•1981•Nikki Sixx•

24: 1984

Christmas has passed. New year has passed. 1984 baby. I had a good feeling about this year. I Don't know what it is, I just have high hopes.

Nikki and I still have no luck with getting pregnant. I have made an appointment at the doctors this week to see if there is anything wrong. Honestly I am kinda nervous. I have always wanted kids. Anyways let's not focus on all the sad stuff.

Guns N Roses are finishing their deluxe version of Appetite For Destruction which they are really glad about. I have been helping them but it all together and write songs. Izzy and I are really good friends. I knew we would the first day I saw him but we are really close. Sharise, Razzle, Izzy and I are like a little group. At party's we will all hangout wit each other as the other boys do whatever they want. Speaking of party's that is something we have all been attending regularly. Every week we are all at a party. Including Sharise, she just doesn't drink any alcohol. We used to party now and then but now it's every week. Sometimes maybe even twice a week.

That's the latest news with us all. Nothing really exciting. Just your normal rockstar life I guess.

"So when do you guys wanna release the album?" Asks Duff.

I was currently with Guns N Roses in the studio. They have been trying to figure out a date to release their new album and still can't figure it out. I pulled a box of cigarettes from my pocket and placed one between my lips lighting it. I then passed the box over to Izzy and he took one for himself.

"I don't know man." Says Izzy blowing smoke out.

"Maybe 4 weeks or something?" Asks Steven.

"No that's to soon." Axl says.

"You kidding? If anything that's too late." Said Slash.

They all stared shouting over one another trying to figure out a date. I rolled my eyes and left the room.

Don't get me wrong I love the guys but when they fight I want to pull my hair out. I walked outside into the parking lot where I saw Nikki standing next to his car. I ran over to him and hugged him tight.

"What are you doing here!?" I asked.

"Thought I could maybe take you out for lunch."

We walked along the long road hand in hand.

"Thanks for lunch." I say.

"Anything for you."

"Nikki."

He turned to face me.

"Are you worried we can't get pregnant?" I ask.

"No I'm fine, Sometimes it can take longer than others. Don't worry we will have a baby, soon." He says smiling.

After finishing up in the studio I went home. Nikki went out with the boys for some drinks so I got a shower and watched some old movies. It got boring after a while, so I decided to call Sharise.

"Hey Sharise, you wanna come over?" I ask

"Yeah! Give me like 15 minutes and I will be there."

We said our goodbyes and about 10 minutes later she showed up.

"Hey!" I say pulling her in for a hug.

"Hey girl!"

"You want a drink?"

"Uh waters fine, thanks." She says with a smile.

We sat in the kitchen talking about her pregnancy and all. She was really excited and it was nice to see her really happy like this.

"So when's your doctors appointment?" She Asks.

"Tomorrow!"

"Does Nikki know?"

"No actually, you and my brother Marcus are the only people that know."

"Marcus? Wow I haven't heard that word in a long time.."

"Yeah he met a girl in England. They having been dating for about 2 months and they are inseparable!"

"How's Hayley and Levi?"

"They are back at work. Hayley is in London right now and Levi is in Italy. They will be back in about 3 weeks or so."

"Wow so you are pretty much alone. You only have Me, Razzle and Izzy right now and of course Nikki and all that.."

"Yeah but I like the quiet." I say smiling at her.

Me and Sharise spoke for hours and eventually she left. I went to bed pretty early because I was nervous about tomorrow. At about 3:00am Nikki came home drunk as a skunk.

"Hellooo." He says standing in the doorway.

"Hey, you woke me up."

"OH, Shshshshsh, sleep princess." He says hugging me from behind.

"Goodnight Nikki."

"Goodnight babe."

15th January 1984:

I sat in the parking lot of the doctors. My palms were sweating buckets. I was nervous as shit. What if I couldn't have kids? What if I will never have kids? Thoughts wrapped around my mind. I checked the time. 11:20. 10 minutes till my appointment.

I walked in and was greeted by lots of people with big smiles on their faces. I took a seat. Shortly after a women came out of a room.

"Ally Sixx?"

I stood and walked over to her.

Her room was filled with posters of pregnancy.

"So Ally, whats the problem today?"
I took a deep breathe.

"Me and my husband Nikki have been trying for a baby for about 3/4 months and we have had no luck. I wanted to come along to see if anything was wrong."

"Ok, we will do some scans and have a little look. Does that sound ok?"

I nodded.

"Ally, when was the last time you had your period?" She asked me.

"Last month. I haven't had it yet this month."

"Ok, I will be back in one second."

She left the room and I was left alone with my thoughts once again. I had a gut feeling that something bad was going to happen. The doctor then returned.

"Ally, have you been drinking at all?"

"I went to a party last week and had a couple of drinks."

"That's ok."

There was a moment of silence in the room.

"Ally, you have nothing to worry about."
"Thank goodness I-"

"Because you're pregnant."
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