𝔸𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟-ℝ𝕖𝕒𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟 - 𝗳𝗶𝗹𝗹𝗶𝗲 𝗳𝗮𝗻𝗰𝗶𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻

Part 37

POV MILLIE

'Goodmorning.' Finn mumbles when i open my eyes. 'Hey.' I mumble and i strecth out a little. I look at Finn who is sitting up straight all ready. 'What time is it?' I ask and Finn turns to me. '7.30.' Finn says and i frown. '7,30? I sleep till 8.30.' I mumble and pull Finns arm so that he lays down next to me again. I lay my head on his arm and he presses his lips against my forehead. 'You can't sleep till 8.30 today.' Finn mumbles and i look up. 'Why not?' I ask and Finn smiles. 'We have to get our shots today and 8.20.' Finn says and i frown. 'That is today?' I ask and Finn nods. 'I totally forgot about that.' I mumble and Finn smiles. We leave in 3 days for Africa. I should start packing. I need books, enough clothes and spare clothes, things for in the bathroom, shoes, my charger and headphones, more books and then notebook where i wrote down the things i want to see. 'What are you thinking about?' Finn asks and i look up again. 'What i should pack.' I mumble and  Finn smiles. 'Which books are you bringing?' Finn asks and he start to play with my hair. 'I don't know yet. Have you started call me by your name yet?' I ask and Finn sighs. 'I tried, but it was too hard for me.' Finn says and i smile. 'You should try again.' I tell Finn and he sighs. 'Who knows?' He mumbles and he presses his lips against the side of my head again. 'Get up now?' Finn asks and i sigh. 'Fine, but only because i really want to travel again.' I mumble and push myself up. Half an hour later Finn and i step out of the car. We walk into the doctorsoffice and sit down in the waiting room. 'Hello Finn, how are your ribs?' Doctor Elmond asks when he tells us that we can come with him. 'They are good, fine.' Finn says and i give him a weirrd look. 'I am doctor Elmond.' The man smiles at me and i smile back. 'Millie.' I introduce myself and doctor Elmond opens the door for us. 'So, you guys are going on a little trip?' Doctor Elmond asks and we nod. 'Well, then i will give you guys 2 shots, one in both arms, for differn't diseases.' Doctor Elmond says and we both nod again. 'I'll do you first?' He asks me and i sit down. He grabs 2 small shots. He does one in my left arm first and then the one in my right. 'So, all done. You didn't even flinch.' He praises me and i smile. I switch places with Finn and he does flinch a little. 'So. Have fun on your trip!' Doctor Elmond says and we leave the doctorsoffice again.
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'Here you go. Are you sure you need all of this? You are only going for a week?' Mom questions when she hands me the painkillers. 'What if the warm weather gives me a headache? You never know mom.' I mumble and throw the box in my toiletbag, which is almost filled to the top. 'Then take a strip not a box. It saves room.' Mom mumbles and folds the clothes i layed down on my bed. '2 stips.' I agree and grab the metal colourd strips out. Mom mumbles something and then leave the room. I close my suitcase for tonight and lay in down next to my bed. 'I think 4 books is too much. Aren't you going to sightsee?' Mom asks when she comes back into the room with plastic bags. 'Yeah, but i don't know if Finn and his family want too. So then i can read.' I smile and mom raises an eyebrow. '4?' She asks and i nod. 'One for every mood.' I tell her and she sigh. 'Are you nervous?' Mom asks and i nod slowly. 'A little, but i am sure that it is going to be fine.' I try to convince her and myself. 'Is Finn coming by today?' She asks and i nod. 'So can i go to Davids?' She mumbles with a red head and i smile. 'Yeah sure.' I smile and mom her mouth curls up a little. I like seeing her happy. After a while she has left and i and sitting in front of the television again. I'v boxed for a while but i have a little muscles ache so i stopped. The doorbell rings and i push myself up. I open the door and i smile when i see Finn. 'Hey.' I smile and he sighs. 'Hey.' He says and steps past me inside. Someone is moody today. 'Are you okay?' I ask and Finn looks up at me. 'Yeah. Why wouldn't i be?' Finn asks and i frown. 'I was just asking.' I mumble and walk to the kitchen. I open the drawer and grab a teabag. 'Do you want something?' I ask and Finn mumbles something that i can't hear. I turn around and scan Finns perfect face. Besides from black circles underneath his eyes, he looks fine. Not mad or anything. 'What?' He snaps and i step back from Finn harsh tone. 'What is up with you?' I ask and Finn shakes his head. 'Tell me.' I demand and Finn narrows his eyes. 'Like you tell me so much.' Finn mumbles and i frowns deeper. 'Is this because of last night? When... you know?' I ask and Finn frowns. 'No of course not.' He snaps and i sigh. 'Finn. Tell me.' I demand again and i sit down at the table across from Finn. He sighs and looks down. 'Mom wants to move.' Finn drops and i open and close my mouth a few times. 'Move? Where?' i ask and Finn looks down again. 'Canada.' Finn mumbles and i feel my troat close up. Canada? That is more then 5000 kilometres. I stare at the table, afraid that i will cry if i look up. Canada?! Why not london? That is only 50 kilometres away. Canada?! Why Canada?! I rub over my forehead and i carfully look up again. 'When?' I ask and Finn finds my eyes. 'After we come back from Africa.' He mumbles and i imideatly look down again. So fast. Too fast. 'Millie?' Finn asks after a while and i look up. 'I don't think i can do long distance.' He mumbles and i look down at the table again fast. 'You're breaking up with me aren't you?' I ask and i feel then anxiety come up. 'I don't think there is any other way.' Finn mumbles and i look up. 'That bullshit.' I snap and stand up. 'There is always another way but if you aren't even willing to try then maybe we should break up.' I snap and storm up the stairs. I don't want to break up. I just got him back. Why Canada? We were fine and now this? It is not fair. I kick against my suitcase and crawl underneath the tick covers of my bed. Canada? 'Millie?' Finn asks and he opens the door to my room. I stare at the wall in front of mine to stop myself from crying. I feel the bed next to me go down a little and i feel Finns arms around my waist. 'Don't be upset.' Finn mumbles and i keep looking staight ahead. 'Millie, i am willing to try but i don't think it will make you or me happy. We won't see each other for months and calling is not the same. And then what? When we are older one of us will have to give up their home, dreams and family. We are both not going to do that either.' Finn mumbles and i can not stop the tears at this point. I stay quiet because i know Finn is right. We can't do longdistance. I don't want to do longdistance. 'Stay here.' I mumble but i know Finn won't do it. He won't leave his mom. 'You know i can't.' Finn mumbles and i look down. 'I will miss you.' I mumble and Finn grabs my arm. he pulls it and forces me to turn. 'I will miss you.' Finn mumbles and he moves his tumb over my cheek. I scan Finns perfect face to make sure that i won't forget it when he leaves. 'You couldn't have said this before i got my shots?' I try to joke and Finn smiles a little. 'I didn't know untill an hour ago.' He mumbles and his breath on my face makes me dizzy again. We don't talk for a while, both don't know what to say. Finn his phone makes a sound and he grabs it. 'I have to go.' Finn mumbles and i look down. 'I don't want you too.' I mumble and Finn grabs my face with both his hands. He presses his lips against mine. Finn does not let go for quite a while. 'Bye Millie.' he mumbles when he lets go and i shake my head. I don't let go of Finns arm when he let's go. 'Millie...' He mumbles and i finally let go of his hand. 'I love you.' I mumble when Finn steps a step back. He smiles and opens the door. 'I love you.' He mumbles back and i feel more tears come up. 
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'Millie?' My moms voice wakes me up. I did not sleep at all. He left. Finn is leaving. We broke up. Why did we break up? We could at least try longdistance. 'Yeah?' I yell back and i sit up straight. 'Hey...' She starts when she opens the door but when she sees my face she stops. 'What happend?' Mom asks and i feel tears come up again. 'We broke up.' I tell mom and she frowns. 'What? Why?' She questions and sits down next to me. 'Because he is moving to Canada.' I mumble and Mom frowns even deeper. 'Why?' She asks and i shrug. 'His mom wants to.' I mumble and mom wraps her arms around me. 'I am sorry hon.' She mumbles and i focuss on one spot to keep myself from crying again. 'I guess no Africa?' Mom asks to make sure and i shake my head. 'How about you and i take a trip?' Mom asks and i smile. 'I am fine.' I try to comfert her but i know my face rats out how i really feel. 'Not just for you. For me too. I want a break, you need a break. We can travel threw Italy.' Mom says and i smile. 'I know you've been wanting to go.' She says and i smile. 'Thanks mom.' I mumble and she wraps her arms around me again. 
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POV FINN

Fucking Canada. I just got my life in order here, dicided mom that she wants to move to Canada. 5000 kilometres away from the girl that i love, from my dad and from the few friends i do have. 5000! Not 100, not 50, no 5000 fucking kilometres. I stare at the white wall in my room. 'Finn?' Mom calls from down stairs but i don't find the enegry to awnser. I hear her footsteps on the stairs and she opens the door. 'You need to start packing.' She says and i shake my head. 'I am not going with.' I snap and mom frowns. 'Let me stay.' I beg and mom smiles. 'You both said i needed to choose for me more.' She says and i laugh hystericly. 'Yeah, i ment, take a yoga class, move 50 kilometres not fucking 5000!' I snap and mom sighs. 'Finn....' She mumbles and i shake my head again. 'let me stay.' I beg again and she shakes her head. 'I can't stay here Finn, it will kill me and i can not afford the rent of two houses.' She says and i frown. 'I'll stay at Millies.' I says and mom shakes her head. 'Mom....' I complain and she sigh. 'Start packing.' She says again and i shake my head. 'I love her mom.' I tell her and i feel tears come up. i don't want to leave Millie. I want to stay with her forever. 'She won't be the only one you'll ever love.' Mom says and i laugh. 'She is the only one i want to love.' I snap and Mom smiles. 'Then you guys will meet again in a few years.' Mom says and she leave my room. I stare at the wall before i slowly push myself up to take a shower and wash all these feeling off of me.