𝔸𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟-ℝ𝕖𝕒𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟 - 𝗳𝗶𝗹𝗹𝗶𝗲 𝗳𝗮𝗻𝗰𝗶𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻

Part 38

POV MILLIE

It has been two days since Finn broke up with me. I am fine. No i am not. If we would have broken up because we weren't right together, then fine. But we broke up because he has to move. 5000 kilometres away from me. I push myself up and walk to my closet. I grab clean clothes and my pyjama's. I drop my pyjama in the suitcase and walk to the bathroom with my clean clothes. Mom and i are going to the Garda Lake in Italy for the week. We have a flight tonight. I get in the shower and stare at the floor for a long time. I turn of the water and dry myself off fastly so that the cold isn't that bad. 'Millie are you up?' I hear from downstairs and i yell yeah back. 'There is someone here for you!' Mom says and i walk down the stairs, with the towel still in my hand. I smile when i see Sadie. 'Hey!' I smile and she does too. 'Hey!' She says and she gives me a hug. A too long hug to be just a hug. 'What?' I ask and she shakes her head. 'What?' I ask again and she sighs. 'I promised that I wouldn't tell.' She says and i tilt my head to the side. 'Sadie, tell me.' I demand and she sighs again. 'Finn texted me that you guys broke up.' She says and i frown. 'Why?' I ask and she shrugs. 'Because he thoughed you'd be sad and needed a friend.' Sadie says and i smile. 'I am fine.' I tell her and she narrows his eyes. 'Well i am not fine, but i will be.' I promise her and myself. 'Why did you guys break up?' Sadie asks and we sit down at the kitchen table. 'Because he is moving to Canada.' I mumble and Sadie frowns. 'To Canada? Why?' Sadie asks and i sigh. 'Because his mom wants to.' I mumble and stand up again. 'Do you want a drink?' I ask and Sadie nods. 'Sure.' She says and i hold up the bag of coffee. Sadie nods and i make coffee for 3 people. 'Are you going somewhere?' Sadie asks when she look around. Everything is in bags and turned off. 'Yeah, mom and i are going to Garda Lake.' I smile and Sadie does too. 'Are you exited?' Sadie asks and i nod. 'Yeah i planned this all ready.' I smile and Sadie laughs. 'Of course you have.' She smiles and i do too. 'Well i had to do something.' I mumble and Sadie smiles. 
.
.
.
'Ready?' Mom asks when we put the last bag in the car. 'Yeah, but you promised we'd stop by Finn right?' I ask and mom nods. I want to see him one more time before he leaves me forever. 'Yeah.' She says and i step in the car. Mom drives us to Finn and i step out again. 'I'll be fast.' I mumble and mom smiles. 'We have 3 more hours hon, don't hurry.' She says and i smile. I ring the doorbell and Mary let's me in. 'Hey.' She smiles and so do i. 'You are here for Finn? He is upstairs.' Mary says and i smile at her. I step foward and give her a fast hug. 'I will miss you.' I tell her and she smiles. 'I will miss you too.' She smiles and i step up the stairs. I push open the door to Finns room. It is filled with boxes and bags. Finn is in the middle taping a box clothes. 'Hey.' I smile and Finn turns around. He pulls out is headphones and smiles too. 'Hey.' He says and lays down the taperoll. 'Is this all going to fit in your new room?' I ask and Finn shrugs. 'I will make it fit.' He says and i frown. 'Why are you here?' Finn asks after a while of silence. 'I wanted to say bye.' I mumble and Finn raises his eyebrows. 'I am not gone yet.' He says and i smile. 'But i am leaving soon.' I smile and Finn frowns. 'Where are you going?' He asks and i look around the empty room. 'Garda Lake, Italy.' I mumble and focuss back on Finn. 'With your mom?' he asks and i nod. I stare at Finn and he stares back at me. 'You still don't want to  stay?' I ask and Finn shakes his head. 'I can't.' He says and i sigh. 'Yeah you can. You are 18.' I tell him and he smiles. 'I am not leaving my mom.' He says and i sigh again. 'And you still don't want to try longdistance?' I ask and Finn smiles again. 'I don't think that will work.' Finn says and i feel tears coming up again. 'Why not?' I asks and Finn raises an eyebrow. 'Because that means we wont see eacht other for months. So we'd call, but that is not the same Millie. It is not that personal and we'll grow apart.' Finn says and i shake my head. 'No we wont.' I tell him and he smiles. 'Just because you don't want something to happen, does not mean it wont.' Finn smiles and i feel the first tear roll over my cheek. 'Please don't cry Millie.' FInn says and he steps toward me. He lays his hands in my neck and pushes against my jawline with his tumb, what forces me to look up at him. I look down again because i do want to cry. 'Hey.' Finn says and i look up again. 'You'll be allright.' He says and i sigh, while shaking my head. 'Yes you will be.' Finn says and i feel a tear come out of my eye. 'I need you to be allright.' I tell him and still hopes that he will stay. 'No you don't.' Finn says and i feel more tears coming up. 'Millie stop crying please.' Finn begs and i try my best to stop. 'I can't.' I mumble and Finn smiles. 'I will miss you Millie.' He smiles and look down. 'I will miss you.' I mumble and Finn wraps his arms around me. I lay my head on his shoulder and try to stop crying again. I close my eyes and i think we stand like that for 5 minutes. Finn lets go and i do too. Finn grabs my head again and he presses his lips against mine. This will be the last time that i feel the adrenline and the fire in my body. Finn lets go and he smiles. I hear some sounds from downstairs and i step away from Finn. 'I love you.' I mumble before i walk out and Finn smiles again. 'I love you.' He says and i feel more tears coming up. He says it back now, but i will probably be the last time i will hear him say it.  'Bye Finn.' I mumble and walk out of the room. I say goodbye to Nick and Mary too and then get out of the house. 'Are you okay?' Mom asks when i sit down in the car. 'Yeah.' I lie and mom looks at me with petty. 'Ready for that break.' I mumble and mom smiles. 'Let's go to Italy then. 
.
.
.
POV FINN

I watch Millie and her mom drive off and i sigh. That is. That was my relationship. That was Millie. 'Hey.' I hear behind me and i turn. 'Why won't you try lonngdistance.' Nick asks and i sigh. 'Because it is not the same.' I mumble and Nick sighs. 'You'll find another.' Nick says and he disapears. I don't want another. I want Millie. I want Millie because she is amazing. She is kind, polite but still has strong opinions, she is smart, beautifull, shy and yet very confident. She is perfect and i lost her. I throw the box on the pile of boxes and i shake my head. I lost her. I walk down the stairs and grab a water bottle from the frigde. I haven't talked with mom since two days ago. She dicided everything for me and she doesn't even ask. It pisses me off. I talked with dad too, but he said it was okay. He apoligized for last time and i forgave him for it. Well kind off. 'Finn? Are you going to stay mad forever?' Mom asks behind me and i keep my mouth shut. Childish? Yes. Do i care? Nope. I step past her and she grabs my arm. 'What do you want from me? I did what you wanted me to do. I packed eveything!' I snap but she does not let go of my arm. 'I want you to act normall.' She says and i shake my head. 'You should've thoughed of that before you dicided to throw my life around, again!' I snap and pull myself out of her grib. 'I understand that you are mad bu-' Mom starts but i cut her off. 'No you don't understand, otherwise you wouldn't have done that!' I now yell and mom grabs my arm again. 'I know that you will miss her Finn, but she is not the only girl on this planet.' Mom says and i laugh. 'I don't want a differn't girl mom! I want Millie! And i had her untill you dicided that i couldn't!' I yell and mom lifts her hand. 'I didn't tell you to break up with her.' She says and i shake my head. 'You might as well could have.' I snap and storm up the stairs, leaving my upset mom behind in the kitchen. 'Do you need to be so cruel to her?' Nick asks after and i laugh. 'You call me cruel?' I mumble and Nick sighs. 'Look, i get that it is hard to move, especially when you have to leave your friends, school, and for you girlfriend, but it is the way it is.' Nick snaps and i laugh again. 'Says the guy who is also leaving for his dream in a few weeks. You get want you want, i lost what i want.' I snap and push Nick out of my room. Why don't they understand? I know that i am mean and childish, but i don't want to move. Nobody asked me my opinion! I just have to go with. And why? i am 18! Millie was right, i should get my own place and i will get Millie back. I just need to figure out how i am going to get the money. I sit down on the bed and i sigh. What am i going to do? I don't want to move again. Millie is going to be fine without me, but am i going to be fine without her? She calms me down, makes me laugh more then i ever have, she understand what i mean, she knows what i want and now nobody does. It's just me, myself and i again. 'Great. Just great.' I mumble to myself and i grab my head phones again. I press them in my ear and press shuffle. A song from Harry Styles starts to play and i can't help but smile. I grab Call me by your name from my night stand and open the way to difficult book. If i ever do see her again, i will just wow her with a quote from this book and she will have to love me again. I start to read about Elio and Oliver. It is a good book, i discover after 3 hours of reading and still being on page 57. I google the book and find out that it is also a movie. Maybe i will watch that first. I open Netflix and press play on the movie. The movies say somewhere in the northern Italy. Maybe that is why Millie wanted to go there. I finish the movie and smile. Good movie, why too sad ending. Recommend it 8/10.