•1981•Nikki Sixx•

52. You're All I Need

August 18th 1987:

The tour so far had been amazing. We still had about 2 months left as the tour finished late November. 

My band's music was getting even more popular every day. We were becoming even more successful as the days went by.

Izzy and I had gotten even closer. I didn't even know that was possible! We hang out a lot, and I mean a lot.

Nikki sees Damon and Nick every day. It's just like what it used to be except we aren't together.

We were all sad that the tour was ending but knew eventually it would. Who knows, maybe we will do another tour like this in the future.

"So you excited for tonight?" Asks Izzy as we chill out in my dressing room.

"Always." I say with a laugh.

"Let's go, I think Mötley are on and then your on so we should probably head backstage." Izzy says getting up.

"Let's go dude." I respond.

We get up and see the boys have already started playing. They were playing Wild Side which was one of my favourites from the album.

I bobbed my head along with the music and mumbled the lyrics. When the song was finished everyone gave  a round of applause, even us all backstage. Vince then takes a deep breathe and looks over at me and mouths 'sorry.'

I furrow my eyebrows in confusion.

"Good evening everyone! We are Mötley fucking Crüe. We are gonna do a song right now written for a very special person. Ally, this is from Nikki." Vince says.

They start to play You're All I Need.

I feel tears well up in my eyes. I was sad, mad. Many emotions ran through my body. I took a deep breathe.

"Ally-" Izzy begins.

Before he can say anything I storm out the back door. I stand and sob quietly for a little while. Then the door opens after about 30 minutes and it's Doc.

"I'm sorry about that Ally." He says.

"Don't you dare apologise for anything. You've done nothing wrong." I say.

He nods and there is a moment of silence.

"Your on in 5 minutes, are you coming?" Asks Doc.

"Yeah let's go."

I walk in the door and smile at everyone who is staring at me with worried expressions. I begin to walk to side stage. Nikki walks past me and I don't look in his direction one bit. As I get to side stage Vince pulls me by the arm.

"Listen Ally I'm so sorry. I tried to tell him not to dedicate the song to you or even tell anyone it was about you. He insisted and said that it might help your marriage." Vince says looking at the floor.

"Don't apologise for anything. You have done nothing wrong so don't apologise." I say.

Vince nods.

"Good luck out there."

"Thanks man." I say.

I wait a minute and then kaizü walks over beside me.

"Nikki is being a dick. Don't let him get to you." She says.

I nod and give her a quick hug before the band and I run on stage. The crowd cheers and I smile at them all.

"Good evening ladies and gentlemen!" I shout.

This was gonna be a long night.
~
After our performance was over and as soon as I got backstage I stormed to Nikki's dressing room. I knock on his door.

No answer.

I knock harder once again.

No answer.

"Open the fucking door Sixx!" I shout.

No answer.

I opened the door to see Nikki making out with some girl. I rolled my eyes and then they both noticed my presence.

"You. Out." I say pointing to the girl.

She quickly gets up and leaves. As soon as she does I turn to Nikki with anger.

"What the fuck was that?" I ask.

"Her? Oh that's Casey-"

"Not the girl, the song." I say sharply.

"For you." He says with a smirk.

"You think a song is gonna save our marriage?" I ask.

"Well.."

"Your kidding right? Your kidding? What the fuck.." I say. "That's not gonna save our relationship."

There is a moment of silence before Nikki speaks up.

"You don't love me do you?" He asks.

"What? Are you being serious? I love you with my full heart, if anything I feel like you don't love me. You sleep with girls every night. I love you so much, so much but you broke my heart in so many ways Nikki." I say.

"Then why aren't you with me if you love me?!" He shouts.

"Because of the fucking drugs!" I shout back.

His anger fades and it was replaced with sadness.

"You know what forget about it. Thank you for the song or whatever. On my way out I will make sure to send the groupie back in." I say.

"Ally-"

Before he can say anything I leave. I slam the door behind me and look at the girl who was standing right next to the door.

"He's all yours." I say with a sarcastic smile.

~

"Ignore him! You are to amazing for him!" Says Kaizü taking a bit of cookie dough from the bowl.

"I can't ignore him when he keeps writing me songs and looking for attention.." I say eating cookie dough off the spoon.

"I know it's hard and no one said it would be easy. Your doing really well, keep up the good work." She says.

"Thanks Kaizü, wanna watch a movie?" I ask excitedly.

"Sure! Can we watch Labyrinth? I haven't seen that movie in so long!" She exclaims.

"Yeah, David Bowie is amazing." I say turning on the TV.

"That is factual information right there." She says.

I laugh and then there is a knock on the door.

"Come in!" We shout in unison.

Rosetta and Paige then walk through the door. They are in their pajamas just like us.

"Can we watch TV with you?" They ask.

"Of course, we are watching Labyrinth!" Excliamed Kaizü.

"Yes! Where are Damon and Nick?" Asks Rosetta.

"Next door, the nanny put them to sleep and sleeps in the same room as them." I say.

"Cool, let's watch TV shall we?" Asks Paige.

Kaizü and I nod and the two girls get into bed with us. We switch on the TV and watch the movie eating cookie dough.

What a perfect night.
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