The Deadly Seven |H.S|

Chapter 18

Sorry this update took so long, but its here now and its one of my favs, enjoy xx

Today has been a day I never thought I'd experience, starting with waking up in Harry's apartment, it was odd, like an unfamiliar comfort that I wanted to grow comfortable too, I wasn't as awkward as I thought I would be. I woke up still lying on his shoulder, waking up with his arm hugged around me and his intoxicating scent filling the air was so welcoming, it also may have added to how horny I apparently was.

As soon as I saw him in those damn boxers and noticed his gaze on me as I got out of bed, I couldn't help but get turned on, I thought going to cook and being away from him would help me get a grip on it, but when he scared the shit out of me, and I saw the suit he was wearing I was fucked, I couldn't deny the tension brewing in my stomach, him in a suit wasn't something I thought would turn me on so much...also him spitting in my mouth.

Fuck was that a surprise, a good surprise but still. No one had ever done that to me, honestly, I hadn't experienced a lot before Harry and we had only fucked once. I wanted to kiss him after I came and yes, tasting myself mixed with his own taste was a bonus but then when he grabbed my jaw and asked me if I wanted more, I knew what he was planning and I didn't want to stop him, the thought alone made me throb, it was so fucking hot, and oh god that mouth of his, I couldn't get over the way he spoke and I had a feeling he was holding back for my sake but I didn't want him to.

I was always a very open person, well I used to be, it wasn't until Harry that I started to see that part of me again. For a long time I was brought down for what I wanted during sex or even life in general, so I kind of just adapted to being someone I wasn't to make Luke happy, and for a second this morning I thought I was stupid for being so open, that was until Harry quickly told me he never wanted me to be ashamed in front of him which only added to how much I wanted him in that moment, he had said a few times that he wanted me to be comfortable around him, if only he knew how naturally I felt safe around him, I wanted to tell him but I still didn't really know what was going on between us.

I left Harrys not too long after he did, it felt kind of weird being there without him, so I chucked on my pants from last night and kept Harry's shirt on so I could head home, taking his car was also something so weird, it was fun to drive though, it was a vintage Mercedes and I got to drive with the top down. I was only home for maybe 30 minutes, I just showered and changed into some jeans and a little mustard singlet, also remembering to grab a jacket like Harry said. I stopped by the café to see Ashely and Martha, I wanted to let them see I was okay because they both insisted that I didn't come to work tomorrow but I didn't want to make a big deal out of anything, I was fine.  Ashley and I talked while I helped around the café a bit, earning disapproving glares from Martha while I helped might I add, but I didn't stop.

I talked to Ash about last night and how I felt, I told her it was weird how... I'm using Harry's words here... how normal it felt, I knew I wanted to be around him more and know him better, that was obvious, it was just hard for me to trust someone or be open to the idea of someone even wanting to know me, I wanted to believe I was deserving of it but for so long I was proved otherwise and I can't stop my brain from telling me I wasn't worth it. Ash hated that I thought like that and so did I but it's taken me time to even get to the point I am at right now, so I know I will get back to the old me eventually, it will just take time.

So now I was at Harry's apartment again, I had been here since 3pm and it was 9:30pm now, I ordered some pizza earlier and now I'm sitting on Harry's couch, I haven't moved from here since I got here, I didn't want to walk around and feel like I was snooping so I just stayed put. I don't even know why I'm still here, Harry wanted to take me somewhere, he hadn't told me where yet and I don't think I'll find out until we get there to be honest.