𝔸𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟-ℝ𝕖𝕒𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟 - 𝗳𝗶𝗹𝗹𝗶𝗲 𝗳𝗮𝗻𝗰𝗶𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻

Part 43

POV MILLIE

I look up from my book when the hoteldoor opens. 'George!' Finn his voice snaps and i stand up. George? As in Finns manager? 'Hi, I'm Millie.' I tell the blond guy that steps into the room. 'Hi, George, you can't stay here.' The blonde guy snaps and i frown. 'George, get out! I swear to god!' Finn snaps and he grab George by his shirt. 'You said i can't go out there with her, so she is staying here!' Finn snaps and i stand up. I follow him and George into the hallway. 'Someone might see!' George snaps back and i sigh. They have been arguing like this all morning. I think Finn told him about me. 'Shut up!' Finn snaps and he walks away. George follows him and i sigh. 'They sure sound like babies, don't they?' A canadian accent behind me says and i turn around. 'THey sure do.' I smile at the girl from Finns band and she leans foward. She shakes my hand. 'Ayla.' She says and i smile again. 'Millie.' I tell her and she smiles. 'While they continue arguing, you can come with us.' Ayla says and she grabs my arm. She pulls me into a hallway i've never seen. 'Where are we going?' I ask her and she smiles. 'To the studio. Jack and Malcolm are there too.' She smiles and she stops in front of a door. She pushes open the door and my jaw drops. I asume that for Finn and the rest of the bandmembers this isn't that impressive, but for me it is. This room is red and has all kind of instruments. Guitars, drums, piano's, keyboards, a board filled with buttons, chairs and couches, a frigde, a table with some food, all kind of papers on the walls and paintings of music notes. On the floor, there are two guys. One of them is clearly Malcolm, so i asume that the other one is Jack. 'Look who the cat dragged in.' Ayla says and both Malcolm and Jack turn around. 'Hi.' Jack says and i smile. 'I'm Millie.' I tell him and he looks at malcolm, but then smiles. 'Jack.' He says and Malcolm next to him waves. 'Where is Finn at? We need to practice for our show or we will look crazy again. Like in Florida.' Jack says and Ayla sighs. 'He is arguing with George, when not? We can practize together.' Ayla says and Jack nods. Ayla grabs her blue guitar and she sits down in one of the chairs. I sit down across from them and study them while they play. Without Finn they sound odd, but still very good. 'It is still so bad. I can't get it.' Jack says and he moves his fingers over the bass guitar. 'I does not sound bad. We sound good!' Malcolm says and Ayla nods. 'I don't know. I don't know if i want to play it.' Jack says and he looks at Ayla and Malcolm. 'You can be jugde. Good or bad?' Malcolm asks me and i laugh. 'I think you guys are very good. Really.' I tell them and Jack sighs. 'I think you are suffering from Murphy's law.' I mumble without thinking about it. 'What is that?' Jack asks and i relized what i said. That doesn't really sound nice. 'if there's any way they can do it wrong, they will. It is a theory, that if you think you do it wrong you will. It is called Murphy's law.' I tell them and Jack frowns. 'Sorry, i took some pyscholigy classes last year for my study.' I apoligize and Ayla laughs. 'What are you studying then?' Ayla asks and i look down. 'Doctor.' I tell them and they all frown. 'Doctor? I didn't know Finn liked brainy girls.' Malcolm says and i can't help but smile. 'What did you think he liked then? And it is 1 girl, not girls, now is it?' Jack says and i feel my head turn red. 'Don't make the girl shy, Jack.' Ayla says and i smile at her. 'Well how do you break Murphy's law then?' Jack changes back the subject and i think back about my classes from last year. 'Take a break and yeah, believe in yourself i guess. THere are what? 17,000 people at that concert? They are no odds that one of those people will notice something is a little off. You guys sound amazing, especially with 17,000 screaming people in the background.' I tell Jack and he smiles. 'I understand why Finn likes you.' Malcolm says and they turn back to their instruments. 'Understand that Finn likes who?' Finn voice asks from behind and i turn around. 'Milie.' Ayla says and she points to his guitar. 'Can we practize now?' She asks and Finn nods. They play the song again while i keep watching. '10/10.' I smile when they are finished and Jack and Malcolm talk about the transition between chords while Finn and Ayla talk together about something. I feel a little jealousy, but i shake it fast. Why am i jealous? Finn and i aren't dating. They play another few songs but i leave around 23.00. I brush my teeth when Finn enters the bathroom as well. He looks tired. After brushing our teeth, i look up at Finn. 'Do you have pyjama's for me our am i going to sleep in jeans again?' I ask Finn and he smiles. 'No. what do you want? Sweater? Shirt? Pants?' Finn asks and i follow him to the bedroom. 'I don't really care.' I mumble and Finn smiles. He opens the closet and he pulls out a t shirt and short sport pants. He gives it to me and i change into it. I am suronded by Finns devine smell what makes my stomach flutter. I lay down in the bed underneath the covers and after a while Finn lays down next to me. Finn wraps his arms around my waist and he pulls me towards him. His breath against my neck make the goosebumps appear on my arms again. 'I thoughed you were leaving tonight.' Finn mumbles and i turn around. 'I can leave if you want me to.' I tell him and he smiles. 'I didn't mean it like that.' Finn smiles and i do too. 'Goodnight.' I mumble and i turn around again. 'Goodnight.' Finn says and i close my eyes. 
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I wake up from a loud bang. I sit up straight and look around. Finn mumbles something and then grabs my arm. 'Millie...' He complains and he pulls me down again. 'Was that you?' I ask and Finn opens his eyes. 'No. That was California.' Finn mumbles and he glances at the clock that say 5. Finn sighs and wraps his arms around me again. 'Calm down Millie. It was outside.' Finn mumbles when i still look around freaked out. 'Sorry.' I mumble but i keep looking around. 'Why? Why this? Why are you so freaked out?' Finn asks and i sigh. 'Panick attacks came after mom was diagnosed with cancer.' I mumble and Finn frowns. 'Panick attacks?' He asks and i nod. 'But mine aren't that bad. I don't have them that much, but i do get freaked out a little faster with somethings.' I tell him and he frowns again. 'I don't have them at school or work, but at home most of the time. I am alone most of the nights so that is easier to let your mind freak out.' I explain but Finn his frown does not dissapear. 'Can't they do something about that?' Finn asks and i shake my head. 'No. And as i said, my aren't that bad.' I smile and Finn looks down. After a while he looks up again and pushes a string of hair out of my face. 'What?' I ask when he stares at me too intense for a while. 'Nothing.' He says and i poke his cheek at the place of the so fimiliair dimple. 'I just...I don't know what to do with you.' He says and i frown. 'What does that mean?' I ask and Finn sighs. 'I don't know. It feels like you can break any second, but yet it feels like you are fine. And then you tell me you have panick attacks. Did i cause those?' Finn asks and i can't help but smile . 'I am not a 5 year old. I will not break any second. I am really fine and well you weren't the only cause for my panick attacks. As i said. I am alone most nights, so you freak out easier.' I tell him and he looks down with that guilty look again. 'Don't feel so guilty Finn. I am fine.' I tell him again and he sighs. 'Well you don't sound fine.' He says with a painfull look on his face. 'I might not sound fine, but you only heard the bad parts now. I had a lot of fun too these past years.' I tell him and he sighs. 'Like what?' He asks and i move my head a little. 'I went on some kind of road trip with my friends, Max and Julliet. I went to norway with mom and David to celebrate christmas there. I did really have fun with Sam most of the time. We were more like good friends then lovers but that is not the point. My grandparents and i made up new traditions. I move out, i got into the college of my dreams, i got a job, i past my finalls, i got another job, i figured out what to do with the rest of my life. I became a boxing teacher at the local gym. I learned how to play the piano. I talked with my dad again, for a short while. I did-' I sum up and Finn cuts me off. 'Yeah, that is all great, but there are more bad things then good things.' He says and i shake my head. 'You can't think like that.' I tell him and he sighs. 'Well i can't help it. You and your mom. And that stuff with Sam. And your dad.' Finn says and i turn to my stomach to look at him better. 'I am fine.' I tell him and he sighs. 'Well you shouldn't be fine.' He says and i frown. 'Well then what am i suppossed to do? Sit down in a corner? Cry all day? How is that going to make things better?' I ask and Finn frowns. 'Bu-' He tries but i cut him off too. 'Look, i am really okay. There were good things, there were bad things. Thats life. I am not going to keep thinking about the bad things because that is not going to make anything better. This is my life, i have to make it good.' I lecture and Finn his frown changes into a smile as well. 'You are such a mom.' Finn bulies and i smile. 'Thanks?' I question and Finn smiles. 'Hey Finn?' I ask and he hums. 'Why did you not text back? And i want another awnser then i didn't know what to say.' I ask and Finn his frowns comes back. I go over the frown with my finger and that makes his frown a little softer. 'I was mad i guess.' Finn says and i frown. 'At me?' I question and Finn smiles. 'No. At everything. I lost you, that made me mad. And then you texted me and i just got more frustrated, because i lost you and those text reminded me of that.' Finn says and i frown. 'You should have texted me back.' I mumble and Finn grabs my face. 'I know.' He says and i his forehead falls against mine. 'I will now.' Finn says and i smile. 'I'll remind you of that.' I mumble and Finn breaths out against my face. He moves his tongue by his lips slowly but then let's go og my head. I know he won't kiss me. Just because i said so and he doesn't want to drive me away. Do i want him to kiss me? I don't know. It is always so confusing. But i missed him so much. And he agrues with his manager for me. And he missed me too. And he is so pretty. That counts for something right? I grab Finn his chin and i pull his face close to mine. I press my lips against his sofly. Adreniline, butterflies, fire, evrything gushes threw my body again. I let go to get some air, but i don't really get the chance. Finn presses his lips against mine again. His tongue moves by mine and he moves his hands in my neck. We pull back to get some air in this time and Finn smiles. 'You broke your own rule.' He smiles and i do too. 'Some rules are made to be broken.' I mumble and Finn hums. 'Good.' He says and he presses his lips against mine.