The Deadly Seven |H.S|

Chapter 17

Harry's POV
I woke up with a numb arm, I forgot Eva was next to me until I tried to move my arm and realised she was still asleep on it, she was curled up with her head on my shoulder and her arm slung over my stomach, she looked so pretty.

I didn't want to move and wake her up so I just lied there with her while she slept, she looked so peaceful. Her lips were slightly parted and her hair was falling on her face so I gently moved it away, it made me think of the last time I woke up with her next to me and I did the same thing, except last time It felt weird, this time it just felt...good.

I told her last night that how normal this all felt and it scared me and I meant that, it scared me that I had never had anything remotely like this with anyone and it all just felt natural with her, but I was also scared that I would hurt her, that I would be like my father and break her.

I talked to Dom about this and he told me I was an idiot, but how could I be so different from him if I was from him? I watched him every day I was growing up, I watched him break my mother's spirit and her fucking bones, he was nothing but a pathetic excuse for a man and I wanted nothing more than to be nothing like him, that's why I opted for the life I have....well had.

I chose to never get close to women, I never wanted to hurt any of them, I never wanted to be like him. I chose the life of meaningless fucks over love and I was fine with that, it was easy...up until two months ago.

I had never wanted to get close to anyone but when I met Eva, everything got fucking flipped, I have no control around her and that scares me more than anything, I always feel the need to be in control but with her, I can't help it.

I could already tell Eva had gone through some stuff in her past that she didn't want to talk about and those fucking scars and that fucking ex was always in the back of my mind now, if she ever confirmed my thoughts about it, I would kill him for laying a hand on her, just like I wish I could do to whoever cut her.

I had never cared like this about anything, when she let it slip that a person had done that to her yesterday, I almost lost it, just the thought of something touching her made my blood boil, it made me feel crazy because I really didn't know her yet.

I wanted to help her, I hated that someone had done that to her and I wanted to do something about it, but I was hard to explain how I could help or even do anything without telling her what my life was like and that just wasn't going to happen.

When I came into the café yesterday and I saw her crying to her friend Ashely I didn't know what to do, and then when freakedout when I called her name, I knew something had happened, I felt my heart sink at first, I thought she was scared of me and I was about to walk straight out of the café before she relaxed and almost started to cry again, I couldn't stop myself when I went over there to see if she was okay.

When she told me what happened I couldn't believe it, what kind of world did this woman live in? I was worried she would freak out if she knew what I did for work but now I'm not so sure, although by the way she was at the café and she told me herself, that this wasn't a regular thing for her, so I think I'll keep what I do to myself for a while.

I had been lying here for a while now, she was still asleep but I could tell she was walking up from all the noises she was making, I grabbed my phone of the bedside table carefully so I didn't wake her, it was 9:08am, I had a meeting at 10:30am so I hoped she'd wake up soon so I could get ready, I could easily just slide out of bed and have a shower but she looked so calm, I couldn't.

Her grip tightened around my stomach and she groaned making me look over at her, she had a smile on her face but her eyes were still closed and she was snuggling into me, it made my stomach do that stupid thing.