ifhy, | vinnie hacker

06- the break down

rhiannon

"i just feel like i shouldn't be here right now. i feel like it's insensitive but vinnie said it wasn't up to everybody. i just feel really shitty being here." i said. "no not at all!! i honestly had no idea about your mom so i'm sure not many people here do, and they shouldn't. that's your information to tell, don't let their opinions keep you from coping the way you want to." ella said. i smiled. "thank you so much." i said. "of course. do you want my number or something and you can text me if you need to talk?" she asked. "yes that would be awesome. i don't hang out with anybody except for vinnie and he has practice everyday so i'm always super bored.." i said. i handed her my phone and she handed me hers. we exchanged number and then she pointed at the room i was just in. "is there a bathroom in there?" she asked. "yeah there is, but he's not in the bathroom so if you wanna go in, you can." i said. "could you come with me?" she asked.

how do i explain who was in there? and how do i say no without sounding shitty? "sure!" i said. "perfect." she said. she opened the door and there sat jason, in the same place i left him, heads in his hands, probably still crying. his head shot up when he heard the door open. he looked at me. "oh my gosh. are you okay?" ella asked. "yeah i'm fine." he said. and put his head back in his hands. "oh.. okay." she said. she walked into the bathroom and jason got off the bed to leave the room, i stayed outside the door since i didn't know her like that yet. he turned around and looked at me, "you're so selfish." he said. "i'm not doing this with you right now." i said. "then when? when you're done sucking vinnie's dick? or whatever you do for fun now? you should be at home crying over the death of your mom but instead your belligerently drunk at a party. what the fuck rhiannon? you're not even the same person anymore." he said. here come my tears this time. "seriously i don't want to talk to you right now. please leave me alone jason, i don't want people to hear us. i don't want to be known as the girl who argues with her Ex boyfriend at parties. it's not a good look for either of us." i said. "well you know what isn't a good look?" he asked. "what?" i asked. "vinnie. get off his dick sometime and let me know when you're done." he said. opening the door and walking out. "watch out." i heard someone say in the hall.

a few seconds later that face walked into the bedroom i was standing in. i turned my head around to face the bathroom door not knowing who it was. i wiped some of them away and waited for ella to get done. what's taking so long. i felt a pair of hands around my waist. making me tense up. "hey, hey what's wrong?" it was vinnie. i didn't turn around. he couldn't know i was crying. "nothing, i'm just drunk crying." i said. "that's not true, i saw him leave. don't lie to me. look at me." he said, using a finger to pull my face towards him. the doorknob clicking, and turning signaling ella was done. i turned around and vinnie wrapped his arms around me as i cried into him. he put a hand on the back of my head and ran his hands through my hair.

ella opened the door looking at us, "what's wrong?" she asked. "it's a really long story." vinnie said. "i heard someone yelling out here, did that guy yell at you?" she said asking me. "yeah, he's her ex." vinnie said. i sniffled not wanting to talk about it. "can we go home?" i asked. "yeah we can. do you have your things?" he asked. i didn't answer, i just let out a small sob, he touched the back pockets of my jeans, making sure i had my phone with me.  "do you have a ride ella?" he asked. "no but i'll find one! my friend can come pick me up. that was the plan anyways." she said. "don't worry, you can come home with us. i don't wanna leave you here." he said. my heart hurt even more. he wanted her to come with us, he cared about her and part of me wanted that to be me. but at the same time i guess it was. I loved ella and if vinnie liked her then that's what he deserved.

we got into the car and i offered shotgun to ella but she respectfully declined and climbed into the backseat of vinnie's car. we drove home to the sound of the quiet radio and the rain hitting the windshield. vinnie was holding my hand but not in a romantic way, just a comforting way.  a few minutes later we pulled into vinnie's driveway. i got out of the car and ella and vinnie followed. we walked into the house and it was pitch black. vinnie's parents were gone for the weekend and his siblings were gone at a baseball tournament so the house was completely empty. i walked into my bedroom and ella followed i guess she thought we were going to vinnie's room. she looked around, "wait. this room is so cute. is this yours? there's no way this is his?" she asked. "yeah it's mine. they let me live with them after my mom died, so i've been here ever since." i said. vinnie came in a few minutes later and laid down on my bed. "thats so nice oh my gosh. your room is so cute! can i use your bathroom to wash my face really quick?" she asked. "of course. use whatever you need there's towels under the sink." i said. i looked over at vinnie and he was passed out on my bed.