Based on seasons 9-11 hair, the only spoilers are for the season 9 finale and previous trauma. Trigger Warnings - physical abuse, mental abuse, torture, miscarriages, overdose, and mentions of drug use If you don't like pregnancy plots or children in fics, back away now any comments about including children will be deleted immediately.