𝔸𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟-ℝ𝕖𝕒𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟 - 𝗳𝗶𝗹𝗹𝗶𝗲 𝗳𝗮𝗻𝗰𝗶𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻

Part 25

POV FINN

'Merry christmas eve day.' Millie smiles when i open my eyes. 'Since when is that a thing?' I ask and Millie smiles. 'Since always.' She smiles and i do too. 'Do your arms still hurt?' I ask and Millie shakes her head. 'No i had my painkillers all ready.' Millie smiles and i frown. 'Aren't you supossed to take them with like a meal?' I ask and Millie nods. 'Yeah, i've been up for 2 hours.' She smiles and glance at the clock. 'You've been up since 5.45?' I ask and Millie nods again. 'I tought you were tired?' I ask and Millie smiles. She lays her head on my chest and wraps her hands around me. 'I was.' She mumbles and i smile. I look down at her and wait for her to say something. 'When are we switching presents?' Millie asks and i shrug. 'What is your family doing with christmas anyway?' I ask and Millie moves her head a little. 'We open presents at my grandparents and we bake cookies and stuff. What does your family do?' She mumbles and closes her eyes. 'About the same thing but mom went crazy this year since dad isn't here.' I mumble and Millie looks up at me. 'Are you sad? That he isn't here?' She asks and i shrug again. She looks down again and she sigh. 'What?' I ask and Millie sighs again. 'Why don't you talk about things?' She asks and looks up at me. 'What?' I ask and Millie nods. 'I do tell you things.' I mumble and millie shakes her head. 'Not enough.' She mumbles and her bottomlip sticks out. 'Well, i'm just not that big on talking.' I mumble and tug a string of brown hair behind her ear. She sighs again and i frown. 'Why are you mad at me?' I ask and Millie shakes her head. 'I'm not.' She mumbles but i can tell she is lying. 'Yeah you are. Tell me why.' I demand and i carfully rub over her eyebrow. 'You don't tell me things, i don't tell you things.' She mumbles and i frown even more. 'Millie...' I mumble and she moves a little. 'Millie tell me why your mad.' I demand again and she lays her head down again. 'I'm nod mad, i'm irritated.' She sighs and tries to move away from me but i keep my arms around her. 'Why?' I ask again and she looks at me. 'Because you don't talk to me.' Millie snaps and i smile. 'Why are you smiling?' She asks. 'Cause i know why your are irritated.' I mumble and Millie frowns. 'Melody.' I mumble and Millie opens her mouth to protest but she closes it again. She died at christmas last year. I know that is why Millie has been on egde lately. She looks down and i rub over her eyebrow again. 'It's not.' She then lies and stands up. 'Yeah it is.' I mumble and stand up too. 'Well if that's what you want believe then fine.' She snaps and turns around. I grab her hand and pull her back. 'Hey.' I mumble and i grab her head with both my hands. 'I'm sorry.' She mumbles and i smile. 'Don't be mad anymore.' I mumble and Millie smiles. 'Only if you tell me things.' She smiles stuborn and i smile. 'I tell you more than anyone else.' I mumble and she smiles. 'Yeah i know.' She mumbles and i smile now too. 'But you need to tell me how you feel once in a while.' Millie says and i sigh now. 'I will do that if you will tell me why your upset next time.' I mumble and Millie smiles. 'Deal.' She mumbles and i smile. She leans foward and i press my lips against hers. 
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POV MILLIE

I really have been mad and irritated all week because of Melody. I just miss her a lot. Mom has been too. She threw herself on work again so she is never home and never has to think about Melody. Finn went home for a while. His family invited me to have christmas breakfast at his house so I can celebrate the rest of my day with my family. I will go there in like 3 hours but a first, school. I've been doing all my homework for coming 4 weeks just so i have to think for a while. 'Hey hon.' Mom says and she puts her bag on the table. 'Hey.' I mumble and i type some more on the laptop. 'You are staying at Finns tonight right?' She asks and i nod. 'Okay. Then i will pick up the nightshift.' She mumbles and grabs her phone. 'You're working? On christmas eve?' I ask and mom nods. 'Yeah. You aren't home anyways.' She mumbles and unlocks the phone. 'Mom, don't work tonight.' I tell her and mom frowns. 'Why not?' She asks and i sigh. 'Because it's christmas. Can't you celebrate with David?' I ask and mom shrugs. 'I'm not really talking to David anymore.' She mumbles and now i frown. 'What? Why not?' I ask and mom turns. 'I don't have to tell you that.' She snaps. 'It's not like you tell me something about Finn and you.' She adds and i smile a little. 'Tell me why your not talking with David anymore and i will tell you all the drama i have in my life.' I promise mom and she turns back with also a smile. 'I don't really know why we are not talking. I just got cold feet i guess. He wanted to move way faster than i want to.' She mumbles and she pour some coffee in her mug. 'He presured you?' I ask and mom shakes her head. 'No.' She mumbles and her head turns red. 'Then why did you get cold feet? Is moving fast so bad?' I ask and she shakes her head. 'I don't know.' She mumbles and grabs her phone. 'Mom, before you take up extra shifts, call him. I think you are just scared, But if you tell him that he will understand.' I smile and mom let's go of the phone. 'What if he changed his mind about me?' She asks and i smile again. 'Don't let him.' I smile and she does too. 'I will text him. Not call. Text.' She mumbles. Progress. After a while mom drops the phone again. 'Now. Spil about Finn.' She smiles and i do too. 'There is not even that much to tell. He is a perfect boyfriend. He could tell me more about how he feels once in a while, but it's good for the rest.' I smile and so does mom. 'Than what happend this morning?' She asks and i frown. 'I forgot my bag.' She smiles and i nod. 'I can be a dramaqueen sometimes.' I mumble and mom frowns. I look at the laptop again and mom now really sits down. 'I miss her too.' She mumbles after a while and i look up. 'Melody.' She mumbles and i look down again. 'I can't believe it has been a year.' She mumbles and i nod. 'Do you remember that night?' I ask mom. I have been reliving it for weeks now. Thinking stupid things like, what if we took the other road home? Or left 2 minutes later? 'Not the entire night, but i remeber when the car hit ours.' Mom mumbles. She did not pass out. I can't even imagine how that must have felt. Crawling out of the car while both your kids are unconsions. I only remember how i felt when i woke up and they told me that she was gone. I yelled and screamd so loud the doctors wanted to sedate me. 'I want to apoligize about the last year.' Mom get's me out of the daydream or well nightmare. 'For what?' I ask and mom smiles. 'I kind of left you. I never check up on you.' She mumbles and i smile. 'I wasn't checking up on you either. I was not the only one who lost someone.' I mumble and mom smiles. 'No, but you guys, were so so close. You did everything together.' She mumbles and i look down to blink out the tears i feel come up. Mom wraps her arms around me and pulls me in a hug. I blink out the tears and lay my head on her shoulder. I missed this. 
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'Hey.' I smile when Finn opens the door for me. 'Hey.' He smiles and let's me in. I hang my coat and then follow Finn in the livingroom. 'Mom and Nick are out doing something odd christmas something ish.' Finn says and i laugh. 'something odd christmas something ish, is not fague at all.' I smile and so does Finn. The livingroom is filled with lights and a gigantic christmas tree. 'Did you make this?' I ask and grab one of the christmas drawings from the wall. 'I was very young.' Finn mumbles and he walks to the kitchen. The drawing is made with coloured pencils and is of 4 people and a christmas tree. 'Do you something to drink?' Finn asks and lay down the drawing. 'Sure.' I mumble and i lean against the table while Finn moves around in the kitchen. 'We only seem to have cola or coffee.' Finn mumbles and checks the frigde again. 'Cola is fine.' I smile and Finn pulls the bottle out of the frigde. He hands me the glass but keeps staring at me. 'What?' I ask when Finn scans my face again. 'Are you okay?' He asks and i smile. I put down my glass and lay my hands in Finns neck. He wraps his hands around my back. 'I'm sorry that i've been such a hand full lately.' I smile and Finn does too. 'Your not so bad.' He smiles and i do too. 'But you are fine?' Finn asks after a while. 'Yeah.' I smile and Finn frowns. 'Really?' He asks again and i nod. 'I will tell you when i'm not, i promise.' I smile when Finn keeps frowning. 'Deal.' Finn mumbles. I lean closer to Finn and he leans closer to me. He presses his lips against mine. 'I will give you your present now.' Finn mumbles after we pull back. 'My present is stupid but i didn't know what else to get you.' I say and walk to my backpack. I grab the record i got for Finns recordplayer and i got him a book signed by the singer of Metellica: James Hetflied. At least it is something. Finn comes back too with a small box in his hand. He gives me the box and i give him the record and the book. I open the small box and smile when i see what is in it. A silver neckless with a hanger in the form of a silver shell. I grab the hanger and smile. I twist it around my fingers and i keep smiling. It is a memory from our first real date. I look up at Finn who also open his presents. He is inspecting the book and he opens his mouth when he sees the autograph from James Hetfield. 'Thank you.' I smile when Finn looks back at me too. 'You can switch it if you want.' Finn smiles and i shake my head. 'It's perfect.' I smile and i turn around so that Finn can close the neckless. 'Thank you for the book and the record.' Finn smiles and he let's go of my hair. 'Where did you even find the book?' Finn asks and i twist the shell in my fingers again. 'Online.' I smile and Finn does too.