True Loves Challenge

Chapter 19

Rosie's POV

Three weeks later

A lot of things have changed in the past month. In the beginning of this month, I was with Matthew, now I'm with Steve.

Ever since the breakup took place between me and Matthew, I have felt very weird and different. I feel like I am going back and forth. I want Matthew, and then I want Andrew. I change back to Matthew, then I go to Steve, but I for sure won't go back to Matthew. He never made me happy, right?

He still tells me he loves me every day. Whenever he does, I can see a little mad look in Steve's eye, but Steve calms down once I touch his hand and Matthew is gone. Although Matthew and Steve are friends again, there is still a little tension between them. I understand why. Matthew still hates Steve because Steve took me right after we broke up. And Steve still hates Matthew because he is still jealous of him. And Steve is still mad because Matthew isn't appreciating that there are other women who still want him. Steve wants Matthew to appreciate that, but he won't, I know that he won't.

Things with Steve have been pretty interesting. He is certainly a different boy. He really loves to kiss a lot more than me and Matthew did. Even me and Andrew! And out of the two ex-boyfriends I have had, Andrew has been that one boyfriend that wanted to kiss all the time, but it seems that Steve and I are kissing every 5 seconds. When it was me and Matthew, we only kissed when it seemed right or needed. With Andrew, we kissed whenever Andrew wanted to, which was every two minutes.

Steve is either always with me in my room or brings me to his home in his room. We are never really in front of either of our families when it comes to kissing. We are always in a separate room... making out. I don't really know why I always let him kiss me every 5 seconds, but I just don't really care as much for some reason. He loves me and I love him, right?

Ugg!! Why do I keep questioning myself?!

Anyway, for instance, last night Steve spent the first night at my house and I tested him on how he would react to spending a night with me. He didn't seem to treat my body with respect. He was lifting my shirt ever so often just to feel my skin. Same with my undershirt straps. Those were also being moved for skin access. I didn't feel comfortable. Plus, there were moments he was too hard on me. He still is a little bit in the abusing stage. He doesn't really mean to hurt me, I can tell, but he still does.

He is going to spend the night again. I don't know how to feel about this. To be honest, I think I miss having Matthew there. Although, I am still mad at him, I miss the way he treated me at night. He was always concerned about keeping my clothes on (which I was already aware of meaning making sure that I would wear clothes at night) and he would always be gentle. If anything, I miss how gentle he was. NO! I don't miss him! I don't!

I hear a knock on my bedroom door. It's Steve. "Come in!" I yell loud enough to let him hear me.

Once he comes in my room, he takes off his shirt and comes over to me on my computer. He is standing behind be and squatting down to kiss my neck. I can feel the wetness and the coldness of his lips on my warm neck. I kind of push him a way to make him stop. "I'm not in the mood right now." I go back to my writing assignment that is due in about two days.

He goes right back to kissing my neck. This time I stand up and make him really stop.

"What's wrong?" asked Steve.

"Hm... I don't know! Maybe it's that you aren't treating me the way I want to be treated!" I commented angrily.

"Whoa there, calm down, what do you mean?"