The Deadly Seven |H.S|

Chapter 12

A/N: Just a quick one from me before you start. Any poetry written by Eva is written originally by me, Im not a poet but i do write a lot of it for fun and some other reasons, there will be a few more poems throughout this story, some i will have written specifically for the story and some i might have written awhile ago for myself, enjoy.

The sun rise was taking my breath away, I was never awake this early so I'd never seen how gorgeous it looked from my couch, it was 6:30 and this was very early for me but I couldn't sleep, I've had some trouble sleeping for a while actually, I had a lot on my mind, that's why I decided to get up and write, I had work in a few hours so I decided to just stay awake.

I hadn't heard from Harry in nearly a month, he didn't have my number but I didn't expect him to just ignore me, I mean the man showed up at my work last time he wanted to talk to me and he knew where I lived, I went to the club after a week off no contact to see if he was there and give his suit jacket back but he wasn't anywhere to be found, I saw jack and asked him if he had seen him and like always, he was vague and said Harry was fine and that he didn't know anything else about it, so after I didn't hear from him for two weeks after that, I kind of took the hint he wasn't going to reach out to me.

And now I'm here, not sleeping and still not being able to get his stupid ass out of my head, it was a huge kick in the guts after I didn't hear from Harry, it made me feel like I was an idiot for crying in front of him and I couldn't help but think that's why he left, I never showed people that side of me and the first guy I did fucking ghosted me.

I felt like a bit of an idiot even letting this bother me, I knew him for barley three weeks and hung out a few times and we didn't even have sex, and yet I actually missed him. I know it sounds dumb but he did something to me, I can't explain it, I felt safe and comfortable around him, Ashley did make the point of asking me if I was heightening those felling's subconsciously because she knew I've never really had that with anyone, but that wasn't the case at all.

I told Ashely about him, I told her about the night at the club too, well she heard about it from people she knew and she rushed over to my apartment to talk to me about it, I told her I saw Luke and then I told her about the night with Harry too, it wasn't easy but I needed someone to talk to and Ashely was the only real friend I had and I really did love her, she would never and has never judged me for anything.

After telling her about that night, everything just spilled out of me like word vomit, she was shocked when I started to cry but I told her everything about my relationship with Luke and I even talked to her about my Mother and I, she wasn't completely surprised, I knew she had put some pieces together on her own over the years and she told me that too. We cried for a while together and she told me if she ever sees Luke again she's going to show him what his balls taste like after they've been kicked up through his body, she also wasn't very happy with Harry but I told her not to worry about him, it was nothing.... which was a big fat lie.