𝔸𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟-ℝ𝕖𝕒𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟 - 𝗳𝗶𝗹𝗹𝗶𝗲 𝗳𝗮𝗻𝗰𝗶𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻

Part 27

POV MILLIE

It has been 3 days, 7 hours, 46 minutes and 49 seconds since Finn and i broke up. Honestly i am fine, besides that i am very irritated all the time and can't sleep. I also get very mad when someone mentions Finn or Amber. Finn called a few times but i haven't awnsered. I can't believe that he wouldn't tell me that he was talking to Amber. He should have. Then we could have talked about it and we wouldn't have broken up. And Amber. She just wanted payback. I did some things to her a few years back and she just wants to get me back. I am so bored too. Normally i would just go to Finn now, but i can't. I've read a book, watched a movie, cleaned my room and did some homework. I'm hanging on the couch while zapping threw the tv channels. My phone makes a sound an i open it. Noah asks me if i understand the history homework. I tell him that i do and he asks how. I try to explain it to him but it doesn't work. After a while i just dicide to call him. I press the phone icon and Noah awnsers. 'Hey.' I smile in at the phone and the Noah on my screen smiles back. 'How are you?' He asks and putts in his headphones. 'Fine really. You?' I ask and he nods. 'Yeah me too.' He smiles. 'I'll grab my notebook.' I grab the phone and run up the stairs. I sit down at my desk and open the red book. 'What don't you understand?' I ask and Noah looks in his book too. 'How it works. Like all the systems and stuff.' Noah mumbles and i nod. It takes me 2 hours to explain Noah the homework. After calling with Noah, i dicide to cook dinner for my mom. I grab one of Melody her cookbooks and start scrolling threw the recipes. I pick one with patato's, meat and vegetables out of the oven. I putt on some music and continue my slow day. 
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I want to sleep so badly, but i can't. No matter what i try, i keep thinking. I sit up straight and push myself out of bed. I walk down the stairs and sit down at the table. I open instagram and see that Amber posted a story. I click on it and my heart breaks a little more when i see what she posted. She was walking with Finn, on the beach. This is just bullying now. I close instagram and i open google. I type in 'How to get over a breakup.' It says many things, but working out is the most common one. We have a punching bag in the garage, but i haven't used it for a while. I softly walk back up the stairs and i grab my sportclothing and my boxing gloves. I walk to the garage and turn on the big light. It's a little dusty here, but it's not that bad. I grab the blue broom from the corner and I clean it a little. After that I putt on the gloves and start to repeat the technics from all those years back. I forgot how much i missed this. Duck, side, side, keep your hand up, protect your head, knee, side. I keep hitting untill my arms almost drop from the presure i putt on it. I check that my wounds haven't bled and then sit down in the dusty chair. I should do this more. Not focussing on anything beside the hitting of the bag. It really does help. I go back upstairs around 3 and take a shower. After that i lay down in the bed. My body is really tired but my mind is still jumping around. I relax my muscules but keep my eyes open. Great. Just great. 
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SADIE: Hey 
MILLIE: whats up?
SADIE: Your dad said we could come by today.
MILLIE: We?
SADIE: Please?
MILLIE: No. 
SADIE: Millie i can't fail this class. 
SADIE: My parents will end me. 
SADIE: Then you don't have a great friend like me.
MILLIE: You owe me big big big time.
SADIE: I will pick you up at 10.

I roll out of bed and open my closet. I pull out my black pants and my dark green sweater. I brush my hair and putt it half down half up. I shoot in my vans and walk to the kitchen. Sadie said that she will be here in a two hours. My phone makes another sound and i open it. 

FINN: Are you going to keep ignoring me?
FINN: Millie come on. 
FINN: This is insane.
FINN: I can see that you are online. 
MILLIE: Stop texting me. 

I putt my phone on silence and make some coffee. Why does he has to make it so hard? Just leave me alone. I pour the coffee in my mug and finish it while watching some tv. After a while the doorbell rings. Sadie can't be here yet. I open the door and sigh when i see Finn. 'You wouldn't awnser your phone.' Finn says and he steps by me in the house. 'You have to let me explain.' Finn demands and i shake my head. 'Go away.' I snap and Finn shakes his head. 'Not untill you let me.' Finn says stuborn and i shake my head. 'I don't want to hear it Finn. I have things to do, so please get out.' I mumble and i open the door for Finn. 'No.' Finn says and i sigh. 'Please.' I snap and he sighs. 'But only if you promise you will text me back.' Finn says and i nod. 'When?' Finn asks and i shrug. 'Tonight. Now bye.' I snap and try to push Finn out of the house. 'You swear?' He asks and i nod. 'Bye.' I mumble and try to close the door but Finn doesn't let me. 'Where are you going?' He asks and i sigh. 'I don't have to tell you that anymore.' I snap and now he sighs. 'Will you please tell me where you are going?' He asks and i shake my head. 'Tell me.' He demands and i smile fake. 'I am going to the beach with my new boyfriend as well, so now bye!' I snap and close the door. 'That is not what happend.' Finn yells threw the frontdoor. 'I saw the pictures Finn.' I snap and he laughs. 'It's not like that. I was there with my mom and ran into her.' Finn says but it doesn't make me feel any better. 'Millie?' Finn asks after a while. 'What?' I sigh. 'Do you really have a new boyfriend?' He asks and i can't help but laugh. 'Yeah, because i will just find one in 4 days? I am not like you.' I snap and Finn sighs too. 'It is not like that.' He snaps and i glance at the clock. 'Can you go? My date is here soon.' I mumble just to make Finn jelous. 'Your date?' He asks and i can all ready see his facial expression. 'Yeah.' I laugh. Sadie would be a great date. 'Are you kidding?' Finn asks and i smile. 'Yeah.' I smile and Finn sighs. 'That is not funny. And can you open the door now, a conversation threw the door is not great.' Finn says and i carfully open the door. 'You need to go, because i do have to go somewhere.' I mumble and Finn frowns again. 'Where?' He asks and i sigh. 'Go home.' I snap and Sadie her car pulls up on the driveway. 'Hey Millie...And Finn. I thoughed you guys broke up.' Sadie says when she stands next to me. I say 'We did.' at the same time when Finn says 'We didn't.' I give Finn a deadly stare and then grab my coat. 'Ready.' I smile at Sadie and she does too. 'Bye Finn.' I snap and we walk to the car. 
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Dad was okay today, but he invited me for dinner again. Sadie can't come with because she is meeting Caleb tonight. So i am bike to my dads alone. I am so not excited. I putt my bike against the brick wall and walk to the backdoor. I open it and hear the voices of dad and Adelaine arguing. 'Why do i have to sit here and act all nice against Millie, when she acts like a bitch to me all night long?' Adelaine complains like a little kid. I want to push the door open but i also want to hear what my dad says. 'You know why.' My dad mumbles and Adelaine sighs. 'Remind me again?' She continues to complain. 'Because i want Millie here  a few more times, because then i can get the costs of her alimony down. And then all that money can go to our buisness. Just fake a smile, ask her something. It is what i do everytime.' Dad says and for the second time in 4 days i can feel my heart break. He doesn't care. He never did and he never will. I push open the door and i think my face says enough. 'You can keep your money. I don't need anything from you.' I snap and walk out of the house with big gigantic steps. I wait to see if he follows me, but of course dad stays inside. What am i going to do now? Mom has nightshift and i don't want to call her. Sadie won't understand because her dad is amazing. Why is no one so screwed up as me? Why did my life fall apart in just a few days? It is not fair. Maybe someone understands how i feel. Can i go there? Is that weird? My legs take me to Finns before i can even overthink it. I ring the doorbell and Mary opens the door. 'Hey!' She smiles and i do too. 'Your here for Finn i asume, he is upstairs.' Mary says and she walks back to the kitchen. I climb the stairs and open the door to Finn his room. He isn't there, but i do here the shower run. I walk into his room and sit down on the bed. The floor is messy and filled with clothes. There is a guitar on the desk and the nightstand is filled with cups and bottles with water. The recordplayer is still clean though. Finn his phone lights up and i smile a little when i see his background. It is the selfie we took when we walked to the coffeeshop and it started to rain. I grab one of the shirts from the floor and fold it. It only takes me a few minutes before i folded all of them. Is that weird? Yeah it is. I grab the shits and throw them on the floor again. Maybe i should just leave. Maybe it is not even him in the shower. Maybe he doesn't even want to see me. Why is it all maybe? I don't like maybe's. I like facts and truths, not faque possibily's, that might happen. I rub over my forehead and think what i want to do next. I sigh and stand up. I just don't know what to do or what to feel or how to act and it is so frustrating. I feel like laughing but at the same time like crying. I feel tired but at the same time so active. Does that make sense? I can't be the only on who feel like this sometimes. The urge to cry suddenly get's bigger then the other ones and i can feel the tears come up. I blink them away and press my hands against my eyes. I remove my hands when somebody touches them. Finn stands in front of me with a concerned frown on his face. 'Are you okay? What happend?' He asks and he sits down next to me.