Truth of Soul. (A Rosario+Vampire x Jedi Male Reader fanfic.)

Chapter 30: Consent To Control.

A/N: for those of you confused with how I started this chapter, this one continues directly from chapter 28. You know what that means, folks. back to the present. Fair warning, I wanted this chapter to be heartfelt, because in all honestly, I'd be this apologetic to my girlfriend if I left her alone for two weeks, regardless of whether or not I was dealing with personal problems.

I didn't mean for this chapter to seem like Y/N is a shallow asshole, that wasn't what I was going for at all. I haven't exactly been in a romantic relationship before, and in all honesty the one I'm trying to make happen here feels extremely convoluted, even while thinking about how it works. I'm a little confused about how this all works, and I don't know if this chapter was all that good to begin with, especially with the fact that this(like all of my other chapters) was a first draft.

...I hope I didn't do too bad with this chapter, and as for the ending, I will do my best to explain that as best I can with some of the upcoming chapters. In the meantime, I've got news about my Spite in Heroism story, so stay tuned after the end of the chapter.

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BD-1 P.O.V.

To answer her question, to some extent, I begin to project a prerecorded hologram from a few hours ago.

She's hypnotized him twice before. The first was the day they met. The second was to help him with his emotional imbalance. I don't know if Y/N's offer is going to help or hurt himself, but regardless of what it does... it's obvious that he trusts Kurumu immensely. 

Then again, his offer goes to her... it's her choice to make, regardless of my opinion.

She seems surprised by the blue-shaded imitation of her boyfriend, and even more so when it begins speaking.

(Hologram - Y/N) - Alrighty. All set. BD? We rolling?

(BD-1) - (The recording has started, yes.)

(Hologram - Y/N) - Great! Well then...

The hologram turns to meet Kurumu's gaze, and then...

(Hologram - Y/N) - Hi, K! It's been a lot longer than I would have hoped. Although, I suppose that's on me. I... I feel as if I need to apologize. You might say I have nothing to apologize for, but this is a recording, and whether you like it or not, there's not much you can do about me feeling the need to apologize for being a sub-par boyfriend. Because it's true. I am... used to doing what I can to help the people I care about, and attempting to keep myself stable with the little I have left. Since I woke up in the infirmary after the incident, our interactions have been... short, if not basically nonexistent. ...I'm just going to stop beating around the proverbial bush. I feel as if I have neglected your well-being for two weeks, and I hate myself for feeling that way, because I know just how much I mean to you. I know just how much you care about me, and want what's best for me. Ever since the first year, you've made it increasingly obvious how much I matter to you, even with your... unique way of showing it. 

He pauses for a moment, stopping to take a breath.

(Hologram - Y/N) - What I'm trying to say, is that I don't feel like I'm doing what's best for myself. Yes, I'm feeling much more stable, now that I know there's a solution, that I know there's a way to bring back a friend. But... what point is there in being stable if I'm not there for you when you need me? It's thoughts like these that make me realize how... inadequate I feel, and I don't want to feel that way. I... I want you to be happy. I don't know if I can do that. I don't know if I'll ever be able to make you happy, because I don't entirely understand what it means to be your 'destined one'. But I do know that, once I'm finished with what I feel I need to do, I intend to dedicate every moment I have to you. To being by your side, to loving you, and to doing my best and then some to make you happy. The problem is... I don't know if I'll ever be finished, because there is the ever-present possibility I might die on the way to the solution.