The Ally's Blood (Kaisoo) (On Hold)

Chapter 12 : The sacrifice

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I panted while running back, tripping over my feet a couple of times when i had trouble seeing and focusing on my surrounding. I could not See as clearly as before, when with every turn the world would turn blurry for a moment before becoming clear.

As a result I ended up being covered in more dirt than before from allt he falling.

I felt pathetic, It felt like I've lost a piece of me, I felt unsteady, unsafe and shaky. Like I was suddenly completely helpless.
I could not balance my steps as before  I could not tell distances apart anymore and I could not recognize colours either. Everything was gray and black to me.
Darker than I have ever seen the world.

It terrified me but the thought of jongin not out of death's reach, pushed me foreward.

'' well I've known this was a bad idea from the start! " chanyeols cursing made me hurry up as I saw them, as i saw jongin laying on the ground bearly conscious with his head on jongdaes lap.

'' kyungsoo!" Jongdae finally saw me as I fell to my knees from running besides them. He immediately moved to let me get closer as I turned jongins head to be looking at me.

'' what happened ?" He asked but I did not answer I was busy staring at jongin when I gave him the liquid inside the little bottle in a hurry, I could already feel tears wanting to built up in my eyes as I saw his hand reach up weakly, causing me to hold it tightly.

I ran my hand over his forehead examine him closely as the others when I hoped to see a sign from him. From the liquid that it had worked.
But then his eyes rolled to the back of his head.

Frustrated but more over paniced pieces of air escaped me as I moved closer letting his hand go to be cupping his face and pat his cheek when I thought he had stopped breathing. When I though he had died again with me helplessly watching and holding what was left of him.

'' kyungsoo !" Jongdaes gripp on my arm finally made me turn to him instead as he looked at me worriedly.
'' he's .. he's going to be ok. Calm down.. look he's breathing normally again " he continued to frown at me and I desperately looked down at him again to see it for myself.

Opening and closing my lips a couple of times as i shifted, still breathing unevenly when I could not manage to calm down.

But He was right .. jongin looked nothing but peacefully asleep, his chest rising steadying to lower again.

I forced myself to exhale in one piece to calm my heart when I leaned down squeezing my eyes shut while I leaned my forehead to his.

I wanted to cry right then and there in relief and pain from experiencing this horrible feeling of believing he was gone again. But I could not...
Not here not now.

I swallowed hard unconsciously having leaned a bit away to be hugging his head to myself gently now.

'' k-kyungsoo .. it's ok "
I looked up at jongdae again who smiled softly having a hand on my shoulder. '' its gonna be ok.. calm down "

As he said that the realization of what I'd done started kicking in when I kept looking at him trying to surprises the urge to let the tears flow.
He looked different aswell, his hair had no colour.. his face, his eyes. His clothes He was just covered in different shades of grey.

'' what happened ? What was that ? Did the seeer give you that ??" Chnayeol ofcorse was there taking every opportunity there was to blame me and find my wrong doings so I moved my eyes from jongdae as blank as I felt I must have looked like aswell.