𝔸𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟-ℝ𝕖𝕒𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟 - 𝗳𝗶𝗹𝗹𝗶𝗲 𝗳𝗮𝗻𝗰𝗶𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻

Part 33

POV FINN

I wake up from almost being smuched to death my Millie. she is litterally laying on top of me. I try to move her a little but she stays putt. I twist a string of Millie her brown hair around my finger and after a while she looks up. She has black circles underneath her eyes and her hair is messy, but she still looks perfect. 'Goodmoring.' She says and i smile. 'Hey.' I mumble and she lays her chin on my chest. 'I am never drinking again.' She mumbles and i smile. 'I'll be sure to remind you of that.' I smile and so does Millie. 'What do you want to do today?' I ask her after a while. I will just invite myself. 'I don't know yet. We could walk again.' She mumbles and i nod. 'Where?' I ask and Millie shrugs. 'I want coffee first.' She smiles and i do too. She gets out of the bed and i do too. We walk downstairs and Millie makes coffee while i follow her movements. She hands me a cups and we walk to the livingroom. We watch some tv before Millie dicides to take a shower. She leaves me and i open my phone. I see some text and surprisingly one from Caleb and one from Sadie. 

CALEB: I'm sorry for last night, Sadie is just Sadie, but that is no excuse.

And Sadie said:

SADIE: I am not sorry. You don't deserve her and you know it. What are you? Selfish?'
FINN: Like you aren't. 
SADIE: I am not. 
FINN: You forced Millie to go to her dads.
SADIE: That is not a bad thing.

Did Millie not tell her? I frown a little and Finish my coffee. 

SADIE: What are you talking about?

I skip her text and walk up the stairs. I change my sweater and putt on my shoes. Millie comes out of the bathroom. 'Did you tell Sadie?' I ask the second she sees me. 'What?' She asks and i frown. 'You know what. With your dad.' I mumble and Millie looks down. 'I didn't want her to feel quilty.' She mumbles and i grab her hand. 'If you don't tell people things, it will break you.' I mumble and she sighs. 'Yeah i know.' She mumbles and lays her hands in my neck again. 'But?' I ask and Millie shurgs. 'I don't want people to torture themselfs if they don't have to.' Millie says and i sigh. 'Most people don't mind to get tortured a little for people who they care about. And if you don't tell them then you'll be tortured.' I mumble and Millie smiles. 'Fine. I'll tell people more.' Millie mumbles and i raise my eyebrows. 'Just like that?' I ask and Millie nods. 'And besides, you know, mom knows, my grandparents know and Louis knows about my dad, so i don't keep to myself that much.' She says and i smile. 'First off, i had to beg you to tell me. Second, your mom knew because it was about her house and she probably told your grandparents. And third, who even is Louis?' I ask and Millie smiles. 'I made a new friend, in court, great place to look for friends. And you where kind of right over those other things.' She mumbles and i smile. 'You should tell Sadie. She is your bestie at this point right?' I ask and Millie nods. 'Fine. I will.' She sighs and i smile again.
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POV MILLIE

We searched for a walking route online and Finn drove us there. It is really pretty here too. It is some kind of road, but with trees hanging over it, little waters to the side and a medow where you have to walk through for a few minutes. It is really great. So is spending time with Finn. It isn't long that akward as i suspected it to be. 'Did you bring a book again?' Finn asks and i nod. 'Sorry, i know i don't need it, but old habbit die hard.' I smile and Finn laughs. 'Which one?' He asks. 'Call me by your name by Andre Aciman. One of the best books ever written.' I tell Finn and he frowns. 'What is it about then?' He asks and i smile. 'It's about Elio and Oliver. They kind of fall in love, but kind of can't. They don't really talk about feelings and so the story keeps continuing.' I mumble and Finn nods. 'Sounds hard.' He says and i smile. 'Not when you read it mulipitl times.' I mumble and Finn look a little disgusted. 'Reading is one thing. But rereading the same book? You all ready know how it is going to end!' He says and i smile. 'But you forget the small details. And the writing style of the autor and you feel differn't everytime you read it.' I smile and Finn shakes his head. 'Well, do you never play the same songs on the guitar?' I ask and Finn opens his mouth to protest. 'Yeah, but only so that i don't forget the technics.' He says and i smile. 'So that you won't forget the details.' I swift his words and Finn smiles. We take a turn into another medow. 'What are the odds that you walk into that?' Finn asks and he points to the mud next to us. '1 in 10.' I dicide that those are some good odds for me. '1, 2, 3,' Finn counts down. We both say 4 at the same time and Finn laughs. 'I don't like this game.' I mumble and step in the mud. Luckely these shoes can be in the washingmachine. 'Is this amusing for you or something?' I ask when i turn back to Finn who is still laughing. 'Yeah kind of.' He smiles and i do too. The mud is kind of cold but it is not that bad. After a while we turn back and walk back to the car. 
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'Hey Finn?' I ask and he looks up. 'What will you say when people asked you if you have a girlfriend?' I ask and i feel my head turning red. 'What?' He asks and i sigh. 'Well we aren't together.' I mumble and Finn smiles. Finn grabs my arm and he pulls me on the bed next to him. He wraps his arms around me and his lips touch my forehead. 'Yes we are.' He mumbles and i look up at him. 'No, we broke up.' I mumble and Finn smiles. 'You broke up with me. I didn't agree to that.' He mumbles and i smile. 'Why did you ask that?' Finn asks and i shrug. 'I was just wondering what i should say if someone asks.' I mumble and Finn looks down at me. 'Did someone ask?' He frowns and i nod. 'Who?' He asks and i smile. 'Are you jealous?' I ask and Finn nods. 'Clearly.' He says and i smile. 'Well he didn't ask. I just told him.' I mumble and think back about Louis. 'What did you say?' Finn asks and i lay my head back against Finns chest. 'That i have a complicated boyfriend thingy.' I mumble and Finn smiles. 'Well at least you go the boyfriend thing right.' He mumbles and i smile. Finn lays his hands on my cheeks and he moves his tumbs over my eyebrows. I want to say something but i don't want Finn to stop or move. 'Millie?' He asks and i nod very slowly so that Finn wont remove his hands. 'Wil you be my girlfriend again?' He asks and i smile. 'But i am still mad at you.' I mumble with a smile and Finn raises his eyebrows. 'That is not an awnser.' He says and i smile. His tumb and Middle finger move over my bottomlip. His face moves a little closer to mine and i want to press my lips against his, but he moves away again. 'It's all or nothing pal.' He quotes me and i stick out my tongue. I turn around to grab my phone that bleeps but Finn doesn't let go. 'Finn.' I complain but he shakes his head. 'No phones today. They always bring drama.' He mumbles against my ear and the goosebumps appear on my arms. I turn back to Finn and he looks at me. 'I missed you.' I mumble and Finn frowns. 'I didn't leave.' He mumbles and i smile. 'But you were distant.' I mumble and Finn laughs. 'You broke up with me and then you call me distant?' He smiles and so do i. 'You still didn't awnser my question.' Finn mumbles and he closes his eyes. 'Yes, but no more lies or hiding things.' I mumble and Finn smiles. He presses his lips against mine and the fire and adreneline gush through my body. He pulls back and i lay my head back on Finns chest. He moves his hands threw my hair and i smile. 'May i check my phone now?' I ask after while and Finn sighs but does let go. I turn and grab my phone. 'My mom has to work late and is staying with David after.' I mumble and Finn frowns. 'She works a lot lately.' Finn says and i nod. 'You can stay here tonight.' I mumble and hope that he will say yes. He smiles and nods. 'Sure.' He says and i smile. 'Let's order chinese food.' I mumble and pull Finn up by his hands. 
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2 hours later and Finn and i are laying on my bed again. 'What are we going to do?' I ask and Finn shrugs. 'What do you want to do?' Finn asks and i shrug. 'Can i use your shower?' He asks after a while of silence. I nod and Finn strethes out. 'You can come with me.' Finn says and i frown. 'In the shower? What do i do? Sit on the toilet?' I smile and Finn does too. 'No i mean like really in the shower.' Finn says and i feel my head turning red. 'Why?' I ask and Finn laughs. 'Why not?' He asks and i frown. 'Because that is akward!' I mumble and Finn smiles. 'It's not.' He says and i look at him. 'You'll see me naked.' I mumble and Finn smiles again. 'Thats kind of the point.' He mumbles and i am suddenly very aware of my body. 'But-' I try to argue but Finn stands up. 'I don't know about you but i am going to take a shower.' He mumbles and he presses his lips against mine shortly. When Finn leaves i sigh. Come on Millie. You are almost 17. Most girls of your age have done this and many more a long time ago. But what if Finn changes his mind when he sees me? He can't do that right? Well of course he can, but he won't, right? No. He is too nice for that. And i don't want sex yet, but maybe if i start with a shower i will be less scared? Does that make sense? Probably not, but it works for me. After my peptalk I push myself up and walk to the bathroom. 'You can't look down.' I mumble and hear Finn turn around. 'What?' He asks and i sigh. 'Just promise me you wont look down.' I mumble and Finn turns around again. 'I won't look down.' He says and i walk into the bathroom. I take of my clothes and then walk to the shower where Finn is all ready in. I step into the warm steam and Finn turns around. He clearly did not suspect that i would actually do this. I didn't either, but well here we are. I press my lips against Finns before he can say anything or look down at my body.