𝔸𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟-ℝ𝕖𝕒𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟 - 𝗳𝗶𝗹𝗹𝗶𝗲 𝗳𝗮𝗻𝗰𝗶𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻

Part 12

POV FINN

'Finn wake up.' Millie pushes on my shoulder. 'What?' I mumble and rub in my eyes. 'My grandparents are outside, so that we can talk with them while social distancing, but your laying on my arm.' I roll over and Millie takes away her arm. 'Do you have an other sweater for me or?' I ask when Millie opens her closet. 'It will a bit too big though.' She pulls out a red sweater and throws it at me. 'Thanks.' The sweater is too big, but honestly who doesn't like that. We walk outside and putt our mask on. Her grandparents all ready there and they smile at the sight of us. 'Hey!' Millie laughs and her grandparents say hi too. 'Oh grandma, i have to show you those flowers we putt there!' Millie, her mom and grandma walk off to the garden. 'Hey Finn, may I ask you something?' Millie her grandfather asks and i nod. 'Are you and Millie together?' He asks and i frown. Why would he ask that? 'No.' I smile and her grandfather nods. 'Sorry, it just, you guys look so close.' He smiles and so do i. 'May i ask you something too?' I ask and my head turns red. He nods. 'How did you know that Miss Smith was the one for you?' I ask and fastly look away. 'Shes just everything i ever dreamed about. She is kind, beautiful, out families got along, i love how i feel when i am with her, everytime we touch i feel like my blood is replaced with lava, and it feels my the entire world stops when she smiles. Cliché am i right?' He laughs and so do I. 'No, it's sweet.' I smile and Millie, her mom and her grandmother walk back too us. 'They look really nice honey.' Miss Smith smiles at Millie who looks kind of proud. 'We should go again, it was really good seeing all of you !' Miss Smith smiles and we all say goodbye. 
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POV MILLIE

I lay on the bed next to Finn, watching something on my laptop. 'Hey Millie?' Finn asks and i look up. 'What?' I ask after a while when he doesn't awnser. 'Do....Do...You....?' He starts but doesn't continue. 'You can ask me anything.' I smile kind and Finn sighs. 'Do you like me? Like you said?' He asks and i frown. Do I? I don't know yet. Or maybe i do but i am not willing to amitt it yet. 'Why?' I ask and Finn smiles, shaking his head. 'That is not an awnser.' He smiles and so do i. 'I don't know, why?' I than say, to dogde the question but also kind of awnser it. 'I was just wondering.' Finn clearly lies. I turn around and lay my head on his cest, looking up at him. 'Lair.' I smile and so does Finn again. 'You can tell me, i promise i wont awnser as faque anymore.' I mumble and Finn raises his shoulder. I keep looking at him and can tell that he is getting umcomfertable. 'Your grandpa just made me think about something, thats all.' He sighs and i keep staring. 'Millie...' He moves very slightly trying to get me to look away. 'Do you like me?' I than ask and Finn frowns. 'No.' He says why too quikly and i can tell that he lies again. 'You know that your eyes dogde mine when you lying and you get a dimple there.' I poke in his cheek and he smile, almost laughs. He takes away my finger and still smiles. I finally turn back and smile too. 'You like me.' I smile and Finn his mouth opens to argue with me but he doesn't say anything. Do i like Finn? He likes me? What is all that about? I tought he didn't date. Finn is amazing, sweet and makes me feel good. He makes me laugh, when he touches me I feel like i am on fire. I feel like the world stops spinning and the time stops when he smiles. Is that liking someone? I think it is. Finn likes me! I don't think anyone has ever liked me. I have to say, that the warm feeling i have i my stomach right now is something i like and would want it many more times. 'You do don't you?' I ask and Finn shakes his head but the dimple apears again. 'Yes.' I smile and lean back. 'Shh do not say a word.' Finn pushes me against my shoulders and i fall back.  Finn keeps watching the show and keep thinking for about another hour or so, before mom calls down for dinner. We eat something before doing the dishes. We go upstairs after that. We sit down at on the bed again and we continue the show. Finns eyes burn in me the entire time though. I look at him for a while too. His pretty eyes and his brown curls. 'I think i might like you too.' I mumble and fastly look back at the screen to avoid Finns burning eyes. The second i said it i feel like crying, aspecially because Finn doesn't say anything back. Finn his fingers grab my chin and he turns my head to his. He pushes his lips against mine. Finns lips are soft and perfect. My lips feel like they are on fire and there is a weird feeling in my stomach. We stop kissing to get some air, but a second later Finn his lips are on mine again. His tongue presses against my lips and i open my mouth a little. The kiss turns into french kissing fast and the feeling i have now, i want to feel forever. We break lose again, out of breath. Finn his smile is bigger then i have ever seen before. I lay my head on Finns shoulder and he grabs my hand. My arm is on fire again. 'Hey Finn?' I ask and he hums. 'is this....Are we dating?' I ask with a red head again. 'I don't know.' He mumbles like he's thinking about a hard math question. He doesn't date. He does not. I kissed him, but i don't want to be a friend with benefits. I don't even want sex. Maybe this was a mistake. I lay down further underneath the blankets and mumble that i am tired to Finn. After a while he closes the laptop and lays down further under neath the blankets too. 'Are you mad at me?' He asks. 'No.' I mumble and keep my eyes closed. I hear Finn sigh and then i feel his warm arms round my waist. 'Millie I'm sorry.' He mumbles and his lips almost touch my forehead as he says that. 'for what?' I mumble and try not to move so that Finn wont move away. 'I know you want a relationship.' He mumbles. 'So?' I ask and Finn sighs again. 'I don't think i can give you that.' He then mumbles and i feel like crying again. I stay quiet. 'Millie?' Finn mumbles and i hum because  think that if i talk my voice would break. 'Are you mad?' He asks and i shake my head. 'Yeah you are.' Finn mumbles and i shake my head again. 'Yeah you are because your not talking.' Finns lips brush by my head and i feel it myself turning red again. 'Why did you say you liked me if you don't want a relationship?' I ask and supringly my voice doesn't crack. 'I don't know.' Finn mumbles again and now it is my turn to sigh. 'Goodnight Finn.' I mumble so that we don't have to talk anymore. 
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Turns out 4 hours of sleep is not enough. I couldn't sleep because of well clearly because of Finn. He fell asleep so fast after. I just don't get it. He kind of admitts  that he likes me, then he kisses me and then he apologizes en says that he doesn't date. Confuse people much? I have been sitting in the kitchen since 6.30 and i even saw my mom leave for work.  It is now 7.45 and i am no my 6th cup of coffee. 'Why are you so early?' Finn apears at the top of the stairs. 'It is not that early anymore.' I mumble and take another sip of coffee. Finn disapears in the bathroom and I rub over my face. Come on Millie. Just act normal, you got this. I finish my coffee and open my laptop. There are a few school notifactions about zoom and there is a new assigment for economics. Another paper, since we can't do it in the class we have to do at at home. I am all ready starting, because then i don't have to think about anything and can just focuss on school. I write down the assigment in my notebook and Finn walks down. 'What are you doing?' He asks and sits down across from me. 'We have a economics assigments.' I say and point to the counter. 'You can grab coffee and there is cereal in the cabinet.' I smile and Finn does too. Finn makes himself some coffee and cereal. I keep typing on my laptop and Finn scrolls on his phone for a while. 'Hey Millie?' Finn starts after a while. 'Yeah?' I ask and type more. 'Are you mad at me? For last night.' He asks and dogdes my eyes. 'No.' I smile. I mean i am not lying. I am confused and a little irritated but not mad. I close the laptop. I don't want to do nothing, but i don't want to do schoolwork either. 'Wanna watch a movie?' I change the subject and Finn nods.