True Loves Challenge

Chapter 8

Rosie's POV

Four years ago

The second part of the dream

I'm in 8th grade. It was just a normal Thursday at school. Go to classes, finish assignments, you know, the usual. Then it was 3rd period, theater class. I love this class because all I my best friends are in this class with me. Matthew, Sophia, Kahner, Lucy, Hannah, Kayla, Brynlee, and many others. Yet, my worst enemy is also in this class. Judy. She follows me everywhere. She thinks that I am her best friend... well... she is very wrong. Judy is a faker and a liar. She is all about attention. She always comes up with lies just so that I can give her attention. I hate her for that. She always says, "My cousin died" or "My brother is missing in the military." I may not know if she is telling the true or not... but I do know that she is just lying to me in some way to try to get people's attention. Well, I am surprised that she hasn't noticed yet that I don't give her my attention. I don't give her attention even when she cries.

Anyway, so, one day, I was very love sick. I have had a crush on Matthew for as long as I can remember. And today, I was feeling a little extra sick and in need of him. Judy came up to me and said, "Rosie? What's wrong?" And of course, I don't say anything. "Rosie? It's me isn't it?" Dang it... she's doing it again.

"Judy, you didn't do anything. It's not you" I said softly still love sick.

"No, it's me. Fine, I'll just leave you alone" she said walking away. I hate it when she does this. I call out for her but she ignores me. Well, I should probably just go crawl into a corner and feel bad for making the person I hate with all my heart think that she did this. I start to walk up the stairs of the auditorium, but my friend Lucy stops me.

"Rosie? Are you okay?" asked Lucy. We are close enough that I can actually tell her what is wrong.

"Oh, nothing, just wanting to be able to share my feelings with the one I love. While hating Judy, of course. I wish that she would just leave me alone..." I said losing the rest of my words wanting to cry.

"Sorry about Judy like always... Do you want me to talk to Matthew?"

"NO!! Please- Just- Please don't talk to him. It would just make things worse." I started walking up now ignoring whatever Lucy was going to say next.

Once I was up in the stairs, I practically shut out everyone. I was looking out at Matthew wishing that he knew about my feelings towards him. Then, I saw Lucy come up to him and she tells him something. Then, he looks up at me. Our eyes meet for about two seconds then I look away. Of course Lucy would talk to him after I specifically told her not to...

I put my head down. Tears start to come now. Why do my feelings have to increase whenever I look at him?

Apparently Sophia could feel me in my sorrows because she came up and sat right next to me. "Okay, what's wrong" said Sophia. If there is anyone in this class that I trust 100%, it is Sophia. I know that she will be able to keep this secret and promise that she will keep it. She is one of the greatest friends anyone could ever ask for.

"Matthew." That is the only thing I had to say. Sophia already knows that I have a crush on him.

"Is your crush for him increasing?" asked Sophia reading my mind. I nodded. "Well, why don't you just talk to him?"

"Because Lucy is already doing that for me when I told her not to..." I said pointing to Lucy and Matthew... and Judy. Great! Now Judy is part of this... I put my head back down. Sophia starts rubbing my back to comfort me.

"Judy! Lucy! Come here!" yelled Sophia that caused me to put my head up.

"NO!" yelled Judy. I swear I want to go up to her and punch her nose.

"No, please come here! I want to talk to you!" yelled Sophia.

"NO! JUST DEAL WITH IT THAT I DON'T WANT TO TALK TO YOU!" yelled Judy. She really just doesn't want to talk to me. Good. Yet bad... now she is going to do everything in her power to tear apart my world... I hate her so much.

"Faker" I say in my breath. Sophia laughs. We just decided that we should just ignore her.

"Anyway, why don't you just try to talk to him?"

"Because... I am too afraid to lose him. I don't want him to be afraid of my feeling for him. Because this happened once, I can't let it happen again." Oh yeah, once upon a time, I had a crush on a guy and I told him how I felt for him, and he ended being afraid of me and he shut me out... yeah...

"I know... But, Matthew is different! Even I know that! I don't know if you have noticed... whenever he hoods you, he always has a look of concern in his eyes. You know, like he doesn't want to hurt you. Rosie, he really does care about you! Don't worry. He is totally in love with you!" All of my friends have been telling me that he is in love with me... but I have never really believed them until now...

"Really, he is protective of me?"

"Of course he is!" Now, my tears were becoming happy. But they went back to sad...

"How can you be sure?"

"I've seen it with my own eyes! Trust me! He loves you!" Matthew was coming near now. Sophia immediately changed the subject like it was nothing. "So, do you think that I can come over tomorrow?"

"Well, I still have to ask my mom if it's okay... but other than that... I think it's okay... Don't worry, I'll ask." I give Sophia a look of thanks and Matthew sits behind me and Sophia.

Matthew immediately hoods me from behind. "Opps... my left hand did that... I just can't control my left hand" said Matthew.

After a while, he stopped and left to go sit next to my friend Autumn. I put my head down again as I look at them. He laughs. Wow... now I really don't believe what Sophia said, because he looks so much happier with Autumn.

The period ended and Sophia told me to hang in there. I wish I could.

The next period started and I went farther up the stairs to get a more private seat. But, of course, Hannah, Kahner, and Tom follow me. They are my closest friends in this class. Hannah and Kahner go and sit next to me so that I am in the middle, and Tom goes and sits behind me. They all immediately see that I am tense and that I have been having a horrible day. Tom immediately starts massaging me. I swear, he has to become a massage therapist. Then, Hannah and Kahner grab my hands and start massaging my hands.

"Does this feel better?" asked Kahner. I nodded and sighed in relaxation. I put my feet up on the seat in front of me. I am so glad that all we are doing today is watching a dance movie. I am so spoiled.

For the rest of the period, Tom and Kahner were being really weird boys and Hannah and I just started shaking out heads at them... Oh... Boys are weird...

Lunch happened and all my sore muscles that were massaged away came back. Matthew didn't come and sit by me like he usually does. He never even came to the table. Is it because of me?

Then, it was after school; Sophia came up to me and told me that Matthew went to go sit next to Autumn. Of course. What is wrong with me? Why didn't I see this coming? Of course he loves Autumn more than me. I feel like I knew this the entire time. I just left after Math club. I just want to go home and wallow up in my own sorrows and just let things go.

That night, I had dreams. I had a dream that I put a note in Matthew's locker. My note told him all about my feelings for him. I poured my feelings out in that note.

Then, there was a note that appeared in my locker. This note talked about how he never loved me. And how he will never love me.

That morning I woke up crying. I was afraid to face him again. I just didn't know what to do anymore. I just couldn't take it.